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My name is Teodora Ramirez, I am 27 years old and heve been married for 8 yrs. I have a 4 yr.old little boy who means the world to me. He is my heart and soul and the thought of not being here tommorrow, kills me. I have been battleing obesity pretty much all my life.The very first time that it dawned on me was when I was in elementary and some of the kids would call me fat girl and that I did not fit in some of the desks. My mom and dad would tell me not to eat so much but instead, I would get mad and just eat more. I just remember thinking that they would tell me that stuff because they were embarrassed. Now, 16 yrs later, I know they would only do it to spare me the pain I am now in.
I met my husband when I was 14, and I instanly fell in love with him. Although I knew that he would never see me that way, cause again I was fat and ugly. Needless to say, he did like me, but I was way too shy and nerveous because I did not think I deserved to be happy, again because I was fat. We instanly became very good friends, and a couple years later we became a couple.
Of course my weight was always and will always be a problem in our relationship. He loves me and says he does not care, but I do. I always feel so self concious about what I am wearing and the way people look at me. I am constantly feeling like he is gonna cheat on me, and I hate to see a skinny person looking at him.
Because of my weight, I had a really hard time conceiving. I was told by many doctors that I would never be a mother. It was the worse feeling to know how much I wanted children and I would never have one. Well, after extensive hormone treatment and fertility drugs, I had Chito. Now, I am having the same problem but this time, because of my weight, I am not able to concieve.
I used to be a hairdressr but had to qiuit due to my weight. The long hours of standing up and doing hair, took a terrible toll on my feet and ankles. I guess to much weight to put on my ankles. I have now gone back to hairdressing but it is still an obatacle every day.
The hardest part of all this is that I want to be able to play with my 4 yr old like most mommy's do and for him to be proud of me. I want to live to see him graduate, go to collage, get marreid and have children. I want to be there for him forever. I love him and my husband so much.
Now I am hoping to have Weight Loss Surgery and hope that everything turns out ok.
