Loris
Not emotionally eating. Yippee
Nov 09, 2006
Today, I was verbally attacked by one of my brothers in a phone message. The problem is with him, but it really upset me. I hung up, pounded my desk, then called Scot and my dad and vented pretty calmly. I called my brother and very rationally expressed myself in a way that left him with nothing to say but OK. He really wanted me to get angry and start a big fight. I cannot leave room in my life for turmoil. I want to lead a calm, even life.
The point of all this is , I never wanted to turn to food. It didn't occur to eat over this. Aren't I lucky? The less we emotionally eat, the less we are dependent on it. I am not always this successful, but today I was.
The point of all this is , I never wanted to turn to food. It didn't occur to eat over this. Aren't I lucky? The less we emotionally eat, the less we are dependent on it. I am not always this successful, but today I was.
Lexington WLS Convention, Meeting Rich 10/31/2006
Oct 31, 2006
I was outside the Raddison in my spider fairy costume having a cigarette and a homeless man with no legs or thighs, also smoking, wheeled up asking for two bucks. I had two twenties, so I gave him a handful of cigarettes out of my furry spider purse instead. The words I had no feet, then I met a man who had no legs went through my mind. I gave him a twenty.
On the way home I shared my plane seat with a very tall man who weighed a good 450 pounds. He was very personable and we were laughing and chatting. I told him where I had been. He told me of his secretary who had weight loss surgery and used to take cabs instead of the bus pre-op, because she was ridiculed so much. I explained that no one makes fun of a big man out of fear. He said recently after another employee left with his wife his secretary told her co-workers the man's wife was the ugliest woman she had ever seen. She did not understand why he called her on it. He said he couldn't believe she could talk and feel that after where she had come from. I told him I was shocked by her attitude and behavior. I then told him the story of the homeless man. I further said I just realized why the words I had no feet and then met a man who had no legs came to mind. When I was pre-op at 344 pounds I was basically off my feet. My poundage was my disability. I could relate to him, but by the grace of God I was able to have weight loss surgery. He replied I am going to tell my secretary that you were shocked by what she said and your story of the homeless man. I replied, you know, you learn something everyday. I held out my hand. He shook it and said, my name is Rich. This is what I brought back from the convention.
Love, Loris
On the way home I shared my plane seat with a very tall man who weighed a good 450 pounds. He was very personable and we were laughing and chatting. I told him where I had been. He told me of his secretary who had weight loss surgery and used to take cabs instead of the bus pre-op, because she was ridiculed so much. I explained that no one makes fun of a big man out of fear. He said recently after another employee left with his wife his secretary told her co-workers the man's wife was the ugliest woman she had ever seen. She did not understand why he called her on it. He said he couldn't believe she could talk and feel that after where she had come from. I told him I was shocked by her attitude and behavior. I then told him the story of the homeless man. I further said I just realized why the words I had no feet and then met a man who had no legs came to mind. When I was pre-op at 344 pounds I was basically off my feet. My poundage was my disability. I could relate to him, but by the grace of God I was able to have weight loss surgery. He replied I am going to tell my secretary that you were shocked by what she said and your story of the homeless man. I replied, you know, you learn something everyday. I held out my hand. He shook it and said, my name is Rich. This is what I brought back from the convention.
Love, Loris
Mr. Tooter's Mishap At The Lexington Ball
Oct 29, 2006
Dan, who wore a name tag that said Mr. Tooter, had a real bold costume. He dressed up as well, a giant inflatable tallywhacker. Sadly, it deflated minutes into the ball. Tooter walked around all night patting him on the hand saying "Honey, it's OK." He walked around shaking his head and saying mournfully, I don't know what's wrong. This has never happened before."
Just Kidding!!
Just Kidding!!
8/2006
8/18/2006 Weight 195.6 Well, I have been doing a little better with my food and water. I started going to water aerobics three days a weeks. It feels wonderful. I am keeping up and I am much more limber after about one month. I have also lost 4 pounds. I am 1 and a half pounds from having lost 150 pounds! That feels great too. I have never exercised before. I am sorry I didn't start sooner, but am so glad I have started.
8/25/2006 Wow, I weigh 193.6. I can't believe it, I have lost 150+ pounds. I am so grateful. I have also lost 24 pounds since I was in Florida last. That's five pounds a month. Not great, but I will take it. :) Actually that is pretty darn good. I am thinking about starting another exercise class at the Y. Maybe the one called backs and abs. Tonight I find out if I can get up off the floor by myself. That will be the deal beaker.
8/28/2006 Weight 192. My next mini goal has been been 180, my weight on my wedding day. That is still over weight, but not a bad look.
8/25/2006 Wow, I weigh 193.6. I can't believe it, I have lost 150+ pounds. I am so grateful. I have also lost 24 pounds since I was in Florida last. That's five pounds a month. Not great, but I will take it. :) Actually that is pretty darn good. I am thinking about starting another exercise class at the Y. Maybe the one called backs and abs. Tonight I find out if I can get up off the floor by myself. That will be the deal beaker.
