tough holiday

Nov 29, 2014

not a good holiday.In miami, and enjoying Thanksgiving dinner with my wife, my son Ethan, and 2 of his friends. My wife made a great holiday dinner for all to enjoy. I had about 2 ozs of turkey in gravy with about 2 teaspoons of bread less stuffing. Took about 10 minutes to eat...and threw it all up for the next half hour. This really is horrible. Since I had no food in me by the time I went to sleep that night, I was really hungry when I finally did get  to sleep. Woke up early Friday, and was really starving. So I woofed down my small bowl of Special K cereal too quickly, and promptly threw that up as well. I am getting real tired of this.

Later that night, my wife, son and I went to an Italian restaurant for a late dinner. I ordered a Mango Mojito and the Brushetta trio. I ate one of the three real slowly,but it didn't matter. Up it went again. They finished dinner as I spent about 20 minutes in the bathroom throwing up. I felt so bad and so stuffed that I could not even finish my drink. I am getting real frustrated when it comes to mealtime. I never really know what will hppen each time I try to consume food. Everyone keeps telling me to be patient, and it will get better. I really hope so. see ya soon 

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happy thanksgiving

Nov 27, 2014

hi everyone. Happy Thanksgiving. Last monday was 7 weeks post surgery, and I'm down 41.6 lbs. This is the first major holiday since the surgery, and my wife and I are celebrating with our son in Miami,Florida. The flight was delayed for 5 hours, so while sitting around in the airport we decided to get a drink in the bar. Wow, one Bloody Mary got me totally blasted (and I even drank it very slowly). Got to our condo where we are staying in Miami at 5 AM and yesterday was a total blur.

Had another interesting post surgery experience..went out to a real restaurant for dinner. I'd say it was both an interesting and depressing experience. Right away after you sit down, they fill your water glass to the top and put that delicious looking bread down on the table right in front of my face. Unbelievably  tempting and I had to avoid it. Very very very difficult. At restaurants, bread and multiple glasses of water used to be the norm. I felt like a recently recovered addict. My hand would reach out to take some bread and water, and that stupid little voice in my head would be screaming "don't". Truly not a fun experience.

The main entrees came with a choice of appetizer. I chose the spring rolls for the appetizer and the tuna tacos for the main course. The spring rolls were actually two rolls cut in half. I took one of the four, took out the vegetable stuffing from it, and managed to hold it down. The fish taco entree was three tacos, each having a piece of tuna, a slice of avocado, and some cole slaw. I took one on my plate, and ate the tuna, avocado, and some of the slaw. Once again was able to hold it down.

Very Happy about that. The food was delicious, but I still can't get used to this. IT'S NOT EATING WHAT I'M DOING. TO ME IT'S JUST EXISTING. It's just such an adjustment, and I'm really having trouble with it. Eating used to be such a great pleasure in my life, and now it's become a real drag. Everyone says look at the positive, that I'm losing a lot of weight, that I'll get used to eating differently, that it will get better. I personally don't know

about that.This whole process is much more difficult and upsetting than I ever imagined. I guess we will just have to see what happens at Thanksgiving dinner. I'll let you know. see ya soon.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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food getting better

Nov 14, 2014

saw my nurse practitioner and dietician several days ago. weight loss is now 36+ lbs, since October 6 (surgery date). Both of them agreed that my food issues (vomiting/nausea) is most probably the result of eating too large a mouthful and eating it too quickly. I have been trying to make a conscious effort to take real small mouthfuls and eat it slower, and things seem to be improving. I was able to eat and hold down a turkey stew made in the slow cooker, and a shrimp dish that i concocted (shrimps, garlic, mushrooms, chopped tomatoes, a little vegetable broth). Hopefully this will continue, and I'll be able to enlarge the type of food I can eat. speak to ya soon

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more weight loss, but still food issues

Nov 11, 2014

yesterday was exactly 5 weeks post gastric sleeve surgery. I weighed myself, and I am down exactly 35 lbs. That is I guess pretty good, but it is tempered by the fact that I am still having food issues. I know that I eat too quickly, and as soon as I do, up comes the food. It gets pretty annoying-eating then vomiting. i try to eat more slowly, but its real difficult. I've always eaten very FAST... and old habits seem to die hard. I'll be seeing the nurse practitioner and the dietician in two days, and I'll see what they suggest. I still think that I'm not taking in enough calories during the day, causing me to be totally exhausted by mid-afternoon. I'm going to discuss that with them as well. speak to ya soon.

