Laura B.

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Current weight 229lbs. 

I have really learned ALOT more from my WLS on facebook, we can ask questions and I am trying to get back to eating protein more. Eggs, lunch meat, turkey, turkey sticks, boiled eggs, cheese sticks, tuna. I like salads with chicken, I bake chicken, steak, fish. I daily struggle with sugar, and have to basically not even buy sugar or I want to eat it. I still have goals to exercise 1 or 2 x a week, walk when I can, we moved to a place with stairs so I am going up and down those ALOT.  I have been staying on my vitamins, and drinking water. My new goal is to cut alcohol... I would like to have another child so keeping up with vitamins is a MUST! I work 3rd shift and that is hard on my eating habits some days i dont eat all day, but eat at night, and they some times i eat on regular peoples schedules and dont eat at night. so weird. Ive had more people in my life get wls and have decent results. I know I need to keep being a "good example" and I also have been trying not to drink before and during or 30 min after meals too! I have had low blood pressure, low blood sugar, lots of anxiety attacks :( I have hypothyroidism. I also have low calcium, and vit. d. Not having good insurance and low income I havent kept up on my labs but If i get better insurance than I def will. I WANT to get my labs done but $$ is the problem. I have looked into getting plastic surgery on my arms and I still have that as a goal but I am gonna see about 1. having another baby, 2. losing some more weight. I have kept up on my doc appts 1x a year now. I dont have much dumping problems and I am still learning what to eat and what not to eat and imodium and gas x are YOUR FRIEND!!! I will keep on keeping on! 

 This blog is more for a personal reference to myself. I am 217lbs. My goal weight was 180 BUT i never got below 203lbs. :( I am consciouly trying to stay a float with my weight. I know my whole life I wanted gastric bypass well from when i was 16yrs old i wanted it. I came from a veryyyyyyyy weight conscienscious family even still to this VERY ANNOYING DAY i visited my grandma one of her first questions is, am i keeping my weight down. HATE THAT. 
    I fear eating. REALLY i do. I still feel like I dont know WHAT to eat, when to eat, and how much! Its like shouldnt we eat when we are hungry? BUt that is not the case for me because sometimes i THINK i am hungry but i am not. sometimes i am not hungry but i have NO energy, i am shaky, sleepy and unsteady walking.. My blood sugar bounces all over the place, making me go into low blood sugar fits, almost passing out, dizzy, shaky. I think i need to go BACK to see the nutritionist, get some guidelines set for my eating, talk about carbs, increase appetitie, protein in take, fat and CALORIES! I want to lose more weight still. I believe i can even after 2yrs. I havent exercised much but I want to start trying i guess I am scared. I am scared I will hurt my self, pull a muscle or be totally exhausted. I tried on a pair of jeans that fit snuggly at the peak of my weight loss and now i can barely button them. 
      In your brain being an over weight person you FEAR gaining all your weight back. I fear food, i fear eating thru this surgery. I know i snack because i really dont eat ALOT at meals. I work nights so I eat all thru the night because my body struggles to stay away, and have energy, My low blood sugar kicks in when i am tired. I drink coffee to stay away but that dehydrates me making my Blood pressure stay probably too low. I try to drink water but I only drink maybe 1 bottle or 2 at the most a day thats 40oz. Vitamins! Its very hard to take vitamins every 2 hrs. I have been trying to take them to work with me so that I can take them. I still TRY not to eat and drink at the same time. It still a struggle. I could try harder to chew my food up better. Eat more slowly, and listen to my body that when i am full to stop eating. I will call the nutritionist today so that I can meet with her next week or when she can get me in. I WILL NOT FAIL AT THIS SURGERY! I am gonna get back on track and get under 200lbs! I can do it, and once i reach my goal I will get some kind of plastic surgery :) that is what I want. 

I commonly eat:
Lean cuisine meals.
Raisin toast with butter
fruit snacks
coffee with sf creamers and equal
nilla wafers
peanut butter
nuts peanuts mixed
pizza
chicken
fries
ice cream sandwiches
pizza rolls
candy
diet or reg. pop maybe 2 amonth?
yogurt
beef bites
lunchables
sf cappucino
spagetti

I have been using an app myfitnesspal to track calories 1400 cals aday. but i have alot of changing i should do so my goal is to do that and add exercise at least 1 or 2 times aweek! I CAN DO IT!!

