Laura M.

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So I am now two weeks post op as of today...It kinda feels strange saying that considering how many times I have backed out of actually getting the surgery...I am doing pretty well...I have had my ups and downs getting depressed and regret then feeling better and knowing I did the right thing...I have lost a total of 40lbs since I started this and 20 since having surgery itself...
I knew it would be hard and the road would be long but I think until you actually do it you just dont understand how hard it will be on you mentally...I am strong and I will follow my Dr's orders exactly how he told me to do things because I want to make sure I do it right...
I am determined to move forward and do everything I can to make this surgery a success...I am so glad I have a wonderful support system I would be lost!!!!

I am out of the hospital and staying with my friend for a little while...I am doing pretty good...Not to many problems...My stomach looks like an over ripe peach right now but otherwise good...Thank you all for the comments and letters of well wishes!!!!!  It made my day!

Just giving another update on Laura. . .She is doing great and is being moved into her own room in about an hour, if you would like to call her then her direct line is 570-501-4414. She should be coming home tomorrow and staying with me, so if you cannot call her tonight try my house tomorrow night 570-585-6967 or if you have Verizon 570-687-4412. She would also like to thank everyone for your thoughts and prayers. She cannot wait to get back online and tell you about her experience!!

Hi this is Laura's friend Celia (Luv4C2). I am just giving a little update on her progress. As you all may know Laura has her WLS this morning. She is now in I.C.U. recovering. When she came out of surgery, she had a little trouble breathing, but all is well. I am sure she will have a quick recovery and be back in no time. I will post again if I hear anything new.

Please continue to keep her in your prayers and give her a warm welcome to the loser's bench!!

I am beyond excited right now I finally have my surgery date...April 12th is going to be my new birthday....After struggling with my neurologist and different things thrown in the way yesterday I get told we can do the surgery on the 12th...I still need to lose 10 lbs so I have started the liquid part of my diet early...So let this journey begin I am ready for it...I am ready to get the control over my life that I have let spiral out of control...I am ready for the new me to come out...Or should I say the person I was once and the ....Well no the new me....I dont want to be who I was before at anytime...I want a new me with all that comes with it...
I am still worried something is going to get screwed up and I am not going to be able to have the surgery but I am going to stay optimistic and say I am having it on April 12th...

It is just one of those nights that I am sitting here thinking about everything...From my health to my life to my past to my future...I want this surgery more then anything but those old doubts are creeping in...I am pushing them back I know this is the best choice for me and it is cold feet...I think I am just hitting a depression right now...Wanting something so bad and it is just out of reach but I know as long as I keep reaching I will grab it one day...My next appointment isnt til January 21st and it just seems to be going so slow...I am hoping with all the problems I am having we can get things pushed forward with out much of a problem.  I know my insurance covers it and I dont have to wait for approval so I am good in that sense...
I guess it is just one of those days again...

unable to sleep because of the pain in my back, knees, head and ankles....I have been watching videos all day long of video bloggers who have had the surgery and talking about their journey and being very excited to get mine started...I am so tired of hurting already...It really sucks...But I know soon enough I will start getting my health back to what it should be...I am glad that I finally decided to get my butt up and do this already after starting the process a few times there is no turning back....This cold weather is just killing me...YUCK!

I have been sitting here looking at this page not knowing what to write or where to even start...My friend sitting next to me said just start from the begining but honestly I dont know where it started...I have always been overweight and never thought I would really be anything but that...
As I grew up I had a certain amount of self esteem and didnt care what others had to say about me things changed though I married and thought I met the man of my dreams and at that time I was my heaviest weight 380 lbs but my then husband said he loved me no matter what...We started to try having a child and I found out I had PCOS...He then had to leave to go to Iraq and well that is a huge story in itself...When he came back from Iraq things got bad between us and he become a completely different person and I became a completely different person...I started losing weight but the wrong way I wouldnt eat and if I tried I threw up...I moved back to the states and eventually ended up in Ky where I continued to lose weight and lost 80 lbs but when I came back to Pa I had a car accident which left me un able to do pretty much anything...Which brings me to the health problems...
When I had my car accident I found out I had chiari malformation w/syrinx and this has made it hard for me to do anything...So the weight just started packing on...I am now someplace over 350 lbs and have many health issues that my weight make worse...
I have started this process before and got so far and chickened out but I have come to realize this is something I need and want to do for me and for my future...I want to be healthy I want to live a healthy life...I dont want to hide behind huge clothes and be ashamed to go someplace or worry that my nieces and nephews are ashamed to be seen with me... 
Well I guess that is pretty much my story...I am on my journey and there is no turning back this time...I want this more then anything else in this world right now....