Let me tell you about the benefits of journaling...
Apr 09, 2009OMG, I was in shock this morning when I got on the scales. This is the 3rd week in a row that I've lost weight. I now weigh less than I did at any point in high school!!!!!! I had nearly stalled out, or so I thought. I was so affraid that I was done losing. Couldn't stand that idea, though. So thought I'd start journaling my foods just to see what I was doing, right or wrong. Well, turns out on some days I was getting over the recommended (for me anyway) 1400 calories a day (usually from eating too many nuts!) & on some days not nearly enough. So I've made a stong effort to keep my calorie intake between 1200-1400 per day & boy is it working!!! I did find out that I'm consuming actually more protein than I need to, but I'm not changing that. Everything seems to be working just the way it is, for now anyway. And I figured out that trying to track everything like calories, fat, carbs, sugars, protein & fiber was just too much of a hassle for me. So I've pared it down to just tracking calories & protein. This I can live with, happily I might add!!!!
I'm still loving the gym. What a weird concept. Yesterday I had the best workout ever, as far as how I felt. I did an hour on the elliptical machine, almost the whole circuit of weight machines, plus my stretching routine. It was exhillarating. I never thought this day would come. But I'm glad it has & I hope I stay this motivated. Maybe at some point in the future these words I'm recording here will serve to keep me inspired.
As the 1-year anniversary of my surgery approaches I've been doing a lot of soul-searching & self-examination. I'm looking back at my life to date & trying to figure out some of the mistakes I made along the way & some of the triumphs, too. Maybe this process is also because I'm turning 50 later this year. Not sure who or what I'm supposed to be right now, or when I "grow up". But I am sure of one thing - that I'm happier than I have ever been in my life & that I can handle whatever may come my way (ok, I know that's 2 things!) This past year has brought me so many changes, most of which I did not anticipate, from this transformation. I feel like I'm rediscovering who I am, and that my real self has been lost for a very, very long time. And guess what, down deep inside there's still this great, fun-loving, happy person. And I plan to let her shine brightly from now on. I plan to live out loud from now on!!!!
Feb 12, 2008