Aug. 7 2010 Band-Anniversary

Aug 07, 2010

Hello all,
 Time to update my progress/journey.  Well, it has been 3 yrs now.  My story has been one of success yet slow weight loss.  I am down 100 lbs from my heightest weight and down 75lbs since my surgery.   I have learned a lot about my body and myself.  What I thought was my issue was really so much more than just needing help to get my body to start losing weight.  It is more than knowing what to eat and what not to eat and how much.  All that is so important but in the end it comes down to what is going on in your heart and head.  I have had to wrestle through all of this and am beginning to see the "why's"  Seeing that our hearts are desperately wicked and we can be decieved about ourselves and motives.  I have loved food, more than I love myself or God.  I thought I was doing all I could do and in the end I have wanted what I want and so my struggle is now to say "NO" to myself and "Yes" to loving God as I should.  I have been allowing food to be my friend, food to help when it is indeed God who wants this place in my heart.  He alone can deliver me from this stronghold and He alone desire to be the object of my affections.  He is a jealous God and he will not compete with my "idol"  food/self!!   How great it is to have my eyes opened to my sin and to his great grace and forgiveness. 

Having said all that I do not believe this is everyone's issue, I just know its mine.  God gave me this WLS tool to help me to fight this fight but never was it meant to do so without complete dependance on His ability to deliver.  He grants us repentance and we surrender to His will and in that place of humitly and hope he moves on our behalf.  I am working now on gaining victory over the power of food in my life and watching the scale begin to move downward.  My journey is long but it is sure if I keep my eyes on the lover of my soul.  My sweet Lord and Savior Jesus!   He is enough for me!!

God bless and keep you all as you too overcome!

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