leelor
on my way to the body i always dreamed of .
Jul 24, 2007
Finally , i am on my way i have a date 8-7-07 . i cannott believe this is finally happening .i have waited for this my whole life . i grew up thinking something was wrong with me , i have always been heavy .In fourth grade when kids weighed 40 and 50 lbs i weighed 110and had at least 5 inches on thenm in height , in high school i dreamt of being a cheer leader but i was always heavy and too embarrassed to try out . i always looked at the guys i was attracted to from afar ,and settled for being their friend and buddy instead of risk of being embarrased and of rejection . I dream of buying somthing in a normal size and it fitting .that wa s then this is now -
Now i dream of being able to tie my shoes , i dream of fitting in a movie theater seat, being able to fit into a booth at a restraunt , i dream of playing outside with my kids and not looking stupid , i cant wait to do laundry without sweating a bucket and my back and knees hurting so bad i cry . i dream of my husband looking at me like i am a piece of cheesecake he cant wait to dig into. i dream of my kids being proud of me for doing this. i dream of my friends discribing me for my" wonderful personality "& not my stunning looks .
Now i dream of being able to tie my shoes , i dream of fitting in a movie theater seat, being able to fit into a booth at a restraunt , i dream of playing outside with my kids and not looking stupid , i cant wait to do laundry without sweating a bucket and my back and knees hurting so bad i cry . i dream of my husband looking at me like i am a piece of cheesecake he cant wait to dig into. i dream of my kids being proud of me for doing this. i dream of my friends discribing me for my" wonderful personality "& not my stunning looks .
