LeeLeewaysin
Why do we have to tell people???
Oct 08, 2012
I had my information session September 21st and to my surprise there were people there bigger and smaller than me. Oh and get this, the elevators were broken upon our arrival. I felt so bad for some people as chairs had to be put on each floor in the stairs as so many were unable to climb. A reality check for sure.Anyway back to my beef....it was recommended during the session to tell our family members and closest friends in order to start building our support system....well I'm a talker and everyone and anyone who knows me can expect me to redirect almost any conversation to weight, typically mine lol....but this time around I'm finding myself to be quite reluctant in doing so.
I hate how people think this is a debate or a reason for them to impart their opinions on me...all you have to do is this...isn't that a bit extreme...just wait for a while longer you just had a baby....I know someone who had that procedure done and died....yup I've heard them all and to be honest, its maddening and making me feel ashamed of turning to WLS as an option. Why can't people understand that I simply am tired of fighting this battle...why don't people understand that I don't want to go another 35 years being FAT.
Ive even had someone offer to buy me a gym membership..WTF...are you kidding me, this has nothing to do with money or not knowing that exercise and eating right is the key...like come on, I could write a novel on weight loss, nutrition and execising...its not rocket science I think we all understand that for the most part, that isn't the problem.
Personally I eat to cope with stress and any emotion I have no control over. I also, simply put, just love food too...unfortunately to the point where I just can't stop eating...its like I was born with no sensory to know when I'm satisfied or had enuf. I know I have alot of work ahead of me and I have been making small steps to improve what I eat now but I need to work on it more. I could probably benefit from speaking to a professional about my other issues so I can get a head start on things. I don't want to fool myself into thinking that as soon as the weight starts coming off I will all of a sudden start "thinking skinny" and drop all my old bad habits....it just doesnt work like that. It wasn't that long ago when I went on Dr. B and dropped 70lbs and started thinking skinny so I started jogging...I was able to jog 7 to 10K in no time...I felt as though I was on top of the world....but just because I could run with ease and at distance didn't change who I was. That said, I know I need more tools. To this point, I must also admit that knowing how miserably I have failed in the past despite my efforts and discipline in various life style changes I tried to make...I find myself wondering if WLS will also lead to disappointment. Such a scary thought.
I think for now I'm just going to move forward and not mention wls to anyone else. I just don't see the point....its a downer. If I hear one more time that "you've lost before you can do it again" I will just snap!!!!
