LadyDD
I am 43 years old. I have been heavy all my life. I currently weigh 240 lbs - I have been on every diet known to man. Some of them worked temporarily until I stopped taking the pills or until they became ineffective - and then the weight came back with avengence! I have been scheduled for this surgery 3 times and chickened out of every one of them. I have an increasing number of comorbidities to include high blood pressure, arthritis, sleep apnea (which I just found out that I had), I am depressed all the time, acid reflux disease and every joint in my body (especially my knees and my ankles) scream every time I stand up or walk. I have a family history of diabetes and heart disease along with the other health problems that I already have. I would like to ward off the latter two as long as possible.
I have come to the conclusion that this surgery is the only thing that will work for me. My problem is that I am scared beyond belief. Everyone says that is natural - I would imagine that it is - But everyone else seems to be able to get over it and take the leap - I have yet to be able to do that. I have called my doctor and started the ball rolling for a 4th time. I pray so hard that I make it in to (and especially out of!! ) the OR this time. My husband is 110% supportive of my decision. My mom and my oldest son are not - They are completely against it - But as my mom says "just stop eating" or "can't you just cut back" or hear is the best one - "Exercise!!" lol!! I am damn luckly that I am able to walk to and from the bathroom on my own without a cane or a walker right now - but according to my mom, I should "exercise". Its not her falt - she is a product of the "never been fat" environment. If you haven't been where I am - You will NEVER understand it - So don't try to!
In any event - I plan to begin my journey again soon - I had gotten insurance approval back in March - I am hoping that it was good for a year so that I don't have to go back through that. I have already had the consult with my doctor - and I have already had the sleep study. I need to get my C-Pap machine and get through the rest of my pre-ops. I am hoping to having surgery sometime during the first part of January 2007. I am having a RNY.
