3 months 1 day post op

Dec 14, 2010

Wt. 250lbs. :) 42lbs lost!~

 I am to 3 months! (it was yesterday)... I didnt take pictures but I hope to get them today! :) I am still getting the hang of getting in all my vitamins, calcium,Vit d, B12, Gallbladder medicine, BC, and now THYROID!  I have to wait 4 hours before I can take any vit/mineral supplements after I take my Thyroid medication which was just added in my regimen last thursday, I take it in the middle of the night when i get up to go to the bathroom so when i wake up I can start my vitamin and calciums for the day. 

I have been struggling with the vitamins, exercise, eating, water and loggin it all. I want to get into a more normal routine. I add up my protein in my head so I try to get at least 65 grams a day. Its hard!  Some days I am more hungry others I feel like I could just not eat hardly at all. I still would rather eat carbs and sugar over anything! :( which is a constant battle. I especially still love to eat SALTY foods. My YMCA membership is in process of being renewed but to be HONEST on my blog I have not worked out for 2 weeks. I feel TOTALLY guilty about it, i just need to bust out a workout video and do it!

I was using spark people.com to log in my food and my water intake but I know when i am really busy I wont have time for that So i was trying to do it on my own in my head or in my phone. Its coming along but I will admit i dont get it in everyday. 

My dr. plan is for me to eat 3 meals a day and one snack. Well My stomach is small and sometimes I cant finish the food, but i NEED the protein. So i will eat some and then later come back to it and finish it. THIS MAY BE BAD??? But I dont know which is more important for me to stick to the 3 meals, 1 snack or get all my protein in to keep me healthy???

I have been eating a variety of things still eating weight control oatmeal, cottage cheese, cheese cubes or slices, shrimp, lunch meats, chili, chicken, steak, eggs, greek yogurt.  My not so good stuff would probably be totilla chips, and pretzels. I love salt and those give me salt. is this BAD??????????

I wear my size 20 pants to work. My size 20 jeans are still very snug in the legs (imagine pulling them up like pantyhose). My shirts I think are about a 2x still. I probably wont get new clothes until mine look REALLY bad. LOL I just dont have the funds for it.

I have been getting B12 shots too because I am SOOOO tired all the time. That is my other "excuse" for not exercising.

Some of my fears that I am not losing enough weight because I am not exercising. I feel like if I eat things bad that I am sabotaging even my surgery that is trying to help me lose weight. I worry when i am hungry because ppl say you dont feel hungry for a year after surgery....  I am still searching for a different counselor to talk to because I dont want to sabotage my self....

I am going through alot of stress I feel in my life. I am adjusting to WLS /loser bench life style. I am single and have been for 6 years and I want to date again. I am searching for a new job since I am an RN now I want an RN job. My son is going through some developmental stuff that is difficult as a single parent alone but on top of trying to pull my life together.. Finances are difficult my mom had to buy my calcium and vitamins because NEWS FLASH---> there not cheap! :( at least for me who lives paycheck to paycheck.

This journey that I am on I am not sure to become MORE disciplined which puts more stress on myself or try to just trust God that it will all work out. I need to do my best and right now I feel like i am running at about 75% best.

I do love that I weight 250lbs, I havent weighed that in years!!! I want to enjoy this, and everyday is a new day, I can chose what I put in my body and if/when i mess up I always have the next choice to decide right or wrong!

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