 Surgery weight: 292lbs.
Todays weight: 225lbs.

OMG i havent weighed this weight since i was in high school ten years ago! :) I am very happy with the number, i am thinking its still behind the number my surgeon wants to see on the scale but thats just how my body does it i guess. Slow and steady wins the race! :)

Lately i have become more self conscious with my flabby arms, legs and butt. I think what did i do to my self? I look like a hot mess, i am MORE self conscious than before the surgery..but i can do more things, have more stamina to work, and play, and I fit smaller clothes. I have been REALLY tired, but i am hoping to get out of that eventually. I started a new job and i think that is making me exhausted. Its really hard to eat when you job is very busy and there is hardly anytime BUT i know i have to make the time for ME. I had this surgery and I have to eat the right things to keep up my weight loss, protein, and strength. I am losing alot of hair and it FREAKS ME OUT TO NO END! I take biotin but i am losing ALOT of hair. I cant see any patches but my hair is coming out :(  I havent been to the ymca in a few weeks. I was working nights and that threw my whole life into the wind and so i am still recovering from that lack of sleep nightmare! I do have an exercise bike at home and I have ridden it usually 2-3 times a week, i know that is not enough but I am usually TIRED beyond belief! I feel like i am having some depression going on which doesnt help. I am trying to find an anti depressant but that one i tried made me MORE tired that I am already feeling which knocked me down for the count. :(   Hormonally I feel I am all screwed up, i got off birth control but then I worried about what if's so i got back on it so my weight loss is screwing with my labs, my hormones. My hormones are screwy from birth control, and depression.  Working night shift messed with me. BASICALLY I am just trying to recover from this ALL!

     I am now trying to treat my body better. I am making sure i make a high priority to eat better more protein and get my fluids in because when i am not eating/drinking correct it throws off my whole life! I am praying more, because I believe the only person in this world who can truly help me is Jesus! I am getting more sleep. I am giving myself a break, and trying to let things that arent important bother me. I met this guy, who has all these great qualities about him that I love, the one big problem was he is VERY BIG ON APPEARANCES, physical appearances. I started to beat my self up about what was saggy, and flabby.  After weight loss surgery that kind of guy is not the one I should be with because he does believe WHOLE heartedly in self confidence,, its just almost impossible to get over how he expects women to look.

I am still trying to find new things to eat, and use variety. I have been making it a point to add veggies and fruit. I dont know how much i believe we dont absorb those nutrients b/c if we didnt why do we take vitamins? how come when I take a new medication if it causes drowsy effects i  get 10x the drowsy effects? of if i drink i am supposed to get "SUPER DRUNK" but that is just the opposite?  Everyones body is different. I believe we need MORE RESEARCH on WLS patients, we need to know what drugs under absorb and what OVER absorbs. this is our body and i hope that research is getting started and if its out there someone point it out! 

My goal is to continue to keep sugar at bay. Exercise more to make it a lifetime habit. Love my new body. Ask Jesus more for help while on my journey of life. and last but not least put my eating and health above less important things, health is the reason we all did this WL journey! 

Any comments feel free to message me! :)

 Well I had an interestingly slooooow weight loss since New years eve. I finally weight 242 so 50lbs lost on new years eve!  Then i lost over the next 4 weeks ONLY 5 LBS!!!! :( I was very frustrated but i continued to eat what i was supposed to and I stepped up my exercise.  Kettlebell, and scult/shape class at my local YMCA! :) I am keeping up with my protein shake either in the morning or the evening. I still eat cottage cheese, frequently eat chilli (my fav is wendys) with added cheese and jalapenos. I had to cut back on eating sliced cheese, cubed, and string because the plumbing is getting backed up! :(  I have added more activia light yogurt daily to try and get it going again. I LOVE to eat shrimp and it has alot of protein in it.  

