so sad and angry...

Aug 06, 2009

This is probably the hardest thing I've ever had to put in writing....my mother passed away this past Sunday, Aug. 2....it was all very sudden and unexpected...she was 54 years old...she was my biggest supporter, my mother, my hero, the strongest person i knew and my best friend...she stood behind me always ready to catch me anytime i'd fall...if i felt weak or like i couldn't do it, she was my cheering section....a lot of people feel, that's what mother's are for...but this was different...she was more than just my mother........she'd had a tough life but always, always lived life looking forward and never back at the what ifs...so many people saw how much she relied on me...but they didn't see how very much i relied on her as well....we talked every single day...literally 10-15 times a day....she has left behind a huge hole that will never quite heal....she always told me that when she was gone she wanted her life to be celebrated not mourned...so we're doing just that...even through the tears and pain....we are celebrating...i loved this woman more than could ever be expressed....we had our rough times...but it never lasted long and when they were over we just grew closer...even when it didn't seem possible that could happen....life will never be the same....but i know she would want me to pick up the pieces and live by the example she set for me....the journey we know as life isn't always easy, painless and smooth...but in the end, it's all so very worth it....i miss you and love you mom!!!!!!!!!!!

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