8/28/2006 Weight 192. My next mini goal has been been 180, my weight on my wedding day. That is still over weight, but not a bad look.
7/2006
Jul 20, 2006
7/21/2006 I haven't had anything to say lately because I haven't been following my plan. I did lose two sizes, but only two pounds. I call it shape shifting. I had a rude awakening when thinking about losing a chunk of weight before I go back to Florida in the fall. All of a sudden it felt like it did pre-op. I was making weight loss plans that weren't going to happen because I wasn't going to do anything about it. I made a new resolve to work this tool I was blessed with. I have since gotten into onderland!!
I bought some easy to prepare salad fixings this week and I started a water aerobics class today. It was fun and felt good. My back is not to happy with me unfortunately. I may have to take the class geared for people with arthritis. That's OK, it will still be a workout and I have never exercised regularly before. I am determined to cut back on simple carbs.
I bought some easy to prepare salad fixings this week and I started a water aerobics class today. It was fun and felt good. My back is not to happy with me unfortunately. I may have to take the class geared for people with arthritis. That's OK, it will still be a workout and I have never exercised regularly before. I am determined to cut back on simple carbs.
6/2006
Jun 28, 2006
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5/2006
May 04, 2006
5/5/2006 My colitis is under control. I feel better in that department than I have in years. I must have had this for a while.
4/2006
Apr 06, 2006
4/7/2006 I started the week weighing 216. Tonight I weigh 205.4. What you say? I have had watery bowel movements since Monday morning. I am getting tired of this. I don't feel like I have a virus. My N.P. at surgeon's told me to try Immodium and if that didn't work to try the BRAT diet. No luck with the Immodium or staying off food for 24 hours. I start the BRAT diet tomorrow and will go see the internist on Monday. I can't feel good about the weight lose because I know it is all fluid.
4/25/2006 Well I guess 205.4 is my official weight after my illness.
People often post should I call my doctor, I think something is wrong? Do trust your instincts. If you feel that way if usually is cause for concern. I went to the doctor twice in one week. The first to my internist, the second time to my surgeon when I was was very week. His nurse wanted to send me to the infusion center for fluids, but the docotor vetoed. Several hours later the sugeon on call sent me to the emergency room with very low potassium by my blood work. I was enventually diagnosed with un WLS related colitis. I really needed the 6 day hospital stay. I am so much better. Trust yourself!!
If you ever have to have IV potassium make sure they piggyback it with an IV of saline. It is a painful IV otherwise. The hospital stay was not so bad, because I was not in pain. They had me on a six week out gastric bypass diet, instead of letting me chose my healthy foods only because my WLS admitted me. Colitis wise my food was not too limited. I had a colonoscopy and a series of x-rays while I was there. I eventually had a central IV line, which I prefer, because the potassium drip caused me to have problems with my veins. While in the x-ray waiting room I stood up and strode across the room forgetting about my IV pole that was plugged in my neck and the wall. The tech came at me full tackle, with a horrified look on her face. We had a good laugh out of afterwards.
I was a great patient, except I kept leaving the floor to go out to the garden to smoke. All the nurses either ignored it or told me firmly not to go and then said to tell then when I left. Except one young gungho nurse. Long story short, she called security, etc., on me. They met me outside. When they asked when I was going in, I said while lighting my first cigarette, when I finished my second cigarette. They gently lectured me and followed me in. I must say my gastro doc had already said the cigarettes would not aggravate my particular condition, but my WLS had pulled my hospital privileges. It was nice to smoke and also nice to sit in the sun and the garden. Most of all it was a break from the bathroom!!!! I was sweet as pie to that nurse all day, but she got real snooty about a RX mix up on her part later in the day. She just needed to relax.
I am finally not hanging out in the bathroom. The colitis is a new minor life problem. I am grateful for no pain, that it is not serious, for great medical care and my wonderful husband's support. He wore himself out working and taking care of me and my pups. We had our usual Starbucks coffee break every afternoon. He is the tops.
April 30, 2006 206 -138
April 30, 2006 206 -138
April 30, 2006 206 -138
4/25/2006 Well I guess 205.4 is my official weight after my illness.
People often post should I call my doctor, I think something is wrong? Do trust your instincts. If you feel that way if usually is cause for concern. I went to the doctor twice in one week. The first to my internist, the second time to my surgeon when I was was very week. His nurse wanted to send me to the infusion center for fluids, but the docotor vetoed. Several hours later the sugeon on call sent me to the emergency room with very low potassium by my blood work. I was enventually diagnosed with un WLS related colitis. I really needed the 6 day hospital stay. I am so much better. Trust yourself!!
