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So, in two days I will be 4 months post op!  I honestly can't believe how quickly it has gone by!  I am down 53 pounds and now weigh 170!  My weight loss has definitly slowed down a lot this past month.  I dropped about 4 pounds for the whole month.  But I know that is better than not losing anything at all!  I exercise a lot!  I am playing soccer, walking, and running whenever I get the chance!  Unless I am too exhausted , but I try to get something in every day.  As far as vitamins and protein goes, eh... i'm doing better than I was. But not great.  I'm a bit behind on all of my appointments and I know that when I get my blood work results back they won't be too pleased with me.  But, like I said, i'm doing better!  I've noticed i've been snacking a bit more than usual, which is a big NO NO! But it's so hard with all the snacks my sisters and parents eat. I am honestly looking forward to going back to school where i'll be busy and living at a place where junk food won't be around 24/7.  I am hoping to lose another 15 pounds by the time winter break rolls around.  That gives me 5 months.  It would be awesome if I lose more than that, but I don't want to set my goal too high.  My final goal is to b e 140, so if I do 15 first semester and 15 second semester I will be to my goal weight by the end of this school year :-)  Which would be..... amazing!  Well, I have work :-(  So I better go!

Lara

I feel like I'm not doing well.  I don't know why.... I've lost 20 pounds in my 3 weeks since surgery and i've stuck to the diet.  I guess maybe I just feel lonely or something, my best friend got asked out by THREE guys this week, and it just gave me that reminder of how guys aren't attracted to me the way I am.  And that's pretty depressing!  I'm almost out of school for the summer, and I really hope that when I get back to school in late august..... i'll be a diffrent/ better person.  I somehow can't imagine that happening.... but I really hope it does.  I'm scared of not succeeding!

Lara

So, now that I’m at home for the second night in a row.  I feel well enough to write about the experience I had with my surgery.  I woke up at about 7 am and drove to the hospital with both of my parents ( my surgery was scheduled for 10 am, but I was supposed to arrive at 8)  When I got there, they asked me a few questions, gave me a hospital bracelet and left me waiting again for a nurse to come and get me.  By 9 am I had been brought back into a waiting area with my mom.  I had to remove all of my clothes, wipe myself off with towels, put on a gown and lie down on a stretcher and wait.  I waited for a LONG time.  I had a few nurses and doctors come in and out, all asking me the same questions.  I found out that the surgery before mine was taking longer than expected.  It wasn’t until 11:30 (an hour and a half after my surgery should have started) that my surgeon came in and talked to me.  He seemed rushed, came in and said “what surgery are you getting and why?”….. It sort of startled me… we had already discussed all of this during my consultation…. But, I explained it to him again.  Once I talked to him, they gave me some drugs and wheeled me into surgery.  The surgery was supposed to last about 2 hours…… once it reached 5 pm, and my parents hadn’t heard from anyone, they began to get worried and went to talk to a doctor.  They apologized to my parents for not contacting them… but informed them that I was extremely nauseous and they wouldn’t be able to see me until I stopped gagging.  (Luckily, I don’t remember any of this).  Once I got upstairs to my room, I slept most of the afternoon; they gave me GREAT drugs (haha).  I was put in the pediatric center (don’t ask me why!) and my mom was able to stay with me because no one was sharing the room with me!  That was nice!!  The next morning, although my stomach was aching… I felt more awake and alive!  I was still hooked up to all of the machines and hadn’t eaten anything because the nurses kept bringing up food I couldn’t have (soda, apple juice, Jell-O, etc) .  I’m not sure what time… but at some point one of the doctors my surgeon works with came by to check on me.  The first thing he said was “have you eaten”… I replied no because they hadn’t brought me anything I could eat yet.  Then he asked “have you gotten up and walked around”… yet again, I said no… I was still hooked up to all of my machines.  He replied  “well you’re not off to a very good start are you”…. This made me start to get emotional since it wasn’t something I had any control over.  Then he says to me “can I ask you a personal question”….. so I say yes.  He says “ Why did you chose this surgery, you are so young and it will make it difficult when you want to have babies”  I started BAWLING when he said this,  I had been informed that no matter which surgery I had I wouldn’t have any trouble having kids.  He tried to comfort me by saying that he just assumed I’d get really sick when I was pregnant!  But I was soooo emotional… there was no stopping me from crying.  It REALLY hurt my stomach!!!  A while after that I did get to go home.  And I’ve been doing decently well since I’ve been back….its hard to drink so much! Especially when my stomach really is in a lot of pain still!  I’m sooo glad my surgery is over and that I am now on the Losers side!  I love the feeling of having control over my life J

