lisaweisenbach
One Year Surgiversary
Mar 17, 2009
WOW! I made it! I cant believe its been a year. One year ago, at this time, I was lying in my hospital bed in Puerta Vallarta, Mexico, waiting for them to come get me for surgery. I was absolutely petrified.I had conquered my fear of flying and made my way to a foreign country....now I had to get past those fears and get the life saving surgery that I desperately needed. I did it! I have no idea how I managed all of that bc basically, Ive never felt that I was a strong person, always afraid of the unknown and never took chances like that. But I made it through, despite my surgical complication.
Would I do it again? Absolutely, without a doubt.
One year and 103 lbs gone! Amazing.
Regrets? Yes! Why didnt I do it sooner? I wasted so many years of my life as an obese person. I lost so much time, not to mention my career as a Nurse (although Im hoping to rectify that someday soon).
Although I have lost 103 lbs, I regret not losing more by this time. It is my own fault, my own failures, my own food addiction...that has kept me from losing more. However, I cant be sorry with 103 lbs! I am quite proud of myself for that.
Do I always eat right? LOL... NO, unfortunately. But Im learning a balance between eating better while giving myself some indulgences now and then...thats what keeps me sane.
Ive had alot of problems this year. Ive had so much depression and have felt like giving up so many times. Im glad that I havent. I think the thing that keeps me going on is that I have lost 103 lbs.. I havent been under 300 lbs in over 10 yrs, so Im loving seeing the 200's on the scale.
Do I think I made a mistake with the VSG? NO! yes, Ive had alot of hard times, but those problems were not bc of my Sleeve, they were my own personal problems with food, etc. I started out with a BMI of 73, now its in the 50's. I still have a very long way to go and I dont know if I will ever meet my goal. But I do know that I will keep trying and that I havent felt this good since before my daughter was conceived (she's almost 11yrs now).
Ive had lots of doubts over this past year, regarding my surgery choice. But I finally reconciled those doubts and realized that it was never anything wrong with my Sleeve..it was all inside me. I kept holding myself back...I still do. Its hard to counteract 40yrs of living a certain way and eating all the wrong foods whenever I wanted. All of my past "diets" resulted in failures. That is why I chose surgery. For me, the VSG was the simplest and safest. It gave me what I needed - restriction. When I think about the amount of food that I ate pre-VSG, it sickens me. Its hard to believe I stuffed that much into my mouth. Im glad I cant eat that much now. Although I can eat quite a bit, it doesnt compare to the pre-VSG amount.
I am very thankfull for my Sleeve. It gave me back my life. I love being able to do things with my family again. I love buying smaller clothes. I have even been able to buy a few things "off the rack"....instead of catalog/internet ordering.
I have my good days and bad days......but overall, Im happy with how things are now...and how things are still changing.
Thank you Dr. Joya, for my Sleeve!
and thanks to all my awesome friends here on OH. I couldnt have made it without all of you.
I love you all!
love 'n hugs
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About Me
Jonesboro, AR
Location
63.5
BMI
Surgery
03/17/2008
Surgery Date
Surgeon
Feb 15, 2005
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