Monday December 26, 2011

Dec 26, 2011

Monday December 26, 2011 Words cannot explain everything that is going through my head right now. We spent less than $100 on Christmas this year for the kids and did not get anything for ourselves. Now, I can say that is was one of the best Christmases I have had. Friends (that we now consider family) invited us over for dinner and it was not a big deal that I had limited food choices. There were HUGE brown and serve rolls and I passed on them (I couldn’t believe I didn’t even touch them). I actually had time to enjoy the company I was with. I also spoke to my grandmother for a while Christmas Day. She helped me realize something that my husband had been telling me; to STOP spending so much time on the websites for weight loss. Now, I really love the sites I am on and appreciate the tips and information. On the other hand I am reading horror stories and other items that are making me doubt my decision. A few days ago I found myself looking into a revision for a Duodenal Switch. When I decided on the VSG I was committed to it 100% and was going to be one of the ones who got to their goal with just one surgery! I see that I am losing the pizazz I once had. So I have decided to limit my time on these sites and only post and comment once a week. Deep down I know that it is what’s best for me. The other day I read a post where the author stated that you have to be militant to be successful with weight loss with bariatric surgery. That post really struck home for me. I realized that I am not doing everything I could be doing in order to be successful at this. So now I am refocused and know what I need to. It is funny that I am going through all of these emotions and I am only 26 days Post-Op. Bariatric Surgery really takes a toll on you; I see that now. I felt like I was pretty prepared for this but I’m still thrown curve balls and know that there are many more to come. But I will keep on swinging. I have started tracking my measurements so I have another way of measuring my success and I am also going to start tracking my percentages of weight loss not just pounds. I know I can do this! Yes I Can!

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