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October 26th at 12:30.  This will be the day that everything changes....

You can find my blog at www.fight4yourlifeonline.org.  I'll chart my progress there, but you'll find even more than that.

I was told that I could have my surgery a month out from my first appointment. It's not quite happening that way...so I'm still waiting. Thanks for all of the congrats and well wishes...but I'm still waiting. I'll be sure to keep you posted.

I'm really frustrated about it, too. I was hoping today would be my last weigh-in.  The doctor won't be back in the office until Thursday and I have to go in for another weigh-in on Wednesday. Oh well...I guess it's better safe than sorry. I'm stuck at 21lbs lost in three weeks. I'm retaining water because of my womanly and I just don't need this right now. JEEESH!!!

Talk about frustrated. But all things happen for a reason. I'll be ok. Everything will be ok. I will get this weight off at some point!

I'm getting closer! I lost 8 more lbs this week. That's 21 total lbs in two weeks! My dietician wants me to shoot for 50, but I've pretty much hit my surgeon's goal. I'm still pushin', though. I have one more weigh in and I'll be set. I'm so grateful to God for strength and more energy!

I'm getting more and more excited each day, but it's really strange. The people I expected to be there for me don't seem really happy. I need to post about this.

I love this site. It's really like my therapy.

I'm praising God for a new outlook. I'm not looking back anymore. I'm pressing forward.

As I stated in a previous post, I have been trying to have weight loss surgery for many years. My company will not pay.  I spent a lot of time being bitter about this, but I let it go and just determined that I would have to do the work on my own without any help. 

A lady from my church is having the VGS (Vertical Gastric Sleeve) surgery on 9/28, She said God put it on her heart to pay for my surgery, too. Yes, you read it right.  God is still working miracles.  How does this happen?

She told me I could take as long as I needed to pay her back. I am still speechless. I check in with her every couple of days to let her know what my progress is with my appointments. I'm so excited at the prospect of having a new life.

My nutritionist put me on a 1200 calorie/day diet and I'm doing well. I've lost 13lbs since last Thursday. My husband and I laughed after I left my appointment because the nutritionist had me weigh twice because he couldn't believe I'd lost so much so quickly. God is good to me. I am so very blessed. Everything in my life is not perfect, but I am remaining positive and looking to the hills where my help comes from.

I've had my metabolic panel and blood count done. My cardiologist has given me clearance. I'm on my pre-op diet, I have my psych eval scheduled for next week, I did my exercise physiology consult yesterday, and I just have to meet officially with the nutritionist to get my pre-op/post op eating plan.

I pray that things go smoothly. I'm sure they will. I'm trusting God for the best.

Everyday, I realize that I know less and less about what I'm doing. I've recently gotten married and now realize that I don't even know who I am, what I want, what I will accept, what I will take, and what I want to do. I don't love myself and it seems like I'm just surviving. I'm know that God is strengthening me everyday and that He will guide and direct me in my relationship with myself and with my new husband. He truly is the love of my life and I know things will be ok.

My name is Angel.  I've been overweight all of my life. I've always been the biggest girl, the fattest girl, the most developed girl and frankly, it has sucked.  I was praying the other day and asking God why I had to be so different.  I'm sure I'm not the first person to think this, especially in this obesity-phobic world.  Why do I have the genes that make me larger? Why am I predisposed to be bigger than everyone. I just don't get it. How did I draw this straw? Is this just my lot in life?

I've been wanting to have weight loss surgery for years. I've been denied repeatedly by my insurance company/job and I've struggled with feeling jilted by a company that I've essentially given my life to.  That hurts and I'm afraid that at some point, it factored into my job performance and the way I treat the people I serve. I've never admitted that before.

At any rate, I've struggled with my health and with trying to get some way to help with paying for the surgery.  A couple of weeks ago, the strangest thing happened.

I'll have to tell you about it in future posts.

Thanks.