renee K.

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I have to share a NSV with yall and i want to be a cheerleader for anyone who is struggling with areas of their lives.

This weekend I was at Myrtle Beach with my church fall ladies conference. We were at the Breakers Resort having a beautiful 3 day weekend. Well it was the last day of the conference and everyone seemed to be trying to use the elevator at the same time so it was SOOOOOOO SLOWWWWWWWWW!!!!! So one of my tiny peppy friends suggested we take the stairs, i was sitting and comfy and just laughed and said nahhhhhhh that aint happening! So about a minute later Ginny (my tiny peppy little friend) suggested again in her peppy high school cheerleader voice COME ON YALL LETS TAKE THE STAIRS!! I reminded her were were in the lobby and the meeting room is on the 15th floor yes you read right it is on the 15th floor............She said (again in her tiny peppy high school cheerleader on helium voice) I know---come on Mrs. Renee WE CAN DO THIS I MISSED MY ZUMBA CLASS THIS WEEKEND i need to get some exercize!!!

Soooooooooooooooo i said Oh ok, we might as well or we will never get there. Being the eldest of our little group i gave in and said if im gona talk the talk i gotta walk the walk. so off we went, tromping up the stairs that went practically STRAIGHT UP. Ginny was humming some crazy sound that was supposed to be zumba music then when i yelled "MY LUNGS ARE ON FIRE" while i was laughing uncontrollably, she started humming very loudly the ROCKY theme, which made me laugh even harder. Every flight closer she would yell (in her tiny, peppy, high school cheerleader on helium and a case of monster energy drinks voice) 5 MORE FLOORS, 4 MORE FLOORS, 3 MORE FLOORS....UNTIL WE BUSTED THROUGH THE DOORS ON THE 15TH FLOOR INTO A ROOM FULL OF ABOUT 75 WOMEN WITH OUR HANDS RAISED, CHEERING AND CLAPPING AND SWEATING AND GINNY WAS STILL CHEERING US ON!!

I have no desire to be skinny!  I have no desire to wear a size 1 or 3 or 5 or even a 7, dont want to be a 9 or a 10.  I dont even want to worry about a number, however numbers are such a huge part of society i have no choice. So when i get where I wanna be i guess that will be the "size" i will wear.  I am not identified by a number on a scale or a tag inside a pair of jeans, i am not identified by how much weight i have lost or gained, I am identified by my character, it stands alone!

I want to be healthy, i want to be fit, I dont have to be what someone else is to be healthy.  I can jog, i can walk, i can work out on the eliptical for an hour and a good incline!  I can swim laps, i can lift weights, I can fit in a tube in the lazy river with my grand daughter snoozing peacefully on my shoulder, I can get on the floor and play with my grands, i can walk the dog, i can chase the dog lol, I can do crunches, i can walk up and down steps, i can start my day without a ton of meds, I can wear pretty clothes, I can stand for the WHOLE time we do praise and worship at church without needing to sit coz my legs hurt, I can walk in the sand at the beach for miles if i want to, i can climb the steps of the lighthouse, i can walk holding my head HIGH because i am content with who I am!!  I absolutly LOVE my life and would not change a thing!

No im NOT a size 0 or a 1 or a 3 or a 5--i am not saying thats a bad thing at all Im just saying its not for me and I dont feel bad about that in the least!

Just my thoughts for the day-i guess i was feeling deep!

its been great out living and loving life!!
So far since April I have been on another cruise, been to the water park TWO times, Seen my new grand daughter in her 3d sonogram!!! Had 4 widsom teeth cut out (got the good gas!!) sprained my knee,  worked/catered an all day rugby tournament, God answered prayers for my youngest son landing the best job so far (at a nuclear power plant!!) organized and actually carried out a suprize luau birthday party for my husbands birthday, rode in a pedicab through town in Savannah,  walked for miles on River street and in the squares,  spent a week in Savannah/Tybee at the beach, had my laptop hit by lightning had to buy a new one, my grand daughter turned 4 and started pre K today, my youngesst daughter was told that her cancer HAS NOT come back--GREAT news!!
Just hanging out-ready to get back to the gym SOON!!
thats enough for now!  more later!  Either way life is GREAT and I STILL LOVE MY BAND!!

Man I took the day off yesterday and went to the water park,  it was so awesome!  I never ran out of energy, I ran in the water with London, I laid in the sun and tanned, I skipped up and down the stairs from one pool to the other, I FIT IN THE TUBE IN THE LAZY RIVER!!!!!!!!  AND floated very cery comfortably around for quite a long time, I got in and out of the tube with great ease!!!  it was totaly amazing!  Thank you God and Dr. Blaney for giving my life back to me.  I didnt realize what I had been missing!!!!!!!!!!!!  Now that I do, I am NEVER going back!!

__,_.I have to say I have NEVER felt so good as I did this past Saturday!  It was amazing to go into a store and look at things and say “oh that’s soooo pretty AND I CAN WEAR IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”   To go from a very tight 26/28 to a 14 is just the most amazing thing ever!  I have worn some used 14’s but this weekend I bought my first size 14 capris in probably 30 years!!!!  I DON’T GIVE A RIP WHAT THE SCALE SAYS LOL inches are just as good if not better!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I got shirts that DID NOT HAVE A X in front of the L!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 

I was at the hospital with Tina last week and they have the floor to ceiling windows.  It was dark outside, and I was in a hurry and in glanced over and thought to myself, “hey that chick has on the same outfit that I do, then I stopped dead in my tracks and said OMG that’s ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!  That was probably the funniest thing ever, I was all alone, looking out a window into the dark and laughing to myself!  I wonder what the surveillance people thought when they saw that LOL—looking for a straight jacket maybe?  LOL

 

Anyway, just wanted to share a true WOW moment and a MAJOR NSV!

