How things have changed....

May 24, 2011

I was one of the first big weight droppers on this site in the late 90's, early 2000's..  then surgery was more and more popular and I just fizzed away quietly after talking and helping over 100 people through their surgeries.  I had my angels and I was an angel to many.  I don't know why I logged off for good.  I think I just felt my job was done.  I don't know.

Here I am almost 12 years after my surgery.  I am looking into getting a revision.  I was banded in 1999.  It worked. I didn't.  I just didnt change my life enough.  My hip was falling a part, then I got hurt and broke my foot and I could never get my fitness going.  I just really screwed myself.  I had a pretty tramatic thing happen to me and then for the past 3/4 years lived in a cloud of depression.  I didn't gorge on food, I just didn't make wise choices. 

Now what...  where do I go from here.  I don't want people to know that I've failed.   I was 550 when I was operated.  I made it to 280.  Stayed there for almost 2-3 years and now..  I am 390 and scared shitless. 

This site has changed so much that I don't even know what to do to get a decent profile together.

Aetna forces you to do three months of weight management. so mine kicks in across the summer.  I already had my upper GI and chest xray this week.  So here we go. 

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