Devilish Lori
Hard Times
Sep 17, 2010
It's been two weeks since I buried my husband. In that time I have found myself starting to say something to him only to realize he's not there anymore. I often look at the couch and think I see his form sitting there. My marriage was over a long time ago as far as the context of a marriage goes, but I still loved him as a friend. He was my best friend. We spent 25 years together with a lot of bad times and a lot of good times. I knew this was coming with his illness but I am having a real hard time dealing with the loss. I never thought in a million years that it would be this hard. I'm trying my best to stay strong for the boys and to take care of them and myself. I find myself wanting to drown my sorrows in a bottle quite often and I know that is not the answer. But it does help ease the pain for a short period of time. The emotions I am going thru sky rocket from helplessness to lonelyness to feelings of guilt to just plain pain. I'm sorry if I am not too talkative these days, please understand it is not you people, it's me dealing with all this. I am truely greatful to each and everyone that I have met here that has given me support and words of comfort.
4 Comments
About Me
White Cloud, MI
Location
42.8
BMI
Surgery
10/13/2009
Surgery Date
Apr 27, 2010
Member Since
