Lori Black
I've adjusted to the "new me" even if the world never will
Apr 23, 2010
At damn near three years out, when I've accepted the new and thinner version of me, it seems that those who knew me when I was obese will never let it go. I don't ever want to forget where I've come from, but sometimes it's baffling when those from my past can't just accept my changes too. Bare with me while I type this out. I'm not even sure how to say what I'm feeling.Yesterday, on stupid Facebook, a "friend" who knew me when I was obese posted an obscene so-called-joke basically saying that she wishes death to Obama. It's a popular status on Facebook for those who hate our president. I don't know when our world got so messed up that we wish death on anyone, but it's the sad truth. I am so sick and tired of staying quiet about bullshit like this, so I confronted her on it. I said..."C'mon Jenn, wishing death on our president is ridiculous. I don't care if you hate him, I thought you were better than THIS. I hated Geoge W. but I never wished death on the moron." Her response...."Be serious! Stop trying to be so righteous and start worrying about losing the weight you've regained from your gorgeous surgery. You know the one you'd never have to worry about regaining weight from. You come on."
Sigh....what the fuck did that have to do with me confronting her on her nasty status? Will the world ever see me as the person I've become??? Furthermore, this girl has NO idea how I feel about the size I am now. I've never told her I was trying to lose weight or anything about my "regain." I'm HAPPY to be at the 145-150 range. This looks SO much better on me than 116 pounds did. My regain has been a POSITIVE thing!!! What do I have to do to make friends who knew me then realize that I LIKE the way I am now?
Oh, and the reason she was so nasty about calling the DS my GORGEOUS surgery is because she had the crap band, er...I mean lap band placed a few months before my surgery. I've been very careful with my words about the
I think I just needed to air this out. I don't have to worry about this friend b/c she and I have now severed ties over this petty argument. Easy to see how little I meant to her in the first place, so no loss. But I guess my frustration is...when does the rest of the world catch up with my loss and just accept that this is who I am now? When do my friends who knew me then stop bringing the subject up EVERY time we're together? It just gets OLD. Will I always have the fat girl in my shadow? I don't even know if it's a bad thing. Just disheartening at times. Maybe I'm just being too sensitive b/c I'm on my period. I just don't get it.
Thanks for listening.
Lori
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About Me
, IN
Location
20.2
BMI
Surgery
07/11/2007
Surgery Date
Jan 07, 2007
Member Since
Before & After
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139lbs
