lizoneil06
My story is very familiar to the ones I have read so I feel very comfortable sharing it. I am 35 years old and I have always had to watch my weight. I played sports in high school...I think which saved me for a while. I was voted most athletic female in elementary school and always excelled....not so much on the scholastic side though!!!I went to college on a full athletic scholarship and my junior year made a dramatic change in my life and entered into Chiropractic College. Needless to say, that was the longest journey in my entire life! I overcame many challenges of not feeling smart enough and put down my softball glove and picked up the books. After 8 years of college, here I am....in the holistic field, a Chiropractic Physician!!! I am so lucky to be doing what I was meant to do and that is to help people. I am not in it for the $$, I'm starting out small and its been a long road, but I am HOME. I lost my best friend, my Mom, in 1998 to cancer. She was the best mom, but I know she is proud of my accomplishments so far;> My beautiful daughter was born 10 months later. I had gained ALOT of weight after my mom died, emotionally I was a wreck. My marriage fell apart, and I lived as a single Mom for 4 years. One night in 2004, after a "date" with myself (saw Passion Of Christ") I sat in my car and cried. I prayed to God..."I am ready for him to come into my life now, finally." And on March 26th, the very next day, Tim came into my life. We were married on March 11th of 2006 and I have 2 beautiful step kids too.
SO, now that you know the most important things in my life, I will continue this book..... I am fat. I am fat. I am FAT. For so long, I didn't want to believe it myself. For the past 7 years, I only look in the mirror to put make up on.....never to look at my body. "Who is that fat woman in the mirror"? AAAYEAH, that's me? That's ME.
EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE, family, career, love, have come full circle. EXCEPT the love for myself. I DO love myself, that is why I am here. And you do too....we wouldn't be here if we didn't care about our health. I am ashamed that I have "let go" of myself. I am a health care practitioner and we are supposed to be in control...I seem to be at work, but inside I find myself waiting for the next few months to be going to Mexico to get MY band. I have the support of my husband, who loves ME for ME, I am so lucky to have him and my kids in my life. This one thing, is going to complete me. I miss feeling beautiful. I remember looking in the mirror and feeling so good about myself, and that was at 150. My goal, 125. that is MY goal. I have set many goals, and have met them... This is the ultimate goal. I feel cursed to have my paternal genes, (my mom had 2 sets of twins and weighed about 98 pounds) I remember looking at my grandma...and saying, I will never let myself get that way!!! And here I am. I know my daughter looks at me like that, even though she does call me beautiful! (she's my angel).
Since I have outrageous school loans and being self employed, I am headed to Mexico!!!!!
Liz
