Update

Dec 14, 2008

 Well hey all it has been almost a month since i last updated i have now lost 32 lbs. and i am feeling better. So much better that i have started to excersize i have gone twice now and i am doing it slowly so as to not overdue it.  i started with 10 min on the eliptical then ten minutes of arm weights and then 10 min on the tread mill. i am going to slowly increase each of these things so that i get a great workout.  I weigh myself at the local sigma office every tuesday so i am interested to see what i have lost since working out.

Will update again soon

WOW WHAT A RUSH.....

Nov 19, 2008

O.K.  so it has been a while since i have posted today is November 19 and i am 8 days post - op.  Between being approved and my surgery just went by so fast one minute i get a letter next minute i am in the hospital getting prepped. 

So i arrive at Wishard Memorial which is in Indianapolis (i had to leave at 3:30 am to get there on time.)  at 5:25 the only time i have ever been early for anything i do believe.  When i try to go in the doors were locked and I walked almost a full block to another entrance only to go in the doors and down a hall way that took me right to the first entrance. We get to admissions and they arent even open. After waiting about 15min. someone comes and gets me takes me back asks a few standard questions name b-day .  So when she is done she leads me and my family back to the pre op waiting room where i go strait to the bathroom ( the effects of the laxative hasnt worn off quite yet)  when i come out someone is already waiting for me i thought wow thats fast .  She asks me do you still have to pee.   i looked at her sheepishly.  She tells me that i have to take a preg, test before they will do surgery.  I totally should have expected that. So i take the cup and surprisingly i manage to squeeze out about 2 drops which is enough and guess what Im not pregnant. Whew!  THen we go to the pre op room where she puts me in a gown asks all the normal questions. then she sees my earing in my earlobe and I tell her i cant get it out . The place that did it tells me that you have to pry this one apart with pliers i tell her this and yet she tries to pull it apart. nope didnt do anything  but hurt me , so she tapes the earring up for me.  Then the Anesthesiologist comes in the room hes a lil older than me kinda chunky and cute. THey pull my bed out so that he can find a vein and he gets down on one knee to look. I was nervous at this point and i tell him "dont you think you should take me on at least one date before proposing"  he turns red and smiles. Finally he finds a vein in my hand so he picks it up , still on one knee, and as he is putting the needle in i say " thats not how you put on a ring"  again he chuckles but turns red. My surgeon drops in after that for about 5 min. He says are you ready for this i smile and say yes then he walks away. about 4 min later they wheel my bed out of the little room and head for surgery, This is when i start to cry from the moment the wheels move down the hall into the surgery room as they wheel me in the room there are about 7  people in there who all see me crying 2 of them i hear say awww.  they they help me transfer to the surgery table have me feel to see how small it is then they take my arms out of my gown strap them down and they are still talkin to me and i am still crying (not horribly just tears going down my face) The next thing i know they are trying to wake me up. I am not totally there but somehow i am aware that i had surgery.  I feel the arms on my bed go up and it begin to move. Then i feel it hit a wall back up and hit it again. The man pushing my bed hits me into everywall all the way up my room so i was moaning in agony by the time they got me up there which they immediatly show me my morphine and i all too happily press the button and sleep.

I dont remember much from the rest of the day i remember looking up and seeing that its 4 oclock then 6 30 but not much i remember talking to a few nurses but i know i mostly slept.  The next day i had to take 2 leak tests with alot of help i get into my wheelchair. The nurse wheels me down there she doesnt slow down at any bumps the doorway to the room has a huge bump on the floor in it she doesnt even slow down and slams over it.  By the time i got there i was in so much pain i was crying.   They then had me stand at one machine took my exray then moved me to another where they had me stand up on this little ledge and they lowered this massive thing down in front of me i remember being so embarrased because as it went down it pressed into my stomach he then had me swallo the dye(which was the first drink i had in almost 36 hours)  took several more pics and was done.  Jill (my surgeons nurse)  said there were no leaks and it looked perfect Dr. Gomez made my pouch a lil smaller than most but its all good.  I go back to my room take the blue dye leak test and then i begin to get liquids. OH heaven sent!!!!   I also had the nicest male nurse i have ever had. Always a smile on his face. whenever i needed him he was right there so great. Then He went home. and i got stuck with the devil herself every time i needed help and paged her it took an hour and a half for her to get to my room when i couldnt sit up on my own cause my incision hurt tooo much she said "ya gotta do it at home why not here to you know i wont be there to help you then, besides my arm hurts." i couldnt believe a lil over 24 hours before i had major surgery and she pretty much gives me the bird.  Then i went to the restroom but needed some help wiping up cause i couldnt bend over and the nurse who helped me cringed at me.  I was Humiliated not like i wasnt embarrased enough about needing help. 

