Let me tell you about the benefits of journaling...

Apr 09, 2009

OMG, I was in shock this morning when I got on the scales.  This is the 3rd week in a row that I've lost weight.  I now weigh less than I did at any point in high school!!!!!!   I had nearly stalled out, or so I thought.  I was so affraid that I was done losing.  Couldn't stand that idea, though.  So thought I'd start journaling my foods just to see what I was doing, right or wrong.  Well, turns out on some days I was getting over the recommended (for me anyway) 1400 calories a day (usually from eating too many nuts!) & on some days not nearly enough.  So I've made a stong effort to keep my calorie intake between 1200-1400 per day & boy is it working!!!  I did find out that I'm consuming actually more protein than I need to, but I'm not changing that.  Everything seems to be working just the way it is, for now anyway.  And I figured out that trying to track everything like calories, fat, carbs, sugars, protein & fiber was just too much of a hassle for me.  So I've pared it down to just tracking calories & protein.  This I can live with, happily I might add!!!!

I'm still loving the gym.  What a weird concept.  Yesterday I had the best workout ever, as far as how I felt.  I did an hour on the elliptical machine, almost the whole circuit of weight machines, plus my stretching routine.  It was exhillarating.  I never thought this day would come.  But I'm glad it has & I hope I stay this motivated.  Maybe at some point in the future these words I'm recording here will serve to keep me inspired.

As the 1-year anniversary of my surgery approaches I've been doing a lot of soul-searching & self-examination.  I'm looking back at my life to date & trying to figure out some of the mistakes I made along the way & some of the triumphs, too.  Maybe this process is also because I'm turning 50 later this year.  Not sure who or what I'm supposed to be right now, or when I "grow up".  But I am sure of one thing - that I'm happier than I have ever been in my life & that I can handle whatever may come my way (ok, I know that's 2 things!)  This past year has brought me so many changes, most of which I did not anticipate, from this transformation.  I feel like I'm rediscovering who I am, and that my real self has been lost for a very, very long time.  And guess what, down deep inside there's still this great, fun-loving, happy person.   And I plan to let her shine brightly from now on.  I plan to live out loud from now on!!!!

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