Lisa R.

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Today is October 19, 2008 and I have not posted in several months!  I have been so busy working and losing weight!  There are days that I have wondered if I can really do this.  Can I really be skinny? The answer has always been NO! Today, as I set here on my couch I know in my heart that I have made it.  I have lost 70 pounds and as I walk by full length mirrors and I look at the person staring at me I wonder who is she? She is Lisa but the Lisa I have never known.  You must realize that I have been fat for 38 years and it is very hard to let go of my fat self.  Today, I am a size 12 misses! OMG!  I've have not been a size 12 since elementary school.  WOW! Is this really real? I need to post a recent photo of me....and I will soon.  Everytime I go shopping for clothes and go into the dressing room I cry! I cry because I get into a new size and it is so  overwhelming for me!  It is so wonderful to have lost the weight but at the same token I have lost LISA.  I am glad for the loss but hard to figure out who I am.  My fatness has always defined who I am and it no longer does.  Any advise anyone?

I just love my band.  I lost two more pounds.  I can't wait until June 24th when I get my 2nd fill.  I will be seeing my mom in a week and would love to lose a little more.  She has not seen me since I lost 20 pounds.

Wow..... 2 weeks ago I had my first fill.  I can tell a difference but not enough yet.  I get my second fill in two weeks.....I can't wait!  I need it  like a drug!!!   My weight goes up and down a little but I am doing so well.  I'm proud and I love my band.

It is almost 10 A. M. Sunday morning.  I just ate some cream of wheat.  WOW!!! How I have missed real food!  The hard thing for me is to know what full is....not sure.  I have stopped eating before everything from my bowl was empty.  I know with time I will know what full feel like.  I think for now I am still healing so it is hard to know.   Help keep me motivated!  I want to be a good loser.

I am so excited.  I am down  to 258 pounds and only 4 days after surgery.  I am beginning to hate protein drinks.  I have had nothing but those nasty drinks for 2 weeks.  Tomorrow I get to start on Mushies!  I can't wait to have cream of wheat for breakfast and sweet potato for lunch.  Yummy!