Franco S.
And I will fix you...
May 25, 2011
I am going to get my lapband vbg cahnaged over to a bypass because the first time I did this 12 years ago was soooo much fun. I have to do three months of weight management at Penn with my insurance so I am just starting that and trying to figure out how to start loosing some weight in the mean time. It's all coming back to me.
Rock bottom is a lot different this time than the first time. But I am uncomfrotable sitting down in chairs now, anxiety comes over me wondering if there is going to be anywhere for me to sit when I go to the movies or anywhere else. It's time to take control again. I let my life spin away from me and it's time to reel it back in.
I've already had an upper gi, chest xray.... the psych evaluation is scheduled.. the 2 nights of sleep apnea is scheduled.
I want to fit in something other than a truck. God how did things spin so far out of control again.
Deep breaths.
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Rock bottom is a lot different this time than the first time. But I am uncomfrotable sitting down in chairs now, anxiety comes over me wondering if there is going to be anywhere for me to sit when I go to the movies or anywhere else. It's time to take control again. I let my life spin away from me and it's time to reel it back in.
I've already had an upper gi, chest xray.... the psych evaluation is scheduled.. the 2 nights of sleep apnea is scheduled.
I want to fit in something other than a truck. God how did things spin so far out of control again.
Deep breaths.
How things have changed....
May 24, 2011
I was one of the first big weight droppers on this site in the late 90's, early 2000's.. then surgery was more and more popular and I just fizzed away quietly after talking and helping over 100 people through their surgeries. I had my angels and I was an angel to many. I don't know why I logged off for good. I think I just felt my job was done. I don't know.
Here I am almost 12 years after my surgery. I am looking into getting a revision. I was banded in 1999. It worked. I didn't. I just didnt change my life enough. My hip was falling a part, then I got hurt and broke my foot and I could never get my fitness going. I just really screwed myself. I had a pretty tramatic thing happen to me and then for the past 3/4 years lived in a cloud of depression. I didn't gorge on food, I just didn't make wise choices.
Now what... where do I go from here. I don't want people to know that I've failed. I was 550 when I was operated. I made it to 280. Stayed there for almost 2-3 years and now.. I am 390 and scared shitless.
This site has changed so much that I don't even know what to do to get a decent profile together.
Aetna forces you to do three months of weight management. so mine kicks in across the summer. I already had my upper GI and chest xray this week. So here we go.
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Here I am almost 12 years after my surgery. I am looking into getting a revision. I was banded in 1999. It worked. I didn't. I just didnt change my life enough. My hip was falling a part, then I got hurt and broke my foot and I could never get my fitness going. I just really screwed myself. I had a pretty tramatic thing happen to me and then for the past 3/4 years lived in a cloud of depression. I didn't gorge on food, I just didn't make wise choices.
Now what... where do I go from here. I don't want people to know that I've failed. I was 550 when I was operated. I made it to 280. Stayed there for almost 2-3 years and now.. I am 390 and scared shitless.
This site has changed so much that I don't even know what to do to get a decent profile together.
Aetna forces you to do three months of weight management. so mine kicks in across the summer. I already had my upper GI and chest xray this week. So here we go.