Clothes wise I bought a pair of workout pants in an XL!!!!!! they fit great i am in love with them.
I cant really find jean because my 22's are WAY HUGE, but the 20's unless there stretch there WAY TIGHT in my thighs still. I have gone down in my undergarments abit, but pretty much the same. Which shows me I was probably squeezing myself into clothes that were TOO small. LOL

I have been searching for a psychologist because sometimes i just get feelings about what if i fail, if i eat more i worry if i am sabotaging myself. Also some ppl in my life say comments about how i am not "fat" like them anymore, and it makes me upset. who would WANT to stay fat if they didnt have to?

I do feel like a whole new exciting world is opening up for me! I dont feel so gross in my clothes anymore, i feel so light. I fit in chairs better. I have lost a TON of inches I KNOW!! I feel like I am actually going to be a "normal" person in the world were "normal people" are excepted. I also feel i am enter unknown territory b/c skinny girls kinda look at me with "hate" in there eyes or i feel like some of them do. I have always heard i have a pretty face and I dont want to be competition for anyone. I am a nice person, and i am SO THANKFUL TO GOD for allowing me a second chance to be healthy, and happy in this body he gave me. I can move around better, i am not so exhausted from cleaning the house, or walking or daily living! 

This surgery was a huge blessing for me. I too wish I would have done it earlier but its done and I am greatful for this new life that I have a chance to live!

I am worried about eating too much. I still CRAVE sweets that is a personal daily battle. I am trying to keep exercising! I am going to good will soon to get me some cheap pants, and shirts for daily life and work.... because big clothes are so SLOPPY i am OVER THAT! :) 4months YAAA WHOOO!!!

Wt. 250lbs. :) 42lbs lost!~

 I am to 3 months! (it was yesterday)... I didnt take pictures but I hope to get them today! :) I am still getting the hang of getting in all my vitamins, calcium,Vit d, B12, Gallbladder medicine, BC, and now THYROID!  I have to wait 4 hours before I can take any vit/mineral supplements after I take my Thyroid medication which was just added in my regimen last thursday, I take it in the middle of the night when i get up to go to the bathroom so when i wake up I can start my vitamin and calciums for the day. 

I have been struggling with the vitamins, exercise, eating, water and loggin it all. I want to get into a more normal routine. I add up my protein in my head so I try to get at least 65 grams a day. Its hard!  Some days I am more hungry others I feel like I could just not eat hardly at all. I still would rather eat carbs and sugar over anything! :( which is a constant battle. I especially still love to eat SALTY foods. My YMCA membership is in process of being renewed but to be HONEST on my blog I have not worked out for 2 weeks. I feel TOTALLY guilty about it, i just need to bust out a workout video and do it!

I was using spark people.com to log in my food and my water intake but I know when i am really busy I wont have time for that So i was trying to do it on my own in my head or in my phone. Its coming along but I will admit i dont get it in everyday. 

My dr. plan is for me to eat 3 meals a day and one snack. Well My stomach is small and sometimes I cant finish the food, but i NEED the protein. So i will eat some and then later come back to it and finish it. THIS MAY BE BAD??? But I dont know which is more important for me to stick to the 3 meals, 1 snack or get all my protein in to keep me healthy???

I have been eating a variety of things still eating weight control oatmeal, cottage cheese, cheese cubes or slices, shrimp, lunch meats, chili, chicken, steak, eggs, greek yogurt.  My not so good stuff would probably be totilla chips, and pretzels. I love salt and those give me salt. is this BAD??????????

I wear my size 20 pants to work. My size 20 jeans are still very snug in the legs (imagine pulling them up like pantyhose). My shirts I think are about a 2x still. I probably wont get new clothes until mine look REALLY bad. LOL I just dont have the funds for it.

I have been getting B12 shots too because I am SOOOO tired all the time. That is my other "excuse" for not exercising.

Some of my fears that I am not losing enough weight because I am not exercising. I feel like if I eat things bad that I am sabotaging even my surgery that is trying to help me lose weight. I worry when i am hungry because ppl say you dont feel hungry for a year after surgery....  I am still searching for a different counselor to talk to because I dont want to sabotage my self....

I am going through alot of stress I feel in my life. I am adjusting to WLS /loser bench life style. I am single and have been for 6 years and I want to date again. I am searching for a new job since I am an RN now I want an RN job. My son is going through some developmental stuff that is difficult as a single parent alone but on top of trying to pull my life together.. Finances are difficult my mom had to buy my calcium and vitamins because NEWS FLASH---> there not cheap! :( at least for me who lives paycheck to paycheck.

