2nd year....how time has flown....

Mar 04, 2012

It's so hard to believe that 2 years have passed since my Roux-En-Y!  So many things have changed, most for the good thank goodness.  
I guess that I have fallen into the habit of not getting in here to post and update my blog.  I am going to make it a priority to do that at least once a week from now on.  I can say that there has been times that I have fallen off the proverbial wagon....but when I did...I learned the hard way.  Whether it was eating something that really  messed up my pouch...to dealing with sugar cravings...I have learned now that I have to consider if it is worth it.  
I have learned that there are things that I can do....and do them without pain, and some without excuses...I still have to motivate myself some days.  
Now that I live in Port Angeles, Washington, I have to learn how to deal with riding my bike in the rain....but that's a whole other story for next time...lol

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Over the 100.....newer pics!

Aug 12, 2011

I got these pictures done in November of last year, but just found them!!!!
I was never able to fit into a formal dress and I was so thrilled to see that this dress was a bit too big for me.!!!!!


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When is enough....enough????

Dec 12, 2010

As much as I would like to say that I come in here to see what's happening, and to post....it hasn't been that way.  The past few weeks have been filled with stress.  From my car breaking down (and not having the money to fix it---to finally selling it just to make my rent) to waiting for a job offer (which I can't find out if I got it...,.or didn't) to having my son's service dog becoming critically ill this past week!

I am so stressed out that I am not dealing with this very well.....I am finding that I am returning to old habits....(overeating, not eating good enough food, not drinking water).  I can see that I am depressed....I am surprised to make it this far!! LOL) Believe me, this is the smallest worry that I have right now! 

I guess the old saying holds true...."What doesn't kill us...makes us stronger."   I just wish that this wasn't happening during the holidays....It just kills any interest or excitement for Christmas...

This is a bit of a rant...but I need to let the stress out or just get more depressed.  I won't go on any anti-depressants...they really screw my brain up even more.  In closing, I just hope that there is a bit of good news or a job around the corner...I am tired of being stressed out and cranky...........
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Hanging in here...

Oct 29, 2010

I haven't had the time to come in and blog as much as I should since moving back to Colorado.  I have been dealing with trying to find a job---I am trying to find a part-time job as I am want to continue training for a triathlon over the winter months.
 
I don't even have a car anymore....I finally decided to stop putting loads of money into it.
I have found that riding my bike 90% of the time....(even for grocery shopping....LOL) has become my main mode of transportation and my biggest stress reliever!!  In an average week, I log in about 20-25 miles....not as much as I want to.  I think that I will increase to about 40-45 miles just to get ready for the triathlon that I want to do. 

I am now under 180 pounds and my bmi is now 28!!!  I never thought that I would ever see this weight, let alone have a bmi under 30!  Today I decided to weigh in at the fitness center (I have started going to a fitness center to use the sauna and jacuzzi---love it after riding my bike there)
and was shocked to see that I lost 6 more pounds.  As of today, I am only 19 pounds over my "ideal" goal weight...and it hasn't even been 8 months....I thank God, Dr. Sadha and Dr. Chapman helping me to have had this surgery!

I have been visited several friends here in Denver that hadn't seen me in more than 2 years (the last time they saw me was before we moved to New York and I weighed over 300 pounds).  One of them kept staring at me....she didn't even recognize me with the weight loss.  It's great to be complimented on losing the weight...it definitely keeps me motivate!!!  I want to be at my goal weight (160 pounds---for my 50th Birthday by December 16th!)  or as close to it as possible.

In closing, I found that I have missed blogging....it is my way to say..."I'm doing alright.  The future is getting better and I can do it." Simple motivations.....

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Slow and steady.....

Sep 27, 2010

Well, I finally got the chance to weigh in and was pleasantly surprised to  see that I finally broke through the plateau from hell....I know that everyone says to stay away from the scale but that is easier said than done.  Prior to our move from New York I was working out every day.....but here in Colorado I am riding my  bike and enjoying it.  My car is broken down, but even though it is a headache, I don't miss it one bit.  
I am now weigh 185 and my bmi is under 30 finallly.  As much as  others might not care about their bmi under 30, it is.huge for me!  Mine is 29.9 and it is a great feeling!  I am wanting to drop another 2 pts and 20 pounds by Christmas, and I will be at  my goal wei ght. 
I know that this is going to take some time, and alot more working out, but it is going to worth it.  I just need the amount and level of my motivation.....
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Changes.. and updates....

Sep 14, 2010

Well, it has been over two months since I last blogged! Hard to believe it, but there has been so many changes in my life the last two months that I am still trying to get settled!

1.  The biggest change is that my teenagers and I moved back to Westminster, Colorado from Elmira, New York.  In between sorting a 3 bedroom house down to less than 30 boxes, moving with FOUR cats, one service dog (the uber boober Mia..lol), and two teenagers has been stressful.

2.  I decided that I needed to attend to some unfinished business with school......planning on heading back to graduate school in this next coming Spring (2011) to finish my Master's ( and try to complete another degree in Social Work)...Call me crazy but it is something that I want to do.

We are still trying to get things unpacked, find a new job here in the Denver area, and get used to riding my bike everywhere.  My car decided that it needed to die after arriving here.  Lucky me....lol....it's okay, I am wanting to buy a newer truck anyway.....

I am still planning on doing a triathlon, but I decided that I would do one that is in Colorado, and try for next year's Trek Women's Mini-Triathlon,

I haven't had much time to get in here and keep up with my friends, but that is going to change as I am now going to be more settled in the near future.  I do hope that all of you are doing good, that life is full of joy and good health!  Will post more pics and blogs!

