Laureen S.
Something I posted today that I want to remember. . .
Aug 20, 2009
Last night I went to my monthly support group and it was good to see people and we had a couple of people who are just coming up on the 1st year post-surgery and listening to them talk about how this has changed their lives just reminds me of all I have to be grateful for.There was someone there, who sadly told their story, of having had WLS in 2001 and after losing a substantial portion of their weight, their spouse of 27 years left and that person resorted back to old habits and had regained all of their weight back and then some, they can't have revision due to a bloodclot issue and so are on a medically supervised 700 calorie a day diet to help lose weight. A sad story, but the upside is they are doing something about it. Another of our group members, someone who is 6 years post-op, spoke of how at 18 months post surgery, they got tired of doing the right things and a year later was 60 lbs. heavier, so that person went back to doing what had given them a new lease on life and lost the regained weight. That story I go back to over and over in my mind, because I think the further out we get, the more "normal" our mindsets become, and therein lies the danger of regain, which is a big fear of mine. I worked so hard to get where I am and lately I've lost some of the wind in my sails, so to speak, I am not exercising, which makes me feel guilty, the scale has crept up some, but still within my 5 lbs. of lowest weight and I do a fairly good job of journaling what I eat to keep myself honest and on track. I miss the exercise portion of things, however, I can't bring myself to spend the time in the gym, when I don't have things I have to do, or things of a social nature, I just want to be at home with Dillinger.
As I come closer to my 2 year post-surgical time, I had hoped to be at my goal, which in truth is not far from being realized, so while I can recognize the achievements, I still have an unrealized goal that makes me feel that I have failed somehow. There is my addict brain thought process, black/white for all to see, never enough. . . What I have to reply to that thought process is I've had lots of life challenges this past year, things that would have sent me searching for consolation in the form of my first true love, FOOD. . . I can say that with all truth, I seldom gave in to it and mostly did not even consider it, so I share this with all of you, as a way to purge the negative from my mind and to let you know that some days just knowing that we are all on the same journey, no matter the distance from it, it's the commaradiere that we share that keeps me looking for and counting my blessings and knowing that the number on the scale does not determine my success for this day.
Hugs, Laureen
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Maple Shade, NJ
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10/16/2007
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Jan 09, 2006
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