the next day and  a half went pretty well i got out of bed i walked but i was still just as sore  When it was time to come home i was really worried cause i ddnt know what i was going to do on my own what if something went wrong who would help me.  my doctor was and hour and a half away what would i do. But i came home and i did good it is now 8 days out and i am just fine. still sore but every day gets better

Today i went to Sigma and asked them if i could weigh myself and found out that i have already lost 14lbs!!!!!!!!   I am so Excited!!!!! 

so far i have lost 29 before surger and 14 after so a total of 43 lbs. YEAH ME

APPROVAL !!!!!!!!!

Oct 24, 2008

YES it is true i have finally after almost 4 years of fighting with doctors been approved for Gastric Bypass i am so excited, So excited that im not even scared (yet) i hope i dont get scared though i just want to start living my new life as a happy healthy MOM daughter girlfriend sister and friend to everyone that i know.    

Last week i was so worried about whether my request would be approved that i called the payor specialist in indy every day to see if she had received any word from Insurance.   She always gave a nice little laugh but im sure she was tired of hearing from me (she is a great gal so easy to get along with and im sure she understands my reasoning lol) .  So when friday came and no word from them i began to get so nervous that i was being rejected once again. So saturday came and i was checking my mail and i noticed an envelope that was from indy so immediatly i began to shake i knew what it was only i thought that i was being denied like last time. so i ripped it open and it looked like a bill to me then i saw a section that said
Decision Status:  Approved.

I really started freaking out and for some reason i wrinkled it up into a little ball and threw it into the air.  I started screaming thank you god over and over again ( yes i felt like a dum dum after word LOL) 

First thing 8 oclock on the dot monday morning i called and left both Jill( the nurse) and Myrna (payor specialist) a message telling them that i was approved and by 10 myrna called back said she would give Jill all my paper work and shed call me back so i thought i would have to wait a day or two to get scheduled but no within an hour Jill called back and gave me my surgery date which is NOVEMBER 11, 2008 at 7:30 Am. 

Thursday I seen my PCP and had my EKG and labs drawn, which both looked good and passed, then Friday i went to Home Hospital and had my Chest X-Ray done and as long as that comes back clean I am cleared for surgery.  

I have to go up on Nov. 5th for a Pre-OP class then back on the 11th for surgery i cannot wait to have this. Its finally going to happen i will be able to shop at normal stores again, i will be able to wear a bra that isnt 4 sizes too small and finally i will be healthy again and be an incredible role model for my kids, To learn how to eat again and make sure to pass everything i learn on to them so that they might never have to go down this road because allthough this surgery is a dream come true for me i dont want my children to be in a situation where surgery is even an option for them i want to teach them how to be healthy eaters and workout ethics so that they dont gain weight themselves.. I just dont want to be paranoid about them gaining and make them fear fat and becom anorexic either.  so will have to work on that one LOL. 

well will blog soon
18 days till new me

AND YET ANOTHER BLOG

Oct 11, 2008

Well it has been almost two months since my last post i found that my doctor hadnt sent my file. I found out i was missing parts of it was the reason i needed an updated psych eval. and another drug and alchohol free letter and another thyroid screen and 1 more thing that is slipping my mind. But the file was sent and i have kept in touch with the payor specialist for my surgeon and she says my file looks great and my doctor wrote and extroadinary letter so i should get approved although it still doesnt stop me from being terrified of denial....all i can think about is what if they say no what will i do then just get bigger and bigger untill i eventually die i have been working really hard and have managed to lose 37 lbs which is an amazing number but just not enough to improve my quality of life i still cant fit into the back seat of my van i still have to lay the driver seat down to drive. I am still mortified for my daughters school friends to see me for fear they will make fun of her. Its not enough for me to be able to eat in public with out people oinking at me or pointing while they giggle.  Or for me to even want to consider undressing in front of another human being.   I need this surgery so badly.  The possiblily of a no terrifies me.   I will blog again when i have recieved an answer from insurance. Thanks for reading

