Not much difference....ready to give it up.

Apr 17, 2014

I still have a significant open wound that won't heal.  No surgeon or doctor seems to want to help me.  My labs are horrible, even though I take my supplements.  I've tried everything.  I don't know what to do anymore.  I just get weaker.  My rheumatoid arthritis is eating me up.  I've slid backwards on my mobility.  I haven't gained any weight, my body is still melting, but I don't see the scale move.  My pannus is past my knees, touching my shins now.  It is a huge flap.  As long as it is pulling on my wound, it won't heal.  I am lost.  I am tired.  Almost 16 months of trying with no results.  Traveling to surgeons who won't even return my calls.  Drinking expensive supplements that only drain my bank account, not grow tissue.  Yes, my mood is bad and my outlook is negative.  I don't see any end in sight.  

I just wanted to live life by participating, not sit on the sidelines watching.  I'm back to square one minus.

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