This journey that I am on I am not sure to become MORE disciplined which puts more stress on myself or try to just trust God that it will all work out. I need to do my best and right now I feel like i am running at about 75% best.

I do love that I weight 250lbs, I havent weighed that in years!!! I want to enjoy this, and everyday is a new day, I can chose what I put in my body and if/when i mess up I always have the next choice to decide right or wrong!

I was feeling funny so i got my electrolyes checked at my PCP, and I have low vit d. so I gotta make sure i get my vit d with my Calcium. My TSH is High.. I never had a problem with that before so I hope stuff doesnt get WORSE, rather than better. I had a typo in my last message my size 20 pants wouldnt fit yet. I can fit into a size 22, and today i tried a pair of 20's on at Macys and they FIT!!!! :) little snug in the legs but fit my waist perfect!  I havent bought the puddings, cereal etc with protein b/c i am in a bit of a money crunch!  Cant wait for income tax to pay off my bills! then no more credit cards! ;-)  

I did go to the Y this week and walked on the treadmill. So one foot in front of the other. BUT my membership is about to expire so i am trying to get it renewed before it expires.

I am in an eating rut, for breakfast i have been drinking my protein shakes, but then when lunch, dinner, and snack comes I am SO clueless as what to eat!  I already had one thanksgiving i weighed out my food and I did really good! Ate my protein first and then the other stuff. I cut a baby sliver of pumpkin pie but it wasnt that good. Now for tomorrow I am bringing a WLS pumpkin pie so I can eat a decent piece :)  

Thats why I logged on OH today so I can get some ideas of what to eat in regular life.

 Well its a few days later but I am 2 month post op! I have been trying to stretch my food legs, and get some variety! I came across a catalog that I have been getting and took a look at it....It has puddings, entrees, drinks, cereal, pancakes, bars all with protein in them! So i am gonna buy some because i Have been in an eating rut.... I eat weight control oatmeal that I love, tuna, chicken, but I am tired of tuna and chicken SO TIRED of it. I have gotten hummus but it doesnt have much protein so I just dont want to mindlessly eat and not get protein. I can eat eggs as long as i dont scramble them lol. Cheese is like my favorite thing to eat! I bought a whole bunch of protein nutritional bars but they have a bit too much sugar.  And most bars taste gross so far   :(  I havent gotten in to a size 22 yet pants yet. I can tell i have lost inches but i try my size 22 black pants and I still cant fit them.. I have been craving carbs and trying to stay away from eating alot of them..but i do eat a few things. I also crave sugar but i have bought sf candy to try and get over the hump! :) Starting wt was 292lb day of surgery! Now I wt. 260lbs! Going down down down... I hope i can BUMP up my exercise and i think that will really help with wt loss.

Stuff  I want to keep track of for later to mix it up a bit with vitamins and calcium.

 
Calcium-
**1. Celebrates Calcium Plus 500 (chewable)- Cherry tart = AMAZING! 3a day is our total value of calcium and OMG YUM!-would buy.**
2. Calcet Bites- Chocolate 500mg of calcium-YUMMY- would buy
3. Wellessee-drinkable calcium with Vit D, pretty good but have had better.
****4. Calcium - Chewy Bites - Citrate (From Bariatric Advantage)look like starburst-TASTES GREAT! 1=250mg, so we need 2 to equal a serving. - Would buy!!**
5. Bariatric Advantage Calcium Citrate Cinnamon Flavored lozenges.-VERY CINNAMON flavor-too strong for me.
6. Bariatric Advantage calcium citrate mint VERY MINTY TOO MUCH FOR ME.

Mulivitamin
-Bariatric Advantage Chewable Multi formula high in Vit ADEK Tropical flavor-not to bad but kinda vitamin taste-wont buy.
-Bariatric Advantage Complete mulit formula with 1000 IU vitamin D3 Berry flavored -vitamin tasting.


B12
-Bartiatric advantage sublingual B12 with folic acid-dissolved slllllooowwwlllyyy okay tasting.

