New Life Starts Now

Jun 03, 2014

Today really starts my new life. It is the first day of my Pre-Op and I am feeling ready! In two weeks, I will be on the operating table preparing for the VSG, June 17!  It is hard for me to believe that this day has arrived. It has been a long road. There were times, I believed that my husband's insurance Anthem PPO, would not approve the request. I honestly thought I would be denied for some reason! ( However, I was approved the very first time without any problems.)  I was just nervous which is typical I guess.

The hardest part for me was the jumping through the PSY hurdles. Since, I have OCD and battle depression and anxiety, it was difficult because I was honest with the psychologist at the clinic. Even though my therapist and own psychiatrist cleared me for surgery, I had to jump through the clinic's own hoops for clearance. I even had a letter before I arrived that stated that I was mentally ready for surgery. The clinic was very concerned that my OCD would interfere with weight loss and put me on a path of anorexia. My own doctor who I have a history with, wasn't good enough for them I guess at first! LOL. I didn't realize how bad that my OCD was I guess. I didn't know that it could impact my life really like this.

I had to have my husband go help me fight and advocate for me with my own psychiatrist who knows me the best! He had to tell my own doctor he would be supporting me 100% through my journey. ( Which he is!) He would there to help monitor my progress and keep in touch with all the doctors if he sees a decline in my health. WOW! I am amazed  at all of this. It sort of freaks me out that they are all worried because right now I weigh 250 pounds and they are worried that I am going to become anorexic during this journey after surgery. They state that I can become obsessed with the scale, weight, calorie counting, weighing myself, carb counting, etc. I guess we will cross that bridge when I get to it. I will use my OCD to my advantage. My doctor sees this as something that can be a positive as long as I don't let it get it out of control. I know I will have to watch it, and try to keep things in check and ask for help if needed.

The clinic psychologist only met with me once and was worried, even though my own doctor cleared me. That is why we had to go back and forth advocating for me to have surgery. Finally, after my doctor met with me and my husband AGAIN and the clinic's psychologist met with me AGAIN, I was cleared.

Sometimes, I wonder if I did the right thing by stating that I battle with " demons" because everything is controlled right now! My husband said, I should have kept it to myself...LOL. In the big picture, I am glad I did, but it did slow down my process a little bit. But, I would have wanted my surgery this time anyhow because school is out!

My New Life Starts Now....Ready or Not!

1st day of Pre-OP!

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