LeahBea
Hitting Goal and other random stuff
Jan 26, 2012
Well kids, today was the day! I woke up and hopped on the scale to find this...
And my reaction:
I had just woken up, please don't judge me on how crazy I look in this picture.
First goal weight reached in just under 8 months. Pretty proud of myself at the moment. So what does this mean for me? Nothing, for right now...
I will be staying on plan for the forseeable future to see where it takes me. MY goal was 160, my surgeon's goal for me is 145. I don't know that I'll ever get to that but I am going to see what happens. I've said from the very beginning of all of this that I wasn't going to obsess over a number, and I didn't. Why start now? The way I see it, I'm going to stay on plan to see where I end up and my body will settle when it's ready. I'm not going to fight my body just so my scale reads a certain number (just not my style).
So what has changed in the last 8 months? I've gone from wearing a snug size 28 to wearing a size 10/12, my boobs have gone from a DDD to a C
, I have given up all the things I thought that I never could/would (soda, potatoes, pasta, rice, bread, alcohol). If you had told me 8 months ago I would prefer a cup of hot tea sweetened with stevia over a diet coke I would have called you a liar, but here I am telling you it's true. I have dated a few different guys that I normally would have never dated before, not because they wouldn't have wanted me, but because I was comfortable enough in my own skin to let them like me. I have had my heart bruised when one of those boys started dating someone else without bothering to mention it to me (found that one out today as a matter of fact) and realized if I am strong enough to have them cut out 80% of my stomach and change my entire life that I am strong enough to walk away with my head high... knowing I'm better than being treated like that. I have learned that being smaller didn't change who I am, it just changed how I look, and some people in my life couldn't handle it... but the ones who could are the ones that are worth having around. There is so much that I've learned, and that list isn't even half of it! But I wanted to post this so the newbies out there and the people that have struggled or are still struggling know that it's not easy but IT IS doable. You are the one that wakes up every morning and makes the decision to make it happen or not. VSG was not the quick or easy fix, but it made it possible for me to change my life. It's a tool, and when used wisely can change your world in all the right ways.
Much love to all of you for your love and support through everything. Wouldn't have made it here without your love and guidance. XOXO
