lizoneil06

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Went in for a slight unfill....a couple drops.....that was only a few days after my last fill.  Then on March 26th my little girl had to go in for a tonsillectomy.  I was TOTALLY stressed.  Anyways that was on a Wednesday.  On Thursday morning I took a sip of water....it all came back up.  Then I tried throughout the day to get a few drops in..to no avail. So I quit trying and called the doc's. They couldn't get me in till the next day. 9:30 am, I was there, told the doc my story and he sent me for an upper GI......I went directly there.  What do ya know? The barium slipped right through, in all positions, but I must say, it was the first time I got to see my bandie.  I have to admit, for a while there I didn't believe she was there....but I am actually banded. 

So, as I was out running a few errands with my daughter, I took a sip of her fruit punch........it all came up.  Went to the mall, threw up 4 times....there wasnt much coming out, just clear liquids. I was confused, what the hell am I puking? 

I drove straight to the docs.  i didn't feel right and had this huge headache.  Waiting for an hour for him, I must have went to the bathroom to puke about 5 more times, I just couldn't stop.  He finally got there and asked me what I was "gurling" on...I said, I have no idea b/c I haven't eaten anything in over 24 hours.  I told him I was puking....then when he got me on the table and put my head in a decline, my tummy was making all sorts of noises...he said"That's it, we are doing a total unfill, you are getting stuck on your own saliva"...at that point I didn't care, i just wanted to swallow....must I say instant relief.

So, here I am, with an empty band. I can eat anything and hardly ever feel full.  I am really starting to doubt this band.  When I am filled, I have I have a hard time getting food down anyways.  I stop eating mostly out of frustration.  I feel so alone in this, especially reading most posts on how some people are upset or pissed they only lost 5 lbs in a month.  I have lost 26 in a year.  I am very discouraged. 

Well, I go back in on May 2nd....one day short of my bandiversary.  I am so upset.

I don't understand this.  I am going for another fill on Feb 22.  My band is working....I can feel the restriction.  There are days I cannot eat a thing before 5 pm....I don't think this is a good thing!.....but overall, I don't eat much at all.  When I do eat I do eat my protein, no more junk.  I have no longer use sugar in my coffee(Ughh)..I use my splenda..which I know I will get used to. 

I have been totally stressed out.  I go to my practice and see my patients then I am taking 2 classes and in fall I am going to school once again full time.  I have come to a decision, along with my husband to pursuit my dream of getting my BSN...it will only take my 4 semesters, thank God my credits transferred!  So, with all the stress, maybe it is due to that that my band doesn't open up until after 5.  I don't know.  I am trying to get exercise in...its been hard this year.  Last week we got 9 inches of snow!  Every day I have been drinking my water, that part has been easy.

I can't wait to go to the doc's to see what he has to say.  I think as far asPBing....I have been doing much better, chew, chew, chew!  I am down only 26 pounds...I have been banded since May2007.

Gosh, I can't believe its been 4 months since I have been banded.  I haven't had any physical problems since surgery.  I still do not regret it!  I have been losing slowly....the first fill was in June, not much of a difference.  restriction was little to none.  2nd fill, in July....not much either, still able to get breads and pastas down.  Then in August.....it happened.....RESTRICTION!!!!!!!! Finally!!!! I can get toast down but not regular soft bread.  Pastas though,,,,,,well,,,,,,,,goes down pretty well with butter.  So, the way I look at it, I started this journey at 226lbs...now I am down to 209.  3 more pounds it will be an even 20.  I can feel the difference in my shirts.  I had surprised myself. My twin sister who has been smaller then me since 1997, and who is now pregnant, left her size 16 pants at my house....so I took them and wanted to see how much further I would have to go....I have been wearing 18's to 22's since 1998.  Not only did this awesome kacky jeans fit......they were comfy!!!! I was amazed.  So the way i look at this, yes, this is a slow process but..........I can honestly say, i will never be 226 ever again in my life.  I love my band....she is changing my life.  I am changing my life.  So anyone reading this, if you are contemplating to get banded, do it.  It is life changing yet it will be better then where you are today if you are obese.