Thankful for Thanksgiving and some perspective

Nov 21, 2011

So about a week ago I was going through some old pictures and found pictures from one of my best friend's wedding. At her wedding I was at my highest weight ever. I'm not sure exactly where I was number wise but I know it was my heaviest. I had just split with my boyfriend of 2 years, lost my job and I was hurting. I look back at that time now and realize I was using food to dull the pain I was going through. I thought I was doing well, but I was slowly killing myself with my actions and didn't even realize it.

Fast forward to almost three years later and I now weigh less than I did the majority of highschool (maybe all of it). Not seeing anyone but I've dated my fair share since splitting with my ex, which now looking back is one of the best things that ever happened to me. I have an incredible job at an amazing company, and I'm happy (for the most part  )

That's not to say there haven't been struggles. Last night was an incredible struggle. Had a late meeting for work so they had it catered in for us. They got Papa Vino's which if you're not familiar with it is mostly pasta in heavy calorie-laden sauces and bread with dipping oil. I don't eat those things anymore. I had a veggie sausage patty with me and ate that and tried to tell myself that I didn't need anything else. But the smell of the amazing pasta was calling my name. So what did I do? I excused myself from the situation. I got up and walked away because I have worked too damn hard to let some stupid pasta fuck me up.

And that simple action of getting up and walking away for a minute is what hit me as odd. Three years ago, hell, six or seven months ago I would have said, "Oh, a little pasta isn't bad for you!" and eaten a huge portion of that pasta, probably felt stuffed for an hour or so while feeling guilty about what I'd just eaten. I don't do that anymore! I have taken control of myself and my eating. Something I wouldn't have been able to do without my sleeve.

So, this week, while everyone else binges on crazy amounts of food in the "Spirit of the Holidays" I'm going to take a step back and instead of stuffing myself like the turkey most people put on their tables, I'm going to be thankful for the opportunity I've been given at a new life with my sleeve.


Here are some of those pictures from the wedding and then a before and now picture.

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