Sooooo, I've had my surgery!  YAY!!! I'm getting ready to go to bed because I'm so tired from my drugs, but i'll make sure I write a much longer post about the whole process....which wasn't exactly a pretty one!!!!  It's such a good feeling to be back at home and to have the surgery over with!  I am one VERY blessed girl :-)  


Lara

So. Here. I.Am.  Less than a week away until my surgery. WOW.  I can't believe it.  This is probabaly the slowest week of my life.  My birthday is on friday (and i LOVE my birthday)  and then I have the surgery on tuesday!  Two VERY exciting things....only 4 days apart!  Tomorrow I have my pre-op clearance. Boo.  I don't think it will take long...  but I really don't want to go. (considering I've already been accepted by insurance).  Anyways,  I've got a LOT of work to do before my surgery that won't get done on my birthday, or saturday because I'm going to see RENT!  I have to finish painting my room,  write up 2 papers, both due monday, and get ready for everything surgery related!  eek.  I'm also gonna be busy with school work during my recovery time.  I think that will help slow me down and keep me from doing too much, too fast.  Which I tend to do with a lot of things.  Well I have to go to work in half an hour, so I'm going to start getting ready!  

Lara


p.s.  I <3 Brother Bear

So.... I have my LAST dr's appointment today with the surgeons assistant!   I can't believe it!!!!  I got all my bloodwork taken yesterday, and today is the last stretch of all these dr.s appointments and tests before the surgery on the 8th!!!! WOW! It's all gone so fast..... I went to the seminar in december,  the consultation in january.... And now i'm getting the surgery in April.  I def didn't expect it to all go this fast! I feel so blessed!!  Well, I hafta go knock out this last Dr.'s Appointment, followed by picking up my CPAP  and then from there..... it's all just waiting!

Lara

I got a call at about 10:15 today from the surgeons office, I WAS APPROVED!!!! I am soooo happy :-) I wasso scared it would fall through.... and now I know for SURE it's going to happen! WOW.  I have a lot going on this week now, I hafta finish getting all my bloodwork done, get all my tests sent out, pick up my sleep apnea machine (boo) all this week!  I don't even care.... Here I come April 8th :-)

Lara

Sleep study number two is done!!!! () Thank GOD!!! I had trouble sleeping again, but not as bad as the first time.  The first apnea mask they gave me actually made it harder for me to breathe because of where the nose peice is, I was able to sleep with the second one!  I officially only need to get my blood work done now!!!! WOOO!!! oh yah, and I have to get approval from insurance...... thats sorta important!  UGh, i really really hope they approve me... the surgery is 2 weeks away and I Still dont know yet....I hate getting my hopes up since I Don't know yet if ill even be getting it! I should be finding out this week, I cant imagine them waiting until the week before to approve.  Well i'm off to pray for approval :-)

Lara

Sooooo, I just talked to the doctor and I def. have to get another sleep study done. Which TOTALLY sucks,  that has been the worst out of everything so far!  It's so uncomfortable sleeping in a bed that's not yours and having to sleep with 40 bajillion things hooked up to you!  I sware it took me at least 3 hours to sleep last time I had the test.... At least once this test is over, I'm done with testing!!!!! (Besides blood work ,which I don't mind at all).  I would be worried about insurance, but.... this sleep test is taking up all my worry for the time being!  I really can't wait until I'm approved by insurance and its surgery time :-)  

I started my pre-op diet today.  So far its no fun at all.... but I know it will be beneficial for the surgery, so.... GO ME!!!


Lara

MY first post!!! lets hope I keep up with this, unlike any other journal or diary i've ever started!  Today I had my Psych Clearance.  It went really well. (I hope)  This week has been soooo stressful.  I spent my entire spring break getting tests done!  I know its all for the best.... but they sure weren't fun! 

I have my surgery date set for April 8th (4 days after i turn 20). Insurance hasnt approved yet.... so i'm still praying for that!!!

I had a sleep study done last saturday.  They diagnosed me with mild sleep apnea and want me to come back in for another test. BOO NO! I really really dont want to :-(  

My room is a mess. I should clean it.