Lisa F.

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Well, this weight loss thing has been awesome for me.  I am officially wearing clothing size 10/12, which if you told me that a year ago I would have said you were absolutely crazy.  I have met a wonderful, supportive man and things are really looking up.  Although I am still unemployed, I have enrolled and been accepted into nursing school starting the end of August so I am looking forward to that.  I'm at about 190 lbs right now, about 20-25 more lbs to go and I'll be at goal!

Well, this weight loss thing can really be tricky.  It's been almost a year since my gastric bypass and although I am 119lbs lighter I still feel like that same overweight woman.  I look in the mirror and don't see the difference, I can feel the difference in my clothing so I know I am losing weight, down from a size 24 to a 14 but it is still hard to see it.  People who haven't seen me in a while comment on how good I look and how much weight I have lost and it's hard to accept compliments still.  I have only been to 1 support group meeting and I know going would help with the battle of emotions that I have.  I have recently moved and things are pretty hectic but I am getting back to the swing of things slowly.  I haven't been exercising but that is going to change, I have pledged to get back in gear and get this weight loss thing back in motion and hopefully lose another 30lbs to reach my goal weight of 160-165!

Well it's October 1st and things were going great, until last week that is.  I lost my job AGAIN!  I don't know what to do right now, I am at my wits end!  I am making bad choices when it comes to eating, I am drinking regular soda which I know is a no no but I still do it.  I have lost 100 lbs which is great but it could be so much more if I would just be more dedicated to this weight loss.  I am depressed severely and I know that adds to the mindless eating that I do daily.  I have been throught alot lately, more than I care to mention and I only hope things will get better.

Well, things are going great.  I am down 88 lbs as of today.  I still look at myself in the mirror and see the overweight 312lb. Lisa, even though I am 224lbs.  I can't see the weight loss, even though everyone else can and its evident in my clothes. 

I just started drinking alcohol again and it's been a wild experience.  I had 1/2 bottle of Smirnoff Ice the other night at the Orioles game and was totally drunk.  I couldn't walk, I was laughing, slurring my words, and almost fell when I tried to walk.  I couldn't believe that 1/2 bottle could do that.  Before surgery I could have 4 or 5 and not feel a thing. 

Food sometimes is an obstacle for me.  Anything that is sweet makes me sick to my stomach for hours.  I tried a milkshake the other day with sugar free vanilla ice cream and skim milk and I was sick after a few sips.  It was just too sweet for me.  I have started eating bread after a 6 month hiatus without it, it makes me so full so fast that I don't feel like eating anything else.  I stick to soups when I am not feeling well and they seem to be good to me. 

Everyday is a journey, I feel like I can eat more than I was able to, but I am scared that I might stretch my stomach, so I am trying to be very careful and mindful of my eating.  1 day at a time!

I am 22 weeks post op and down 80 lbs so far.  I have not been exercising at all so I know I could be down even more than that if I get my butt in gear.  I really have no excuses not to work out, I have a gym at work, free of charge to me, a dog that needs walking and a very active 11 year old son.  I have joined a summer softball team, but haven't been to any games as of yet because of my work schedule.  I am happy that I have lost 80 lbs., it has been a struggle and at times I have fallen off the band wagon but I am working hard everyday to make conscious decisions about my eating and my lifestyle.  I realized early on that this is not an easy journey and I have made many new friends along the way that have been supportive and I have lost many friends along the way who haven't been supportive, which makes me realize that they weren't really friends to begin with.  I am working hard, everyday and feeling even better every day!  Thank god for RNY!

It's been really hard for me lately.  Unfortunately I lost my job and I have too much time on my hands.  When I was working I could plan my meals, only eat what I brought to work and make better decisions.  Now that I am home full time I am doing the mindless eating thing!  I need to get a hobby, I am so bored that I seem to think about food so much, since there isn't anything else to do.  I am down 65lbs and have been incorporating exercise into my daily routine more since the weather is nicer I have been spending more time outside.  Maybe it's just a phase I am going through, I am depressed about losing my job and I turn to food to comfort me, just like I did before RNY.  Hopefully things will get better, maybe I need to go and see a therapist again, to get a tune-up, so to speak.  I'll let you know how it goes!

I am 12 weeks out soon and I am feeling great, 10 weeks ago I would have never believed anyone if they told me I would be feeling great!  I am down almost 55 lbs, but when I look at myself in the mirror I still see the same old 312 lb me.  It's hard to understand.  The weather is getting nicer so I'll be able to be more active outside and enjoy things more.  I am working on the eating aspect of things, trying new foods and really concentrating when I eat, no more mindless eating for me.  I do have my 1st date since my surgery,  we are going out to dinner so I am trying to decide what to eat during the date.  I don't want to tell him about my decision to have this surgery, it's just too soon and it's only the 1st date for pete's sake.  I have alot going on right now, in between jobs, trying to put my house up for sale and relocating.  Things are hectic but I can finally say that I am glad that I decided to have this surgery, right after surgery it was a different story!

I am 8 weeks out and now feeling more like a normal person!  Trial and error with food still but I am trying to incorporate more nutritious things in daily.  I am trying my hardest to get my exercise in, parking further away from work so that I have to walk, and just doing more things and being more active now that the weather is nicer outside.  I was worried for awhile, wondering what the hell I have done to myself by deciding to have this surgery, but daily I am feeling a little more that it is all worth it.  I am down 46 lbs. so far so I know that RNY has worked for me.  I love being on the losers bench!

4 days post op.  I still have the gas pains on my left side, walking yesterday and today hasn't done much to aleviate it but I know it is beneficial so I will be keeping at it.  Taking deep breaths is almost unbearable, damn it hurts!  I haven't been eating, no appetite at all.  I haven't been getting my protein and that concerns me tremendously.  I don't eat anything, I drink decaf tea, water, crystal light but have no desire to eat anything at all.  I did make a protein shake earlier but I haven't eaten any of it so I froze it for tomorrow, hopefully it will be a better day.  My stomach is rumbling tremendously, the gas hurts and that is all that I wish is for the gas to go away!  I have 1 friend who has been awesome through all of this, supportive, taking care of me, checking on me, and going out of her way to do for me, I couldn't do it without her just a listening ear is so helpful right now.  It's been a long day and a longer journey ahead but I'll get there eventually.

I am 2 days post op and I honestly feel horrible.  Breathing in gives me a sharp pain behind my left ear that shoots down to my left shoulder and also is in my left side right under my breast.  I got home last night, 1 day after surgery, at around 9 p.m.  I vomited from 1 a.m. today until 6 a.m. and I am unable to keep any pain medicine or nausea medication down.  I am sick to my stomach.   I realize that this is the beginning of a better life for me and my family and that is what is motivating me, knowing that this is temporary and will pass.  I have gas pain and nothing seems to help it, I have been taking GAS-X but doesn't seem to help.  Sleep is almost non existent,  I didn't feel like this in the hospital, I actually felt good and couldn't believe how well I felt but ever since I've been home it's been a downhill battle, I am only praying that things will get better.