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Nov 22, 2012

It's been a long while since writing on here, and my life has been a roller coaster ride of emotions this past year....So what I thought was just plain regular old depression for the last 20 plus years was recently upgraded to Bipolar NOS (not otherwise specified). I'm still trying to figure out what the heck that means.....My new primary care physician who also happens to be a psychiatrist, (but I don't see him for that), is great. He is the one who got me off the "wrong" medications I was taking for years and which hadn't been working for what I thought had was regular depression. Amazingly enough my insomnia went away after 2 years of not sleeping through the night. Soon after changing medications I was overcome with a flood of good and bad emotions that had been suppressed by the medications I was on before and now no longer taking..... WOW! emotions are hard to deal with after not dealing with them for so many years, but thanks to my therapist I'm learning to deal with them.......................Now for the Bipolar crap and getting the right meds and level and how to filter my emotions, what comes out of my mouth, and not have it effect my relations at home and at work, this is a challenge and it's not going so great.....I have lots to work on and I hope I can do this and not lose it all.....

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