Lena0003
Body Image and NSVs.
Mar 08, 2011
Thought I would take a moment and share a little about what has been going on in my mind lately. We'll start with the NSVs...which for those of you who don't already know (I kept seeing this for months before I finally had the nerve to ask haha), it means "Non Scale Victory." I've had a couple of those recently. Last week I decided that I would like to start jogging. I was worried that still at 260+ lbs, that I would still be way too heavy for any jogging. So I posted on here and got some great feedback. People recommend I check out the from couch 2 5 k website, which I did, and decided to try that program. I actually was able to do it successfully! And the next day, although sore, I didn't feel shin splints or sore knees and hips as I was worried about! Unfortunately, I've been dealing with a lot of back pain recently. It had gotten better, then worse again, so I have halted the jogging program until it feels better, but am looking forward to resuming it! I don't know if excess skini could be an issue yet, but I used to have upper back and neck issues as the result of a car accident when I was 17. But I had never had regular lower back issues, which has been my problem lately. I may have to get this checked out.My second recent NSV came last night. Last week I put on my last pair of jeans that I already had on hand to "fit" into (a 20). I've been going through jean sizes so quickly, that I don't want to spend much money on jeans. Plus, I'm tall, so finding jeans with a long enough inseam can sometimes be a challenge. So I went with Old Navy because they were having a sale, and 20% off. I also have been happy with Old Navy because I am in their "normal" sizes, which doesn't say a whole lot, because they go to size 20, but still, I was in their plus size before! I ordered a couple pairs of size 18, along with a bunch of shirts. I got them last night, and the size 18s fit me just fine! I was expecting them to still be a little tight, but I can wear them now comfortably. That was super nice. As I was cleaning out my closets, I actually did come across one more pair of 18s with tags on, so I should be good. This is the first time in I don't even remember that I can wear a size beginning with a 1, and I am so happy about that. I don't remember for sure, but in my head, in my early teens, I was already a 20. I came close to an 18 before, which is why I have the one pair, but never got there.
As for the body image issues, I know that I am so close to having lost 100 lbs, and I have gone from being uncomfortable in a size 26 to comfortable in an 18, but I can't see it AT ALL! I have heard so much about body morphism, and it really is true. When I look in the mirror, I honestly see NO difference from what I was a year ago. The good thing is, when I look at pictures between then and now, I see it. I think if I wasn't seeing it anywhere, I'd be going crazy! I am still feeling frustrated by the fact that I can't look in the mirror and see it. I can feel that I've lost a lot of weight, and there are other things that make it evident to me, such as extra room in theater seats, etc, but the mirror is not my friend. Especially just out of the shower while naked. I just get depressed, and all I see is fat, and skin, and flab. Its frustrating, but its a part of this, and I am working on these issues.
And that's about it. Almost 6 months out! Just a week away, and feeling pretty good. I have to make an appt for my labs, and then I have my 6 month follow up appt later this month, which I will definitely update everyone on.
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About Me
Maple Grove, MN
Location
35.8
BMI
Surgery
09/16/2010
Surgery Date
May 14, 2010
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