Damned if I do Damned if I don't

Jun 08, 2009

So my boyfriend of the past year has finally informed me after I confronted him that he is no longer attracted to me because I have gotten too skinny!!  What?  I knew things were different between us, I knew he made me feel like I was not attractive and not commenting on my weightloss.  Today I called him and said I know your feelings have changed and there is nothing I can do to change them back so I think we should go our seperate ways.  He has been lately accusing me of cheating.  I know it is his own insecurities not mine.  He even admitted that to me, that he goes for bigger girls because they will be less likely to leave him instaed of a smaller girl.  I never thought that I would be with someone before wls that was not willing to be with me after.  I thought it would be the other way around.  Oh well, I think its a blessing in disguise because he had me feeling like I made a mistake and that maybe I should sabotage myself so I wont lose anymore weight.  I am still over 200 pounds (far from too skinny)!!  I have decided that I am not getting involved with anyone else for awhile. I need to do some serious soul searching and take care of me and my daughter without any distraction.  It is a relief that I know now but I just never thought it would happen to me.

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