How I found out I was the "Fat Lady"

Dec 07, 2012

My Reality check:  The issue of my life was I always saw myself as the curvy 30 year old (the last time I weighed 135)...

Now I am heavy: HW 263 current wt 240 and I am 5'3" and will be 52 this July.  I never cared what size the tag said on my clothes...well not until I was looking at 22/24. 

I see myself get dressed every morning...and what I see in the mirror is the person I was when I was in my early 30's but I understand now it is a total mirage...

Like most of us we try to avoid the camera at all costs...

When I turned 50 the girls at the office threw me a party and when I looked at those pictures of myself...WOW...that's when I asked myself...who is that fat lady and where did she come from....OH NOOOOOOOO...it's ME...

...OMG....I did some research and looked back at older pictures of myself...and I literally could see the weight packing on year by year...I think I remember starting to seriously try to lose weight after my divorce...and did...then as soon as I reached my goal weight I got pregnant with my son at age 35 and I have been fighting the pounds ever since his birth...

I have gained and lost, I know 100's of lbs....I would be successful and then for some unknown reason I would fall off the ride...and next thing I know I have regained plus extra....I did this over and over again...each time my lowest weight loss would always be higher than the last time...

I remember being so upset when I past 200...that I didn't stop until I reached 225....put the brakes on and got back down under 200...couldn't maintain it though...

For 20 years I have fought and lost the war of the pounds....

It is my turn to win now....I WANT MY SURGERY....I am ready to change my life....I have already started to change my life....

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