Getting so close with big questions.

Jun 22, 2009

So it's getting so close!  Tomorrow I have my pre-admission appointment!!  It is so weird thinking that I will be having this done in less than a month.  In a week I will start the 2 week pre-op diet!!!  That means I only have 3 weeks to go.  I am so nervous!!  My friend is starting her crap again.  For a minute I doubted myself.  But ya know what I am too awesome to change.  I will still be awesome me just a smaller awesome me.  Someone said something to me last week that got me a little pissed.  He said in about 6 months you'll be hot and then we'll have to see what's up.  I got instantly pissed.  I jumped all over his behind and said that I am hot now and if he thinks a body makes a person hot he is still too immature to find out what's up.  But I never really thought about that.  How do people see me now?  Will they make time for me when I am thinner?  Are people really that sad that they think a body makes a person?  Or is this all things I've told myself to make me feel better for being fat?  I am still thinking about this big question and still trying to decide if jumping all over him was right or if there was some truth to it that I've been too blind to see. 

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Winslow, AZ
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07/15/2009
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Feb 01, 2009
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