I was having dinner the other day and some food fell off of my fork.......................normally it would be really easy to find, it would be right there under my chin sitting nicely on my ta ta's, or on my stomach, wellllllllll drum roll pleaseeeeeeeee, after searchinG all over my body looking for it, i found it right on my leg!!!!!!!!!!!  NO TA TA'S OR BELLY TO CATCH IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sounds funny but i was quite excited!!!

AND i tied on a dress for mothers day and was able to put on a 14/16-i CRIED IN THE DRESSING ROOM!  I HAVENT BEEN IS A 14/16 SINCE JUNIOR HIGH!! Oh and Jr. High was 1978 and 1979!!!!!!!!!!!!

Man I LOVE my band!!!

I am going to fast forward throught he weekend coz i cant seem to remember much of it.  Monday was a bad day, i had a headache from the pit of hell most of the day. but heres what I ate:
B-slim fast and a protein bar
L-fritos, 1 fried scallop and 4 small chicken wings
D-nothing head hurt too bad to eat.
 WO-went to the gym for boxing and I jsut couldnt do it, my wrist hurt too bad so i did a mile on the treadmill and 2 miles on the bike, a couple of crunches on the dip machine and 45 crunches on the decline bench.  crappy workout i know, tonight should be better.

Well my calculations were a little bit off, i weighed in at Dr Barefield today and was at 251.8 UGHHHHHHHHHh  my scale is off 3 lbs, but whatever now im at 13 lbs to 100!  Either way ITS GONNA HAPPEN SOON!!! I did lose 9.5 for the month.

Breakfast-nothing stuid i know-was had early appt and didnt want to eat before LOL as if i could gain back 10 lbs by eating breakfast. 
lunch was strange, i was hungry so i had 1 slice of the tiny party rye (thin) and some port wine cheese spread with a dab of mustard, 1/4 cup of cottage chesse with a blob of ranch and a sprinkle of parmesean. 2 candied spearment leaves soooooo good!!!  shouldnt have had that either, but im being totally honest here.
Zone protein bar before my workout--------dang im glad i had that!  I sure did need it!!
Dinner---afer my workout-a bowl of cereal (about 1/2 cup) not hungry at all with 1/4 cup 2% milk. Oh and a vienna sausage.

OK the workout--If i dont post anymore its coz i died in my sleep from working out too hard LOL.  I sure made up for my crappy one on Tuesday.
Zumba Funk class--first time ever it was AWESOME!!!!!!  Then the track about 1/4 mile just to cool down, chest, back, biceps and abs.  tota workout time including zumba was 2 1/2 hours.

I met some new friends taking the zumba class and they are doing a 6AM class monday some kind of step aerobics with weights, i think I will give it a try,  if i can get up that early!!

So all in all its not been too bad of a day....................even though Dannys windshield was hit by a big rock and it has to be replaced, my PCP told me that as of May 31 they wont be accepting my ins...........Shes been my doc fo 10 years, i was devistated!!!!!!!!!  She has been right here with me through this entire surgery process and been totally supportive.   I am ging to call the ins co tomorrow-called to day and their system was down, boy was i mad!..Maybe its for the best  that way In wont blow a gasket on the phone and make them mad LOL.  Then my husband (truck driver) pulls doubles to Atlanta had a blow out just as he was getting into Atlanta this evening..........my dad had a dizzy spell, fortunatly he was AT the doctors office already, and the best news is MY MOM IS CANCER FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

So now im going to pop in on the message board then go to bed, IF i can get out of this chair LOL
Thank you God for keeping my family safe and my mom being healed!

I had 1/2 a pack of grits for breakfast and a piece of the thin small party rye bread.
lunch so far has been 1/2 a hamburger pattie----im too tight right now to eat the rest, not really hungry, just want to eat it coz its really good!

Dinner-who knows-i have so much to do after work i may just do some cereal after church.

exercize is a no go for today.  Chasing 25-5 year olds for 2 hours might take care of some of it LOL.

I was feeling nauseated last night and this morning, pretty tired too.  This is NOT like me-good thing im going to see Dr. Barefield tomorrow.........that will be my official weigh in for the week.  i plan on doing the happy dance!!!!

OK heres my post for Tuesday (its actually 3:40am on Wednesday)
My workout sucked just to be honest.  I practically flew around the track 24 laps to get my 2 miles in but i just wasnt feeling good, i went downstairs to hit the eliptical -i wanted at least 2 miles, the best i could get was 15 minutes and that was a stretch.  I just didnt have it.  i have beat myself up for it, but im over it now.  Maybe I was just too tired, a bit dehydreated, who knows but its a new day.  No workout today coz i have church tonight, thursday has to be better!

Breakfast-protein bar (zone bar was soooooooo good!) and a coke zero-on the run this morning, hungry so dumb me had a resee cup and 2 fun size almod joys............not too joyous now that i think about it.
lunch-a "completes" meal very tasty-not enough protein though-roast beef w gravy and mashed pots. Had to work through lunch--so it was hit and miss wehn i could get a bite in.
dinner-hamburger patty with cheese and mustard a couple of thin pretzel sticks.
STUPID CHOICE-a handfull of spice drops and 4 frozen oreo cookies and a small glass of milk

I plan to succeed today.NO bad food choices.Today WILL be better I REFUSE to sabotogue  myself I have come wayyyyyyyy to far for this stupid behavior!!!   MIND ISSUES REALLY PISS ME OFF!! Today will be BETTER!  It could have been worse--i could have had ice cream LOL