Hugs to all, Lena
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Lost and found.....

Jul 07, 2010

Hey all~~~

I haven't been in OH for several weeks as there has been things that I have been working on.  The first is applying for a new job (at the organization that I currently work for) in Rochester, NY.  After learning that I got the job, I just found out (yesterday) two things: One---I am not getting a raise, and this is going to really suck because rent in Rochester is about 1 1/2 times I pay now and have higher expenses that I don't think I can cover.

There are several options that I am considering:

I am considering is relocating back to Colorado...this is my hope, but I need to find a job that I can go right into...after moving to Colorado. Both of my teens are wanting to move back but it all depends on if I can find a decent paying job.  The other problem with this is that my ex is being a pain in the arse about us moving, even though he lives a 1000 miles away.  Go figure!

I can stay where I am now as the rent is decent, but I don't know if I can keep my job that I have now.  And the other thing is that I will LOSE my mind due to boredom here!  Very slow and not much happening here.

Now for the good news!

The best thing that has happened to me in the last  1 1/2 weeks.......I am now an official member of the Onederland Club!!! I have been working out at least 2-4 times a week for the last 2 weeks.  It hasn't been easy....as I had to deal with 5 week plateau....thank goodness that I have a great trainer!!! He just shakes his head when I tell him that I am not going to quit every time he increases the amount of time and resistance on the cardio machines!  I think that I am developing that bulldog mentality when it comes to working out!!!  
What a change in 4 months from the couch potato I was.....to rowing 3 to 5 1/2 miles and 1 to 2 1/2 miles on the eliptical bike for cardio 2-4 times a week and started adding weight conditioning to my workouts.  

It has been interesting to see how many things have or will change in the next month. I will be putting up some new pictures in the next few days, when I get more time.

 
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Tired, grumpy and changes...

Jun 18, 2010

This week has been a hard week for me... I have been having alot of pain in my feet and still trying to work out as much as I can.  I have been evaluated by a physical therapist and my ankles and feet are really bad....he doesn't want to even do any exercises as it will further weaken the tendons and ankles.  Go figure~~~
The weird thing is that I didn't have this much pain when I was heavier, the pain threshold has been decreasing as I continue to lose the weight.  Part of me is thinking that this pain is due to becoming more active (working out 2-4 times a week) and the other part of me is trying to deal with the change of my body.  More and more people are commenting on my weight loss and I appreciate the comments, but I still see the fat.  It's the old story...lose the weight, while trying to get my brain to acknowledge that my body is and has changed. 
Lastly, I am waiting to find out if I will be transferring to a new position (hopefully with more pay) in a new city.  I am not the most patient person....it's driving me nuts to wait and wonder.  I guess that this is good, but I'd rather want to know one way or another. ...
It's late, hot and I'm ready to close this down and head to bed....Have a good weekend all....
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Clarification on my post.....

Jun 07, 2010

Two days ago, I posted my 3 newest goals that I want to accomplish within the next 3 months:

1.  Weigh less than 175
2.  Complete a mini-triathlon
3.  Get into a women's size Large shirt, and size 14 pants.

It is the second goal that I have been contacted about the most.  I am in training for the 2010 Trek Women's Mini-Triathlon... I haven't decided if I am going to do the race in Seattle (would love to do the race there as I have family living in Washington and Oregon) or Orlando (this would be great as my kids and I can go to DisneyWorld after the race and celebrate!)

I appreciate all the support that people have sent through OH, and on my blog!  After reading all of the posts and messages, I began to wonder if there is any other members here at OH that are thinking of doing the same Trek Women's Mini Triathlon this year...???? If so, please let me know and maybe we can meet up and do the race!  I would love to hear from anyone that might be thinking of doing the race, whether you are in New York or any other state!
Thank you again, Lena


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3 Months and going good....

Jun 05, 2010

It is strange to sit here and think that it has been over 3 months since my Gastric Bypass surgery.  90 days...
I look back and see the old me at 294...it is weird.  I have lost 85 pounds....4 dress sizes--26W down to a 16W now.....

I don't know how I lived weighing so much.  The stress on my body was enormous....I am just surprised that I didn't have a heart attack...let alone develop diabetes!!  I won't lie and say that the last 90 days has been all great...there have been times where I wonder why I did this...(usually this is when I am going through  some issues with "Eve" (my pouch), this happens with what I have eaten). 
For the most part, I do see that there are changes in my body, and my thinking. The changes don't seem that much, but I am still getting positive support and comments from friends and people that I interact with at my work.  I don't fixate on what I can't eat anymore....it's a waste of time and frankly, I am not interested in it.  I have found that there is other things and activities that I now enjoy.  I hated working out....didn't want to deal with finding clothes that would cover my body.  Let alone, go into a place where there was "skinny, normal" people who would stare at me.  Now, I am beginning to enjoy the work-outs, and I find now that I am there because of me.

I wonder what the next 3 months will bring for me.  I made myself a promise that I would weigh less than 200 pounds by July 1st.....I have to drop another 9 1/2 pounds to go, and I know that I will make it.  There are several goals that I want to start working on for the next 3 months (October 1st):
1.  Weigh less than 175
2.  Complete a mini-triathlon
3.  Get into a women's size Large shirt, and size 14 pants.

In closing, I see the success of my goals ultimately is up to me.......Second, I want to thank all that have given me support when I needed it most, kicked me in the butt when I needed it..and lastly, especially for great ideas and advice!!! Thank you all for being here for me, Lena

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