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weight loss

Nov 05, 2014

This past Monday, November 3, 2014 was exactly four weeks post surgery. My weight loss was....31.4 lbs. Can't complain about the weight loss, but still having a lot of trouble holding down foods. I'm at the semi-solid stage, but I'm having real trouble with some foods. The other night I had 1oz of talapia and one teaspoon of spaghetti squash. Took about 4 minutes to eat....followed by over an hour of vomiting. Last night I managed 3 shrimp and some mashed vegetables....and I was totally nauseous for about 45 minutes. Meeting with the dietician on Tuesday to discuss.

Also I am very very weak during the day. My caloric intake is probably so low (my guess is about 500-600 calories each day), and I have very little energy . Last week at work I took an hour nap mid-afternoon. Didn't help. Driving home, I fell asleep at the wheel four times, and nearly got into multiple accidents as a result. This better get better soon!!!!! Speak to ya soon.

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a real meal

Nov 01, 2014

went to my son in laws grandparents for a home ceremony called a gindi. They are from Guyana, and after the ceremony they always serve traditional West Indian dishes. I couldn't resist. I took a plate with about 8oz of food-pureed spinach(which was a little spicy), pumpkin (mashed and sweet), potatoes and vegetables, an absolutely delicious tofu dish that looked a tasted like a beef dish, and a black eyed pea dish. Ate it real slow..and held it all down. What an absolute pleasure to finally taste real food. Hopefuly i didn't put back any weight, but even if i did, it was well worth it. Speak to ya soon 

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dinner

Oct 31, 2014

Tried again tonight. Wife made an absolutely delicious beef stew in the pressure cooker last night. I mashed up the carrots and potato last night and managed to hold down about 2oz. Yum. So tonight I added one very small piece of beef to the mashed vegetables and potato. As soon as I finished, I started to get that bad feeling again..like I was going to throw it all up again. So rather than stand around waiting to barf, I laid down in bed for about 15 minutes and did some slow breathing. Finally the feeling passed, and I was able to hold the food down. This whole process is tremendously frustrating. Let's see what tomorrow brings.

By the way, I weigh myself on Mondays. On October 27--3 weeks post gastric sleeve surgery-- I was down 22.6 lbs. Speak to ya soon.  

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going backwards

Oct 30, 2014

spoke with the dietician today and she said my stomach may still be swollen from the surgery. She suggested that I try to return to the pureed food stage for another week and then try to progress to semi-solids. Wonderful...just what I wanted...to go backwards. this REALLY SUCKS. Before I take a  step backwards, I will give the old semi solids one last try tonite. Hopefully no vomiting (sorry guys). I am facing another problem: apparently what intake that I am able to hold down isn't providing me with enough calories for energy. By 2pm I am totally exhausted, and need to lay down in my office. I am so depleted of energy, the car ride home is becoming unsafe (yesterday I almost fell asleep at the wheel four times!). Gotta figure this out soon. Speak to ya soon.

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Not happy at all

Oct 29, 2014

I was really looking forward to yesterday. That was the day that I was supposed to progress to semi-solid foods. I tried about 3oz of tuna fish with a little low fat mayo.  Well those 3oz caused about 1 hour of vomiting. Totally ruined my day. Today I figured that I'd try it again. I got stuck in court and needed to eat so I snuck into the mens room, sat in a stall, and pulled out.....my delicious jar of baby food (pureed spinach and avocado). How totally depressing (and also tasted disgusting)

My wife made me a ground turkey meat loaf for tonite. Took my 3oz portion and started to cut it into little dime size pieces. Couldn't even finish it cause I started to feel nauseous again. This is getting totally ridiculous. I am getting real tired during the day at work...probably because my calorie intake is so minimal. First thing tomorrow I'm going to have to call my dietician to discuss this. I'll let you know what she says. Speak with ya soon.

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anniversary

Oct 25, 2014

Back again. Had some computer issues (possible spyware virus). Thursday was my 31st wedding anniversary, and I had a rough night. That's enough laughing from you perverts. MY ANNIVERSARY DINNER--which I thankfully ate alone- was.....2 ozs of pureed lentil soup. UGH.  and for my anniversary desert...a sugar free and fat free ice pop. EVEN MORE UGH.

I was so upset and spent an hour or two crying. Then at 8pm I went up to sleep....ALONE. still was miserable, so I went downstairs to try to sleep on my

couch. SPENT THE NEXT 3 HOURS CRYING AND NOT SLEEPING. I would call that a really horrible anniversary night.

The only good thing is that I am feeling pretty good PHYSICALLY. The surgical scars have healed very well and I have never had any real pain since the day of surgery (10/6/14). I  only get a little discomfort at night because I generally sleep on my stomach and my body weight on the suture sites sometimes causes enough discomfort to keep me up some nights. When that happens I need a little pain meds and all is then good.

Next Tuesday I get to start to eat semi solid foods for a week or two (depending how I tolerate it). YEAH NO MORE PUREED CRAP!!!!!! Also looking forward to Monday which is my scale day. Speak with ya soon

 

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