lisaweisenbach
17 month Update
Sep 03, 2009
It's been awhile since I posted an update or really participated here on OH. It's been 17 1/2 months since the day of my surgery. My total loss is 111 lbs, but I'm not there right now. Over the past many months, I have lost/gained the same 5-8 lbs. over and over. I even came close to reaching the 300 lbs again. I was devastated and so ashamed.Before my surgery and for awhile afterward, I would hear of post-ops re-gaining their weight or at least gaining back some, etc... I never could understand that until now. It's really quite easy, physically speaking. Also, depending on what is going on in your personal life, that can be a big hindrance too. I have so much stress and worries in my life that I find myself eating more. I've never really been a true emotional eater - I eat out of boredom and cravings, regardless of my mood. When I'm depressed, I usually retreat within myself instead of eating.
I have plenty of options to counteract my boredom - however, my physical body just doesn't cooperate, at least not lately. Some days, I feel so bad that it's really difficult to get up. I have so many headaches and nerve and muscle pain. My doctor hasn't found a physical cause for this, which leads back to my stress and worries.
I guess it sounds like I'm making excuses and I guess I am, although these happen to be legit for a change.
Excercise - I've always hated to excercise...not going to lie about that. Do I make myself do it? Lately, no. With the headaches that are with me almost 24/7, the best I can do is my daily things. That's not to say that I don't get excercise at all. I do walk my dog out in my yard, I do my shopping, and I've been on a huge cleaning spree in my home. But as far as getting outside and walking around the block....nope. Going to the Gym... I haven't done that in awhile either....again because of my headaches. I've tried working through that pain and doing things, but they get worse. I've been putting off seeing a specialist, but it has gotten to the point that I can't do that anymore...so I will have to update on that later.
Medication update - I no longer take any High Blood Pressure meds - YAY!. The only meds that I take are for my Diabetes and Neuropathy, plus my Multivitamins and Iron supplements. Even my Diabetic meds have been cut down to only once/day for each one. I take so little, it's hard to remember to take them.
Food Intake - I don't measure out my food, I don't track it in a journal, etc. However, I do read labels and I watch what I put in my mouth all the time - even if it's that chocolate bar that I've been craving.... *sigh* My intake is nothing compared to pre-VSG, thankfully. To give a sample of what I can eat at one time - Mcdonalds double cheeseburger with a couple of fries - and I'm comfortably full (as long as that was a totally empty stomach - like the first meal of the day). Some days, I can eat more of the fries, other days, I can't finish the whole burger. Ok, I don't eat this often - it's just an example - since I don't actually weigh out anything, etc..
Appetite and Cravings - I have these in a major way. I get hungry, even when I shouldn't be yet. I have horrible cravings - mostly for chocolate. I keep almonds and Southbeach Diet protein bars (chocolate of course) around all the time. I limit the protein bars to once/day - but I don't have one every day. When the cravings get really bad, I indulge. I buy those Hershey's kisses or the bite-size chocolate bars - to give me that chocolate, but in a small dose. It makes me happy and it's much better than eating the whole super-size chocolate bars (I can do that, by the way *sigh*). My VSG never really helped my appetite. Sure, I would fill up faster - still do...but I have always had my hunger and appetite, unlike some people who have to make themselve eat (I hate you. LOL, not really, but I do envy you).
I guess that is everything I can think of to say at this point. I am struggling, but I'm still in the game - the game of life. I have too many depending on me to quit - most of all myself. I came to conclusion a long time ago - I have to do this for me - not others. Otherwise, it just will not work.
Please keep me in your prayers..
Lisa
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About Me
Jonesboro, AR
Location
63.5
BMI
Surgery
03/17/2008
Surgery Date
Surgeon
Feb 15, 2005
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