LILAC45
Needing to get back on track
Jun 23, 2009
I've gained, i never got to my goal weight. I've been so depressed about this and feel like a total failure. I'm finally starting to get back on track and I know I can work this fantastic tool i had the surgery for. I'm looking for support and anyone who I can vent to from time to time. I have 90 lbs. I want to lose. I know this won't happen overnight. I'm pulling all my notes, knowledge, information I have on this surgery. I am going to get down to my goal this time. With the help of God, i will prevail. "I can do all things through Christ who strengenths me"
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I'M MARRIED NOW
Sep 16, 2007
On Sept. 8, 2007, i got married. I'm so happy, I have a wonderful husband.
As of this morning i lost 111 lbs. so far.....it seems to be coming off very very slow right now....i'm trying not to get depressed. I'm going to have to excercise....no ifs ands or buts.......
As of this morning i lost 111 lbs. so far.....it seems to be coming off very very slow right now....i'm trying not to get depressed. I'm going to have to excercise....no ifs ands or buts.......
106 lbs. lost
Jul 18, 2007
So far i've lost 106 lbs. Amazing isn't it.....Thank you God.
I've been on Paxil for over 10 years for panic disorder, i went to my Dr. last week and he cut my dose in half because i was feeling more depressed than ever, since i had surgery. I think he may have to lower it some more, possibly i can get off of it. That would be great. I still take klonopin for anxiety tho.
I've been getting more frequent migrain headaches. I have a prescription for those now. I'm hoping there just from the stress of getting my daughters wedding together for Aug. and mine for Sept.
Other than that i'm doing fine.......i still need to excercise....last week i hurt my knee so that debilitated me for a bit. It's getting better now. I had picked up smoking again but am now on Chantix to help quit. I know once i quit i'll definately be excercising because i'll be able to breath. I pray that God works on me so i can get back on track.
I've been on Paxil for over 10 years for panic disorder, i went to my Dr. last week and he cut my dose in half because i was feeling more depressed than ever, since i had surgery. I think he may have to lower it some more, possibly i can get off of it. That would be great. I still take klonopin for anxiety tho.
I've been getting more frequent migrain headaches. I have a prescription for those now. I'm hoping there just from the stress of getting my daughters wedding together for Aug. and mine for Sept.
Other than that i'm doing fine.......i still need to excercise....last week i hurt my knee so that debilitated me for a bit. It's getting better now. I had picked up smoking again but am now on Chantix to help quit. I know once i quit i'll definately be excercising because i'll be able to breath. I pray that God works on me so i can get back on track.
102 lbs. lost
Jul 02, 2007
So far i've lost a total of 102lbs. I finally know what it's like not to feel like a failure I do have to start excercising more, i just need to get myself motivated.
100 lbs. lost
Jun 25, 2007
Finally i have lost 100 lbs. It's awesome. I still have close to another 100lbs. to lose but in time it will happen. I'm so happy. My wedding plans are going good. I will never regret having this surgery, i could of never lost this much weight at one time without it.
Emotions
May 07, 2007
It's been so long since i posted on here. I know i've been going thru so many emotions. When i stall i get depressed. I think i always hid behind my fat and possibly still do. I think i need to look deep inside me and change my thinking that i am worthy to lose weight and be thin or thinner and healthy. I need to start thinking positive again. This surgery was a big step for me in my life, but i have no regrets. I just need to work on me.
Wedding Date Set
Feb 22, 2007
We have a wedding date set now, Sept. 8th. I also found a dress that i think is georgous. I'm hoping i lose enough till then so i look good in it. Anyway, i'm happy and can't wait for the big day.
I've lost 70 lbs. so far. My clothes are getting to be very loose. I think every day is an adventure with this surgery. But i feel good, no complications. Some days i have energy then some i don't...go figure.
I can remember thinking whenever i hit stalls, which seem to be alot, at this rate i'll never lose....but then i look back and i say, i've lost 70 lbs. already in less than 3 mos.
All in all i don't regret my decision.
I've lost 70 lbs. so far. My clothes are getting to be very loose. I think every day is an adventure with this surgery. But i feel good, no complications. Some days i have energy then some i don't...go figure.
I can remember thinking whenever i hit stalls, which seem to be alot, at this rate i'll never lose....but then i look back and i say, i've lost 70 lbs. already in less than 3 mos.
All in all i don't regret my decision.
I'm Engaged!
Jan 30, 2007
It's been a little while since i journaled. Jan. 19th my wonderful b/f proposed to me, of course i said yes :) We haven't set a date yet.
I'm finally down 61 lbs. after a 3 wk. stall and teetering. I was also retaining water so i upped how much i drink in a day and the scale started moving.
I'm wearing jeans now that i couldnt get closed before surgery and now there starting to get baggy...so cool
This site is so great, i've learned so much and still learning. Everyone is also so helpful and supportive.
My family hasn't seen me since the holidays. I probably won't get to see them until June when we have my fathers surprise 70th birthday party, they don't even know i had this surgery. I wonder who will be surprised?
I'm finally down 61 lbs. after a 3 wk. stall and teetering. I was also retaining water so i upped how much i drink in a day and the scale started moving.
I'm wearing jeans now that i couldnt get closed before surgery and now there starting to get baggy...so cool
This site is so great, i've learned so much and still learning. Everyone is also so helpful and supportive.
My family hasn't seen me since the holidays. I probably won't get to see them until June when we have my fathers surprise 70th birthday party, they don't even know i had this surgery. I wonder who will be surprised?
Happy Day
Jan 07, 2007
I weigh myself first thing in the morning and today i am below 300 at 299. It's not much below but i'm in the 2's now. I can't remember the last time i was below 300.
I also had my first post-op appt. on friday with my surgeon and that went real well. He said i'm doing good and to just keep doing what i'm doing. I can eat most anything now. Life is just getting better and better.
I also had my first post-op appt. on friday with my surgeon and that went real well. He said i'm doing good and to just keep doing what i'm doing. I can eat most anything now. Life is just getting better and better.
Happy New Year
Dec 31, 2006
That's what this will be....a whole new year for me, a new healthy me, a slim me. Every day is like an adventure for me going thru this journey. A happy healthy new year to all.
About Me
Broomall, PA
Location
39.3
BMI
Surgery
11/27/2006
Surgery Date
Jul 29, 2006
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