True rebirth

Mar 04, 2011

I haven't written anything here in so long.  My life has changed so much and so quickly.  After 20 years of marriage, I got divorced last year.  Everyone seems to think it had something to do with my weight loss, and if I'm honest, maybe it did.  I had filed for divorce one other time many years ago, but my husband convinced me to stay.  After my weight loss, I felt better about myself and was physically and emotionally strong enough to believe that I could stand on my own two feet.  And I have done that.

I bought a house for the kids and me and had such a great time decorating it.  I didn't take so much as a dish rag with me from my marital home.  All I took was my clothes and family things that my grandmother/mom/sisters had given me over the years.  I do feel like I've gone through a true rebirth.

And as far as dating goes, just a huge WOW.  Although I'm far from skinny at about 188 pounds, I have more male attention than I know what to do with.  I actually had gotten down to about 175, but gained some weight back over the holidays and I prefer this weight.  When I was at 175, my loose skin on my neck and stomach was much more visible.  I am probably going to try to stay at this weight unless I can afford plastics at some point. 

But back to men.  Because I was morbidly obese for so long, I had become invisible to men.  Now, it is astonishing to me that so many guys flirt with me, want to take me out, tell me that I'm beautiful, etc.  The attention is intoxicating and somewhat alarming to me.  I had started seeing someone right after my divorce and we really jumped in head first.  He got divorced eight years ago and hadn't seen anyone since.  Our story is a special one and I do love him, but I need some time to be sure that he's the right one.  We've agreed at this point to slow things down, but aren't putting a period at the end of the sentence either.

I feel like a totally different person because of the way that others react to me.  That's both because of my physical transformation and due to my increased confidence.  Most of my life is new -- job (changed jobs in August of last year), house, marital status, appearance, church (still looking for the right one), and overall just trying to figure out who I want to be now.

The only constant I can identify is CHANGE!

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