Just ragging... or is it raging?

May 07, 2009

So, my house and condo are leased out, my 12 year old son is staying with my mother, and my 24 year old daughter finally got her own place, at the apartment complex she is working for.

I am staying with friends, and I am so grateful to have a temporary place to hang out. It's a good thing that I work full time, and have a part time job as well. I would hate to wear out my welcome.

Once the summer session starts, I'll stay late here at work to do my online lessons. If I can get a laptop, I'll use the WIFI at my friends to do lessons there, or anywhere I can get a signal.

I ended up dropping most of my course load this Spring. I just could function very well. My heart isn't in it yet, but I have to work on my degree.

I miss having my privacy; some place where I can go read, or sleep, or disappear under the covers to sleep, or cry, or scream into my pillow. Good thing I'm not really one to cry, or scream, but sometimes the option would be nice.

I miss my dogs. I hope they all found homes. Robert's dog, Gracie, had heart worms and had to be put down. She was the sweetest dog of the three. I miss sitting out on the deck, and Chewbarka trying to get up on the swing with me to sit his 60 pounds on my lap like a little toddler. I used to enjoy sitting there, and listening to the breeze whisper it's secrets to the tree tops.

I've been going to church regularly, and praying to get through this rough spell. I am thinking that I'll sell my house, condo, and both cars. I could get an efficiency after I pay off the bills Robert left me with. It will take me at least 6 months to dig out of this hole. Believe me, passion and romance come with a steep price if your Amor turns out not to be the man he portrays himself to be.

My thoughtful ex used a common email address of ours to set up an account on Tagged, then made a friend request to his new Philippino lady. She is 28, and beautiful. I should warn her that she may be the 5th in line for his abandonment. It's probably better to stay the hell out of it, though. I'll pray for her, too, though.

Does anyone know how to get a contractor on an American military base in Iraq served? I need to serve Robert for divorce, but am stuck in legal limbo, since I can't serve him, and he isn't coming back to the States...

I am grateful not to be any further behind than I am. I'm grateful for supportive new friends, and for the old ones who have hung in there with me.

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