2 Months...

Mar 16, 2010

So, I haven't posted in over a month! I've gotten some of your e-mails wondering how I was doing, so I thought it was time to update everyone! I don't even know if anyone reads this, but for my own benefit I think it will be great to go back in a year and read and see the progress and what I was thinking about along this journey.... Maybe it's just me lol

So, Sunday made two months since my RNY. It's been great overall.  I have some jeans from high school that I can fit into again, which is wonderful! My dress pants and stuff for work are super baggy, which isn't necessarily great.  My feeling right now is that it doesn't really do me much good to have lost around 50 pounds if the clothes I'm wearing look like a potato sack... I'm not the most patient person, so being in between being able to buy new sizes and waiting until I lose enough weight is a little harder than I thought it would be.  People tell me I'm looking great and they can tell such a huge difference already... I can tell definitely because my clothes fit looser and I can see a difference in my stomach.  A lot of people say they can tell in my face.  It's nice to have the compliments, but sometimes it gets awkward or frustrating.... I don't know if it's just me or what.  Like, I don't want people to feel obligated to tell me I look good or anything.  I feel like I'm in school and showing my parents my report card or something... like everytime anyone looks at me, they are judging me... giving me their approval or something.

I don't know if any of that makes sense.  Maybe it's just my paranoia  I mean, I am so grateful that people have nice things to say, but I'm still the same person.  We can still have a conversation about something other than my weight loss.  Ya know? It's great to know that so many people are interested and "rooting" for you I guess, but .... I don't know ... it gets to be too much.  Yes, I had weight loss surgery.  The point is for me to lose a whole bunch of weight.  Thank you for noticing.  End of story.  Maybe I'm being obnoxious, idk...

ANYWAYS! I eat just about whatever I want... I don't think I'm supposed to be eating things like raw nuts or raw veggies yet, but I do.  I eat a bunch of salad, too.  Tonight I had a grilled chicken oriental salad from Applebees for dinner. I like getting a salad from there cuz I can order a "half salad".  So I ate half of the half salad and then a few hours later, I ate the other half....I work around food all the time so I have to have something to munch on and peanuts have become my new best friend! lol I eat a LOT of sushi! I love love love sushi and I just get them to make me things that don't have rice like crab naruto... or even things that do have rice, they can sometimes make it with rice paper instead.  My favorite thing is a Rock'N'Roll and this little place around the corner knows exactly what I want already when I come in lol - edamame and rock'n'roll with rice paper, no rice.  Edamame is great, too! Such a high protein snack! I stay away from carbs at all costs!! No rice, pasta, potatoes, breads.  I haven't been drinking many protein drinks at all these days, which I know is bad! I don't want my hair to fall out!! I wish there was some type of protein tablet I could take.... anyone know of anything? I just get so sick of protein powder, I need to find some new stuff to drink. It all tastes gross to me.  OH! And it's CRAWFISH season!!!! Thank heavens!! I've eaten boiled crawfish like three times in the past few weeks!! I can eat about 20 of them! KICKASS!! WOOO

Also, things make me queezy SO MUCH easier now! Like things used to not gross me out at all but now It seems like since my stomach is physically different, my mental 'stomach' has changed too! lol! Like gross smells, they kinda make my stomach flip flop... I have a feeling that in time I'll get over that because its starting to already get better...

Other than that, I've been just going to school and literally working my ass off! Three jobs will definitely keep you SUPER busy! I'm looking forward to no classes an only ONE job over the summer! I'm actually EXCITED about summer! I'll be able to buy a size in a bathing suit that I probably haven't been able to buy since jr. high lol! Work is so busy right now I haven't had a chance to start a normal routine at the gym, but starting at the very beginning of april I will have to sit down with a calendar and figure up a detailed schedule! I've been doing this 20 minute walking thing on tv every evening when I get home, it's awesome! You walk 1 mile in 20 minutes and work a ton more muscles than you would just walking around the block, it's great.

I've been avoiding scales.  I go for my 3 month follow-up on April 12th and I'll weigh then... I don't want to know what the exact number is, that's not really important to me... I wanna see pants sizes changing!

I hope everyone is doing great and had a great weekend celebrating St. Paddys Day!  I'll try to update more regularly!!

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Baton Rouge, LA
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35.4
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01/14/2010
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Nov 05, 2009
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