If you ever have to have IV potassium make sure they piggyback it with an IV of saline. It is a painful IV otherwise. The hospital stay was not so bad, because I was not in pain. They had me on a six week out gastric bypass diet, instead of letting me chose my healthy foods only because my WLS admitted me. Colitis wise my food was not too limited. I had a colonoscopy and a series of x-rays while I was there. I eventually had a central IV line, which I prefer, because the potassium drip caused me to have problems with my veins. While in the x-ray waiting room I stood up and strode across the room forgetting about my IV pole that was plugged in my neck and the wall. The tech came at me full tackle, with a horrified look on her face. We had a good laugh out of afterwards.
I was a great patient, except I kept leaving the floor to go out to the garden to smoke. All the nurses either ignored it or told me firmly not to go and then said to tell then when I left. Except one young gungho nurse. Long story short, she called security, etc., on me. They met me outside. When they asked when I was going in, I said while lighting my first cigarette, when I finished my second cigarette. They gently lectured me and followed me in. I must say my gastro doc had already said the cigarettes would not aggravate my particular condition, but my WLS had pulled my hospital privileges. It was nice to smoke and also nice to sit in the sun and the garden. Most of all it was a break from the bathroom!!!! I was sweet as pie to that nurse all day, but she got real snooty about a RX mix up on her part later in the day. She just needed to relax.
I am finally not hanging out in the bathroom. The colitis is a new minor life problem. I am grateful for no pain, that it is not serious, for great medical care and my wonderful husband's support. He wore himself out working and taking care of me and my pups. We had our usual Starbucks coffee break every afternoon. He is the tops.
April 30, 2006 206 -138
April 30, 2006 206 -138
April 30, 2006 206 -138
3/2006
Mar 11, 2006
3/12/2006 I weighed 217.8 earlier this week. That puts my bmi at 39.9 . I am now obese instead of SMO or MO. I finally don't stick in my doctors chair. I even have room to spare.
I was at the ER for the third time in about a month or so last night. First it was kidney stones, then a 36 hour bout with vomiting and then last night phlebitis. I had a endoscopy to check out the vomiting which was negative. I had a cystoscopy as a follow through on the kidney stones, also negative. Phlebitis is inflamation of a blood vessel. Mine was in my right forearm and unexplained. My arm is inflamed, red and sore. They ruled out a blood clot. Phlebitis sounds like something that happens to dogs. LOL
3/19/2006 I bought size 20 petite pants today. I am down from a size 34. WooHoo! I can't remember the last time I bought a size 20. We I get into the size 18 acid wash jeans in my extra closet I promise not wear them out of the house. lol I also am down from a 50DD bra to a 42DD.
I was at the ER for the third time in about a month or so last night. First it was kidney stones, then a 36 hour bout with vomiting and then last night phlebitis. I had a endoscopy to check out the vomiting which was negative. I had a cystoscopy as a follow through on the kidney stones, also negative. Phlebitis is inflamation of a blood vessel. Mine was in my right forearm and unexplained. My arm is inflamed, red and sore. They ruled out a blood clot. Phlebitis sounds like something that happens to dogs. LOL
3/19/2006 I bought size 20 petite pants today. I am down from a size 34. WooHoo! I can't remember the last time I bought a size 20. We I get into the size 18 acid wash jeans in my extra closet I promise not wear them out of the house. lol I also am down from a 50DD bra to a 42DD.
2/2006
Feb 15, 2006
2/16/2006 I am losing weight again. I am now down 123 pounds. I weigh 221, which is a pound less than one of my mini goals. My next goal is onderland. I am not exercising, but I am not sleeping as much and I am doing a lot more such as housework and errands. Scot and I did a major redo on one of the bathrooms and I was able to do a lot of the painting. That felt good.
2/24/2006 I was reading a post that talked about people saying not that you weren't pretty before, but since you lost weight you are really pretty. I responded: The heavier I am the more my beauty is hidden. At 344 when I smiled, my big eyes got hidden. I have to be close to normal weight for my jaw line and narrow chin to show. The same with my long neck. So, yes I am prettier thinner, much prettier. But almost every night my husband of almost 18 years says when he hugs me, "goodnight my beautiful bride." I know he means it. :)
2/24/2006 I was reading a post that talked about people saying not that you weren't pretty before, but since you lost weight you are really pretty. I responded: The heavier I am the more my beauty is hidden. At 344 when I smiled, my big eyes got hidden. I have to be close to normal weight for my jaw line and narrow chin to show. The same with my long neck. So, yes I am prettier thinner, much prettier. But almost every night my husband of almost 18 years says when he hugs me, "goodnight my beautiful bride." I know he means it. :)
About Me
Midlothian, VA
Location
25.8
BMI
Surgery
03/30/2005
Surgery Date
Jan 07, 2005
Member Since
Before & After
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2 weeks pre-op Me and Curley
344lbs
