Lindsey C.

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As of this morning, I'm in onderland!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!! I've been so close for a few weeks now and this morning, I weighed in at 198.5.  Granted, I've had the belly flu so I may be at 200+ tomorrow but I'm celebrating while I can.  I haven't seen the ones since high school. :-)

I <3 Pamela Banderson!!!

So here I am...nearly 7 months post op and as of this morning, I am down to 235.  I started this journey at 327.  I've been frustrated lately, just wanting to "get there" already but I have to remember where I started and where I'm headed.  It's truly a journey...and I'm trying to keep my eye on the prize. 

I have had 3 fills so far and have about 4cc's in my 13 cc band.  I think I'm at my sweet spot! I need to work on food journaling and exercising.  I've fallen behind in both of those areas, as well as my water intake but I'm still losing slowly and steadily...about 1-2 lbs a week.

When I started this journey, my goal was to lose 100 lbs in the first year.  That is still my goal but I'm thinking I can surpass it if I work really hard.  So...by April 23, 2010...my new goal is to be under 200 lbs. 

Thanks to all of you who have been such great cheerleaders and inspiration to me.  You keep me going, even when I want to quit.

I joined a new gym this week which was uber intimidating.  It's a HUGE gym and there are lots of perfect people...lots of "granola girls".

I wanted to push myself farther than I have been so I decided to try a class.  My girlfriend and I did a 45 minute spin class this evening.  WOW!  I'm so proud that I even made it thru!  I had already worked out over an hour before the class. 

6 months ago, I could barely walk a mile and tonight I worked out over 2 hours...AMAZING!!! :-)

I can't believe I did it.  I know...I'm a dork.  It's not really that big of a deal but for me, it is HUGE!!! :-))))))))))))))))

I've had a rough couple of weeks.  We've had several deaths in our church family in the past few weeks.  My husband started a new job (YAY). My son started a new daycare (which he hated).  The first day at his new daycare, he was swimming and his eardrum burst.  He had the same thing happen June 08.  He had surgery last December to repair it and this time, the perforation is "traumatic" and in a different spot than was origially patched.  He will probably end up needing yet another ear surgery.  This will be ear surgery #5 and he's only 10.

I've not been to the gym in several weeks.  I've eaten very poorly and I've not been drinking  my water.  Okay...I said it.  The scale is proof  that I've not done a darn thing right as of late.  It's exactly where it was 2-3 weeks ago.

Anyhoo...Star Jones was on Oprah today talking about her struggle with weight.  She spoke of her WLS journey and her addition to food. She said something that really struck me.  She said, "I WAS TIRED OF BEING THE GIRL WITH THE PRETTY FACE".  *sigh*  I've heard this all my life which in one way, is a compliment, but a backhanded one, it seems. 

Star talked about how much she changed throughout her journey and that she's finally discovering who she is.  I'm scared, folks.  I'm scared to change.  Physically, I want to change of course but what if I'm no longer "me"? 

I'm probably just thinking too much but....it's what I do.

So I'm recomitting to this journey...and my band.  I'm going to do whatever it takes to enjoy the journey, all while trying my best to hang on to the only "me" I've ever known.

So I had my second fill today at about 10 weeks post op.

My doc is super happy about my progress.  I've lost 15 lbs since my last visit 6 weeks ago which he said is great.  I got another 1 cc today for a total of 2.5 cc's in  my 13 cc band.  I go back in another 6  weeks (8/19).  I've made it my personal goal to lose another 20 lbs by my next visit. I like the mini-goals. :-)

Here's hoping for some good restriction with this fill.

I had my first fill today, nearly 5 weeks post-op.  It wasn't bad at all.  I expected that huge needle to hurt much more than it actually did.  In fact, there was no pain.  It was just a bit uncomfortable.  He put in 1.5 cc's and I go back July 8th for another fill and checkup.

I'm already noticing some restriction...or something. :)  I'm belching a lot...similar to how I was the first week post-op.  I'm on liquids for the rest of the day!

He said my weight loss so far is great!  I LOVE MY BAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Now that I'm exercising daily, I feel terrible (and guilty) if I don't exercise.  It's such a strange feeling.  I still have to make myself but once I start, I feel the endorphins and picture myself smaller. This keeps me going!  I just did my eliptical at home for 20 minutes since the gym is not open today and wow...I feel great!  Sweaty and pooped, but great!  I'm even considering doing another 10 minutes on it before bed so I'll have my 30 minute minimum in for the day.  I never realized that I can burn 400 calories in 20 minutes on the eliptical.  That's so awesome!  It's been gathering dust in the corner for a while but I plan on using more often now.

I actually crave exercise now.  That sound so strange coming from the girl who a few months ago, would have laughed at the word exercise.  Now, I get in at least 30 minutes daily but usually an hour daily.  WEIRD!!! :)

THE TRANSFORMATION CONTINUES...not just physically, but the bigger one (in my head).

I was sitting here thinking and my the newest goal I'm setting for myself is to be at or around 250ish by Labor Day 09.

I'm writing it down here so I see it often. :))))))))))

I started on mushies today! YAYYYYYYYYYYY!!! :)  For breakfast I mushed up 3 vienna sausage links.  I know that sounds gross for breakfast but I'm telling you, it was heaven.  That was at 7 a.m.  It's 10:10 and I'm still full.  Woo-Hoooo!!!!

I'm still fighting with the head hunger issue as it's always there but physically, I'm not hungry with very little in my stomach!!!

I'm having fat free cottage cheese for lunch and then a protein shake for dinner. :)))))))))

YAY for small victories!

Although I returned to work this past Monday (5 days post op), I think my body is still very much recovering.  I felt great Monday but was exhausted when I got home.  I worked Tuesday but ended up coming home mid-afternoon.  My BP was really low and I just didn't feel well at all.  I decided to go ahead and take today off.  I feel like I really need to listen to my body and my body is saying, "REST".  I should be fine to go back tomorrow and Friday.  Then, another weekend to rest up!  I'm feeling good today but I haven't really done anything. :)

...off to bed for another nap. :)

P.S. I've lost a pound a day since surgery!  How cool is that!?!?!?!  It's been 6 days since surgery and I've dropped 6 lbs. :)