I still have Iron, B12, other chewable multivitamins, and chewable calcium to try. My Dr. office hooked me up!

      I think my days are off for surgery so if anyone is board and can figure it out I had surgery Sept. 20, 2010 I think thats 39 days ago....?!    
I dont really have an accurate weight because I am going by the DR. scale so when I go for my 6 weeks app (really it will be 7 wks) I will record that weight and post it! I am sure its over 30 lbs. I have not compared my wt loss to other ppl who got surgery the same time as I have because I know my body is different and that it wont matter to get all upset.

     On that note, I do need to get more exercise in I was exercising a few times a week by walking at my local YMCA but I have been really tired lately, staying up too late and sleeping in alot while my son is at school. 
I got a part time job so that will get me back on a better schedule.

     What am I eating now.. well I can eat Meat, veg. fruit, breads. No pasta,popcorn, nuts, pickles, or things with membranes or seeds. Oh ya NO RAW fruits or veggies. Cooked, or canned. :) No Pasta.
I eat the weight control Quaker oatmeal sometimes, cottage cheese with applesauce, my 100%whey protein isolate Drink by GNC called "GOLD STANDARD" Extreme milk chocolate (24g of protein per scoop), Tuna, eggs, chicken, beef, pretzels when i need salt, Yogurt light activia and sometimes greek yogurt.  

    I have gotten bad about eating a few pieces of candy a day, i can admit it. Today is a new day I will try and eat none or just 1. 

    I have noticed my moods, i am meaner. mY friend said I was and so did my sons father, SO i started to try and notice.. I think I am, or maybe normal ppl dont put up with the things i delt with.  I just have no tolerance lately for stupid rude inconsiderate ppl.  

     I am NOT NOT NOT ready for ppl to try and tell me what I can and cant eat especially overweight people. I can say that b.c i was OW for like 25 years and alot of my family is overweight. there are just some ppl(not weight loss surgery ppl, i seek advice from wls ppl) who think they can school me on what I can and cant eat.. my new rule is JUST IGNORE THEM OR I WILL GO OFF  EXTREME. EEK !!! :P    

I am using my wls buddies from here and facebook to learn about new blogs with food ideas, i am gonna buy a new cookbook because I get bored with the same things and I really need to eat healthy. I got this amazing tool to help me and I want to use it to the fullest!!!! 

I hope for the sake of the holidays and my friends and family that I simmer on the attitude if i do infact have some hormonal things going on I hope they excuse me or I can keep my comments, to my self. I am a Christian and I believe that with prayer God Can work in my life and help me with my attitude and conversations!

 I have been doing pretty good. Some days i am more tired than others, like REALLLLY tired... I am not working right now, so  I sleep if i am tired :) which is really  nice.  I know I have lost more wt b/c my clothes fit looser than before. That is exciting! I cant wait til I can fit into my smaller clothes.  My scale is heavier than the dr. scale so I am not giving out numbers because I know there off. I just hope I lost more than I think because I want to keep loosing consistently and I just am not sure if how i am eating is doing it? I know my body is in rebellion stage trying to slow the metabolism WAY down because it thinks I am in starvation mode! lol  I dont get really hungry, and if i do i try to eat what I am supposed to and just kinda move lunch up earlier or eat SF jello.  Sweets have been trying to creep there way back into my life, and I am trying my best to keep them out. I have been chewing some foods up and spitting them out, it helps a little bit. I know i am a sugar and carb junkie and even after 4weeks of going with out my Body is STILL DEMANDING IT!  I know i have head hunger b/c when i try to eat something if i "think" i am hungry it just comes back up.   I am starting to get used to eating, eating tuna, chicken, some already prepared meals with beef, or fish I PUREE my food still if there meats that way i can eat it and its already "chewed" a bit for me. I still need to practice chewing more and eating slowly. even with my techniques of putting the fork down i physically need to time myself so i dont take a bit too soon. I am so thankful for this website, i tell EVERYONE about it, and I am glad i have met the ppl i have its an amazing place to have support!     Im glad to be on the losers bench! This surgery has always been my dream, and i am so amazed its over and now i am on this journey with so many other ppl! Praise be to GOD!   Laura