Thinking about Maintaining and Haven't had Surgery!

Jun 13, 2014

Maybe it takes me longer than some, I don't know. But reading posts this morning, it dawned on me, this journey will never be done. You know, I will always be striving for something. I am now sitting here waiting for Tuesday to come for surgery. A few months ago, I was "waiting" for pre-approval. Before that, waiting to go to the seminar, etc. Now, after surgery it will be striving to get the pounds off.... Then the big one..... MAINTAINING. I know that is the big one. This journey will never have a true destination. It will always be going! It has to be. I think that is a little scary for me.

I think before I have always said in " diets" I want to be my weight to be an arbitrary made up number and never really achieved that. I strived to get there, but it never happened. This time, I know I will get there, but it means when I get there the hard work starts! It means once I get there, I have to work even HARDER to make sure I stay on my plan. Yes, I have my plan in place already. I guess, before when I was sitting in my seminar thinking about WLS, all I could think about was Oh,how great it would be to approved! Now, my check list is done and surgery is going to happen on Tuesday, and I realize there is a lot more to this!

I am just starting this new life and I am so ready. I have no idea where I will end up, however I guess I realize there is no destination It is strictly up to me and I am in control. I will have to use the honeymoon phase after surgery. 

Maybe, I am crazy for thinking about maintaining when I haven't had surgery, but isn't that why I am going into this? To finally get to a healthy weight? To finally get to point in my life where I do not feel where I have to yo-yo with my weight? I am so tired of putting on 30, 50 , 70 pounds at a time then losing it? My body is tired of doing it! I want to get to a place where I can maintain it. Maintaining will be when the fight begins, I think.

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