welcome back to me

Aug 20, 2008

well it has been a long time since i was on here and a lot has changed for me and surprisingly it has all been for the better.  i have lost 30 lbs ive gained a boyfriend and i am sure that i am about to be approved for my surgery.  I have my fingers crossed but i dont want to get my hopes up too high.  but i am really excited my life is moving in the right direction finally i am at a place where i believe that true happiness just might happen. The lonliness and depression are still there just surfacing less and less. Once i have this surgery and i am able to face all my demons down then my life will really be better but first steps first. I will be back soon to leave yet another blog and i am hoping beyond hope that it will be to tell you that i was approved and that i am having my surgery YAY


good news

Jun 13, 2008

Just found out today that my type of medicaid  has been changed and that what i have is more apt to approve surgery so when my file is sent in next week i will have much higher hope.

going..... getting excited

May 29, 2008

Well today I went to the doctor again and found out that i have lost 11.4 lbs yeay for me im so excited. 

My doctor was supposed to send my file in for surgery last week but now she thinks i will have a better chance for approval if i wait untill after my next appointment.  i will keep everyone informed

going.........

May 06, 2008

well its been almost 2 months since i last posted and its funny what can change in two months.  On the side of fundraising i have only been able to secure 26 more dollars so i now have $331.  But at least i am still getting more funds.  

On the other side which is my personal life on March 28 i discovered that my husband of almost 5 years cheated on me and i kicked him out!! it was devastating to me for the first two days and then i realized something.  i realized the house was quieter i realized i was smiling. The house was quiet because there were no longer fights happening. I was smiling because no more arguing with a 32 year old child about why it was important to keep the house clean.  

And then the big one I DIDNT LOVE HIM ANYMORE!!! When i realized that it about knocked me off of my feet. I finally discovered what life was like when u didnt have to be afraid that today was the day he was going to cheat on you.  i thought that once it ended that i would lay in my room for weeks even months crying my eyes out. Then i discovered I WAS HAPPY!! What an amazing feeling that was.

If there was anything that i could change it would be that he would see his kids more.  I didnt realize how incredibly selfish he was untill we split. It happened 7 weeks ago and he has only spent maybe a total of 36 hours with them since.  I dont want my children to suffer because of the divorce. That was one of my biggest fears one of the reasons that i held on to what wasnt there for so long because i was scared i wouldnt get that white picket fence with the happy family in it. I didnt want to give my children up every other weekend and holiday.  I am what is best for them i love them with everything that i have and the thought of some judge who has no idea what our life is truly like to demand that i give the kids to him without question every other weekend just tears a whole into my very soul.  i cannot afford a good attorney only a state appointed one so i hope he is good at what he does and helps me fight for the rights of my children. 

 

Its going.......

Mar 19, 2008

Today is March 19, 2008  things are going really good only 3 days of raising money and today i got a donation of  $150 my sister sold 5 dollars of baked goods for me and a friend of mine has emailed me and said that she took up a collection for me.  I do not know how much she has raised yet she said she will bring it by later this week but as of now my total  $305.50  so if i am able to continue on this path i will have what i need for surgery in  6 months. hope it is faster than that but how ever it takes is what i will be ok with as long as i reach my goal and am able to start my new life as the new me

i am adding something else i just found out that my sister has also put up a collection bucket at a local chiropracters office. I am so happy my family wants to help.at this rate i may have the surgery much faster than i had anticipated.  I know maybe i am getting my hopes up too high but hopes are all i have left.         Untill Next time


My journey begins.......Now

Mar 17, 2008

Saturday march 15 i held my first bake sale on my way to raise the money needed for my surgery.  And yeay i was able to raise a total of $150.50 i know its no where near enough for the surgery but it was enough to start i have had my father open up a bank account for me so that i cannot spend any money untill i get my goal amount. My account is  titled ANGELS WITH HOPE. I wil blog with either daily or weekly logs to let any one who is interested know how it is going for me. Thanks for reading my first ever blog.


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West Lafayette , IN
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11/11/2008
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