Lillystarr

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Today I got on the scale...and my weight, for the first time since I was 20 years old, is under 200 lbs.
I knew coming into this process that my life would change; one day I would wake up and the reflection in the mirror would not be the same one that I used to turn away from with embarrassment.
I didn't however, plan for the milestones that would happen in between surgery and goal - the weight I was the day of my accident in 2004, only having double digit pounds to lose, and the list continues...
I remember the day I realized I was over 200 lbs - I cried for hours and the self-loathing grew even deeper.
Now here I am, and I can't even process the joy within me.
Now is the time for me to focus on the other milestones I will get to experience through this journey - in 3 lbs I will be half way to goal, then more than half way...so many little steps, all building to one amazing goal.
Here's to 196 lbs - and fulfilling the promise to my 20 year old self that I would one day be less than 200 lbs

For the first time in forever - I suddenly realized that I am only 92 lbs away from my goal weight.  Not 100 lbs, not 115 lbs, not 147 lbs...which evidently was how far away I was when I started this journey.

92 lbs - double digits.

I'm gonna do this - I'm actually gonna do this!

A year ago yesterday was the first time someone told me about DS.
A year ago May I started investigating the possibilities.
A year ago June I officially joined this site.
A year ago August I began my application process for DS - and had to appeal the initial decision!
Then
on January 7th, 2009 Dr. L performed my DS...
and from now on, that will be the only anniversary that matters to me - the day I got MY life back.

Today I got on the scale...I'm 208 lbs - down 48 lbs since January 7th
I was this size exactly 5 years ago
On January 13 2004 I fell and suffered a head injury that effects me to this day. 
In returning to this weight now, I truly feel like I'm at the start of my weight loss journey.  This accomplishment has almost wiped away the struggles from the last 5 years, and I am ready to no longer focus on the past, but all that I have to look forward to in the future.
I wasn't really expecting to feel this way, but I'm loving it!