Lindsey C.
Oprah and worrying...
Jul 20, 2009
I've had a rough couple of weeks. We've had several deaths in our church family in the past few weeks. My husband started a new job (YAY). My son started a new daycare (which he hated). The first day at his new daycare, he was swimming and his eardrum burst. He had the same thing happen June 08. He had surgery last December to repair it and this time, the perforation is "traumatic" and in a different spot than was origially patched. He will probably end up needing yet another ear surgery. This will be ear surgery #5 and he's only 10.
I've not been to the gym in several weeks. I've eaten very poorly and I've not been drinking my water. Okay...I said it. The scale is proof that I've not done a darn thing right as of late. It's exactly where it was 2-3 weeks ago.
Anyhoo...Star Jones was on Oprah today talking about her struggle with weight. She spoke of her WLS journey and her addition to food. She said something that really struck me. She said, "I WAS TIRED OF BEING THE GIRL WITH THE PRETTY FACE". *sigh* I've heard this all my life which in one way, is a compliment, but a backhanded one, it seems.
Star talked about how much she changed throughout her journey and that she's finally discovering who she is. I'm scared, folks. I'm scared to change. Physically, I want to change of course but what if I'm no longer "me"?
I'm probably just thinking too much but....it's what I do.
So I'm recomitting to this journey...and my band. I'm going to do whatever it takes to enjoy the journey, all while trying my best to hang on to the only "me" I've ever known.
