I AM HAPPY!!!!

Aug 29, 2009

Never did I imagine the impact and change of me losing weight ,going to therapy and having a health lifestyle would complete my life....I can say for the 1st time in my adult life I am truly happy whatever struggles and up and downs that come I no longer go into a deep deppression and feel as though the world is ending.... I am happy with my body even with the loose skin. I am happy with my new twins and my older children.....I am happy in my relationship after 1 year of being together still in love with his crazy behind.... I have learned so much on this journey and I am thankful. I am preparing for another year and more together by next year this time we will b married .. I am planning to start working out with a trainer to start toning up... Over all I am BLESSED!!!!!
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Time Has Flown By!!!

Jun 30, 2009

I have since had twins in Feb/09 and maintained my weightloss...I am actually smaller now than I was when I got pregnant @ 210. I currently am weighing 162 and wearing a size 14/16 jeans... I am very comfortable with my size and would like to go down maybe 2 more sizes and I am slowly working on that. I have been blessed to not have any complications from my surgery..I still take my vitamins daily and my whole focus when it comes to food is protein......I can honestly say that my relationship with food has changed so dramatically .....Before I used to eat out of boredom or being lonely or for socialization. I eat now because I have to.....I no longer plan activities around food and when this does happen I find my self not really enjoying myself and getting anxious cause its not what I really want to do....I also can say that I crave sugar on a daily basis...Prior to my surgery Sugar was never my thing it was fried foods.....Now that I have had the surgery I find that I need some type of sugar daily....I try not to eat it but I do in moderation.... I dont get sick like other people from eating sugar unless it is something really sweet....And sick for me is just feeling nauseous....So i may eat 2 cookies a day just to cure the desire...So that is my weekness that I am trying to stop.....
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WOW!!!!!!

Aug 05, 2008

I hadn't realized how much I had accomplished. I have been working 2 jobs so I havent posted in a while. I am doing good I currently weight 201 pounds I am feeling extremely good. I have alot of energy. I am wearing a size 18 pants and Xl shirt. I wear my heels daily (I am loving me!!!).. I am extremely happy and excited about me making this decision for me! I havent had any complications I seen my doctor in July and she is happy with my progress. I will be updating my profile with new pictures soon.

I am Comfortable

Mar 03, 2008

I am comfortable with how my progress is going not to fast not to slow. I am mindful of my protein but I have my days. I ALWAYS take vitamins. I dont dump nor vomit but I do suffer from nasaue after I have eaten or due to the smell of food. My senses are really high. I just take my pill for naseau and its usually resolved or if its something else that another person is eating I will leave the room and take a walk. I am loving the new me and the transformation. On a daily basis I hear how I have changed so much. I can see the change within my clothes and the shape of my body. I can tell how my hips are slimming down and my waist is getting smaller. I wouldnt trade this journey in for nothing. It has caused my whole family to rethink there eating habits. Oh Yeah My ex-man (Popeyes) I cant stand the smell of him and havent even tried to eat him. If I cant get past the smell there is no way I will eat. I have been able to tolerate all foods fine. I had a problem with chicken but now that I am further along I find if I cook at home its better for me not only that I stopped buying my meats from the grocery store and started buying them from trader joes inwhich I notice a big difference in tenderness and the natural juices of the meat. I wish I could get more water in that is my downfall but I do make sure I always have water around me just cant take in the complete amount required.If at home and that is my main focus I can at work its a little more difficult. My favorite foods are all fruits I love the juice from them and steak. Well off to my weightloss field day!!!!

Had Surgery!!!!

Jan 03, 2008

Ok I am exactly a week late with updating but I amm trying to do things right. I had the surgery on time at 7:30 that morning when I woke from surgery I thought I was in pain so me and the pain pump were best-friends for about an hour while I was in and out of sleep in the recovery room. Then It dawned on me I wasnt in pain and it was actually gas. So I immediately tried to get off the gurney the nurse asked me where I was going I said I need to walk cause my doctor 1 statement to me was " Whats The Most Important Thing To Do? Walk". So thats where my mindset was. But I eventually laid back down until I got to my room. Once in my room I slept for about 30 minutes then woke-up & unplugged everthing from the wall and walked the halls. The nurse seen me & said you were supposed to go from ur bed to the chair. My response was my dr said i am to walk the halls. So I dont think i was the best patient. I just knew I needed to get the gas out & I forgot my gas-x at home. For some reason since the surgery I dont pass gas often maybe burp but thats about it. I spent alot of time walking in the hospital due to being bored and the hospital bed not being comfortable. I stopped using the pain pump in the recovery room I never touched after that since I was not in pain. My sense of smell changed drastically. When they brought me my protein chicken broth it smelled horrible I couldnt drink it but the bottle of Isopure I love as long as it was cold. The test they give you to make sure there are no leaks is the worse. That mess they make u drink is horrible it is the worst tasting thing i have ever had. I was up at 5 am on the Saturday I was to be released cause i was busting out of that hospital. I couldnt take staying there another minute. The doctor came around 9 to see how i was doing but I was walking the halls she was waiting for me to return to check me. She had 3 other surgeries after me & I never seen any of the women walking the halls. So she released me & I hit the streets went grocery shopping and to pick up prescriptions she gave me once doing all that i eventually got tired at went home to sleep which felt good. The following morning i knew i had to get my protein in so i made my shake I had been making prior to surgery  Well now i dont like the shake it is gross to me. So luckily I had purchased a case of the whey bullets prior to surgery and I have been drinking 3 42 grams bullets a day along with at least 50.7 ounces of water. I am pushing for more but I think this is a good start. When they say they cant fix ur head that is REAL!!!!! I now have to limit the amount of time I watch t.v inorder to not get sucked in to all of the food commercials. The smell of fried foods make me naseous & fast foods dont smell right for me. Also when I got to the hospital I was 263 when i got home and weighed myself I was 275 I was like I'll Be Damned!!! but i didnt fret over it cause I knew it was gas. So since I have been home it appears I have been loosing at 1-2 pounds a day according to my scale I am currently 263 so as of today I am right were i started. Me & gas -x have become the best of friends. I will update on 1/8/08 my post -op vst. 


HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!!!!

Today Is It!

Dec 26, 2007

Today is my surgery & I am very calm. Really happy maybe I wont get nervous until the room. I dont know but it just feels like I have done this before. But I have never had surgery but 2 kids I have had. Thank you to all the kind words, for those who have shared there journeys, & those who we have encouraged each other. C U On the LOOSER SIDE !!!!!!

I am Loosing My Mind!!!

Dec 26, 2007

I am currently doing the clear liquids for the day before surgery. I am sooooo loooooosing it. I dont know how people have been able to do this for longer than a day I swear I would murder somebody... I am wanting everything I see. The cravings have subsided this evening. I am just drinking water cause the chicken broth I drank earlier got my ankles all swollen. So I am ready relaxed not nervous just ready.

Almost Done!

Dec 23, 2007

I havent posted much since I have been really focused on meeting my goal weight to loose 30 pounds prior to surgery but but I wanted to lose an additional 10 before thursday. I think will be accomplished with the liquid diet I will do on Wednesday. I have been craving everything under the son but have not gave way to temptation. My job gave us a gift certificate to chili's & I just knew I was going to use it but its still in my purse. Since I am done christmas shopping I have been focusing on drinking my water and exercising along with getting my protein. The hardest part this past week is the food coming into the office which wasnt as bad as last year. My boss not understand why I wasnt going to the holiday party. I didnt want to jeopardize me gaining weight so I didnt go. Well I will post the morning of surgery . Have A Merry Christmas!!!!

My Christmas Gift to self: A new digital camera, a facial, the luxurious mani/pedi with 30 min massage (the best) I am set.

Just 2 more weeks!!!!!!!

Dec 09, 2007

I have experienced every emotion imaginable. I have gone from loosing my best friend (Food) in the beginning by having to loose weight and being very angry. To still not having my best friend (Food) and being overly  sensitive. To I think now I am settling in and understanding this was not and is not the easiest journey I have gone it. But it is so well worth it. My current emotion is just crying at the drop of a dime. For those who don't know me I am usually the one who hides my emotions pretty good but boy has loosing weight done changed me so much. If u say the wrong thing to me know I am crying & I have never been a women to cry atleast not infront of people. I can laff now cause its seems to have stopped. But now I am so anxious and just ready. I still have 6 pds to loose before the surgery in 2 weeks. I thought I was gonna cook this big meal for christmas but then I said to myself I am not gonna cook why jeopardize my surgery. I will make something for my kids but my plans where to make Gumbo and thats not happening. I dont want any extra food in the house knowing I wont be able to eat it. I am so thankful for the second chance to live and be free of excess in all ways. The process has gone pretty smooth for me the hardest was loosing the required weight.  I had 2 more test to do prior to the surgery which was another EKG- done & another Chest X-ray- done. I also have to go on a clear liquid diet the day before surgery. I met with my dr last week and she told me she wanted me to do the clear liquids and a clean out the nite before surgery. Thats going to be a piss of cake since I will b at work the day before surgery trying to keep myself busy. After work I have to go too the dr's office to sign the consent form and then i will probably go to the mall and doing a little shopping to keep busy. I will update when its closer. I also seen the needle that I have to use to give myself the lovenox injections & it is much smaller than the needle I had to use when I was pregnant with my daughter. I had gestational diabetes when pregnant with my daughter so I had to give myself insulin shots. So I wasnt scared of having to give myself injections its just i never knew this was going to be apart of the process.


Honesty!

Nov 16, 2007

I struggled all nite with if I wanted to leave the post from last nite on my profile. But once I started this journey I wanted to be completely honest about the process. I have read several profiles and none ever mentioned the injections u have to give urself after surgery and alot dont mention the emotional ride u are on. So I decided i would leave the post and hope it helps someone else.

About Me
Torrance, CA
Location
49.4
BMI
RNY
Surgery
12/27/2007
Surgery Date
Jan 18, 2004
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