LeeLee72
Hi..I was never good at these little "about me" but here goes. I am 39, mother of 3 boys, married (at the moment) and obese. Ha ha, that sounds like one of those 12 step programs. But it's the truth. My weight has started to take over and I'm obsessing about it. Therefore, I decided that it was time to do something more about it. I was "chubby" as a kid. In my teens, I was larger than most of the girls, but when I look back at my pictures, I actually looked DAMN GOOD! But the problem is, my father was abusive verbally, mentally and he made me feel like garbage. So the way I viewed myself and the way that I really looked was skewed. I didn't feel good about myself and I know now that I have made some really poor choices because of my childhood, overeating being one of them.
I have lost weight countless times. My lowest weight was 180 after I took pills and worked out like a maniac twice a day when my oldest son was small (I was in my 20's then). But I couldnt maintain it. Then started again, over and over. I am sure you all get the point. Once I got in my 30's, I was a size 16, which I know I was still heavy, but it wasn't terrible and then I got pregnant again...and then AGAIN. Boy...that just started the ball really rolling!!! I had to get my gallbladder out, then a hysterectomy. Now I look and feel like a hot mess, especially my big belly. I tried the protein thing...eating protein, no carbs, yada yada. But guess what, you can't live off protein alone. Have to have healthy carbs too. But once I got a tiny bit of carbs in my system after depriving myself for so long, I went on a kick! So again, all the weight came back.
I had done research at least twice about WLS and then this past December, my MIL died. I think she had high blood pressure or something because her heart was enlarged. Anywho, her death made me think of my own mortality, my precious boys that I would leave behind if I died young because of something that I could conceivably control and decided this was IT! I must take control of my health. So here I am :)
Besides the health benefits...I want to feel sexy again. I want to wear a bathing suit comfortably when I go on my cruises and to the West Indies (oh I am a travel buff btw! So this cruise you guys are going on, count me in next year). I want to comfortably wear stilettos. I want to wear a pair of jeans without having a muffin top. I want to cut up my Lane Bryant credit card and be able to shop at "regular stores". You know, even though there is a large percentage of American who are obese, we really do get discriminated against. For jobs, clothes cost way more i.e. go in Wally World one day and see how they charge +$2 for a plus size. I went to St. Vincent and the Grenadines in December for MIL funeral, and I walked that whole downtown area and couldn't find clothes that fit. I mean, I didn't have to have anymore clothes, just the thought that if I lived there, how would I dress as a large woman?? It's crazy...but I am glad that I am finally starting my journey and know I will be successful!
