been along time...

Jun 28, 2011

I have not posted in awhile so I thought I should. I have lost over 160 pounds, but have gained and lost a lot from it, I am currently separated from my husband, but I am moving closer to finding out who I really am and what my life goals are. I use my excess skin as a reminder of what I don't want to ever be again, but also for what I want to keep thriving for and accomplishing in my life. For the first time (in a long time) I feel free and that I am capable of making my own choices and decisions, Life is not easy nor may it ever be, but I am happy with what I am doing with mine right now. I hope everyone is doing the same!! Best of luck and happiness to all
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Just checkin in. . .

May 17, 2010

Well I have not been on in a while so I thought I would check in. I am 3 1/2 months post-op and down about 74 lbs. That is both my kids put together plus 4 lbs!! So I take that as I lost my pregnancy weight and I am working on the rest. I think my biggest trouble right now is figuring out my size and having nothing to wear. I also have days where I still feel huge, but others where I feel great and have so much confidence. I am 11 lbs away from being under 200 goal and the next would be 26 lbs away from "onederland"!!

I find there is a lot more I enjoy in life such as exercise! Yes I said it exercise. Before surgery the most exercise I was getting was running after my kids which was probably benefiting them more than me. I am taking time out from running after them because I have to. I am running because I want to. I actually enjoy going out running and if I cannot run outside I tune into my Wii Fit. I noticed I love being outside as before not so much. Now only if I can take that love of being outside to start doing some yard work would be nice.

I was doing YouTube blogs, but my camera is not working. I tried to do a video with my web cam and yet that did not work. I am sure I will figure it out eventually. I also need some new pics. I bought this wrap skirt about 2 years ago at the beach and it never fit me. I tried it on over the weekend and it FITS!!! I really want to take a pic so I can remember that milestone.

Oh and before I forget here is something funny my hubby said "You're getting skinny!" I replied :well what did you think was going to happen?" He says with a big smile, "I am going to have to replace you for a fat chick now!" Needless to say he got a slap and a kiss!!

Hope everyone is doing well. I hope to hear from everyone and their progress
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It has been 8 weeks!!

Mar 23, 2010

 doing the happy dance

Well it has been about 8 weeks since surgery and I am feeling pretty good. I posted pics of myself now that I am down 50, I repeat, 50 pounds!! I do not quite see it yet, but loving how my clothes are fitting. The pics I took are of me in a size large shirt that my mom sent me when I had surgery. It was my first goal shirt. She is now sending me a new one!! The shirt is still a little tight, but 8 weeks ago I could not even pull it over my head.

Since LS I have gained energy and is starting to really keep up with my kids. I am trying different foods and so far so good. Still no dumping which I am happy about plus I haven't aloud myself to put anything in my mouth that would potentially make me dump. It has been a great 8 weeks except personal things that have happened, but now things are looking up. One thing that is bothering me right now, I wanted to get back to working out in the gym. I went to see a chiropractor and my back does not look so good so no exercising for about 2 months. I can still do my daily routine and go for walks. I have been trying to go for a walk everyday to at least keep me motivated for when I can go back to the gym.

I would also like to say that I am so excited that my bff is getting her surgery in less then a month. I cannot wait to share these changes with her!! I am happy to have someone along side of me doing this, understanding what I am going through, and possibly help her understand what she is going though. Love you Laura :)



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My first WOW

Mar 04, 2010

First I would like to thank everyone for their prayers for my family. We really appreciate it. Things have been rough, but they are getting better everyday. My sister has been having her ups and downs, but seems to be getting through this better then I thought she would. Your prayers and thoughts have meant the world to me and my family.

I had my 2nd post-op appointment today!! Everything looks good and I am ready to hit the gym!! I have went from 286 to 249 in 5 weeks and 3 days!! I feel so good and my clothes are falling off. I have not been under 250 since I was pregnant with my daughter almost 4 years ago. I wondered if I would ever see that again. I go back in 2 months after I get my blood work and I hope to weigh around 225 in not less

Last year we went on a family camping trip with my husband's friend from work. I was almost reluctant to go because of my weight. I was almost embarrassed for my husband because I was the fat wife!! Well we were invited to go again this summer and I am excited. I feel that I will finally look half way normal and I wont be an embarrassment although I know my husband loves me no matter how I look.

I am also excited to participate at my daughters school. I don't feel like the other mothers will be looking at me in disgust and afraid that the kids will make fun of me because of my weight. I also have so much more energy to keep up with kids. I signed up for a parent participation day in April and I cannot wait.

I cannot believe in just a month how much my life has changed. I have had so many ups and downs this month. I hope this month I have more ups then downs. Life can be so hectic, but I know it is all worth it. I am starting to really love life and feel better about myself. I know nothing can be perfect, but I hope it's pretty damn close!!

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Not a good week. . .

Feb 22, 2010

This has been a not so good week for me. My nephew Gabriel passed away Friday. I wish I would have had more time with him. He was born paralyzed from the neck down at birth. His body was unable to make calcium. They gave him 1 year to live, but he was only able to stay strong for 6 months and passed in his sleep. He is now an angel and will be so missed. Please say a prayer for my sister Alex, she is really having a rough time right now. Seeing such a small casket I could never imagine what that would feel like. My kids are my life as Gabriel was Alex's. She loved him so much and took such good care of him, she was a great mother.


I finally had an experience with sticking, well twice I did. Not so great, but not as bad as I thought it would be. I tried to take a sip of water to help it out, but only makes it worse (well for me it did). It felt like the water sat on whatever was stuck and made it worse. I started to drool and it regurgitated itself up. So I am working on really chewing this week. I still have not weighed myself, but the 4th is coming and I will have some numbers posted.

I do have some good news, I started online school this week for business. College is one of my goals and I am doing it. I really want to make my family proud and also by earning my degree I hope to get my husband home. Instead of him working out of state (money is much better) he will be able to work closer to home because we will both hopefully have an income.




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Spoke too soon

Feb 16, 2010

So I was doing really good with food, but now I have totally lost my appetite and everything I put something near my mouth it makes me gag!! I am forcing myself to eat and drink so I get my protein in. I have not thrown up, but after I force myself to eat I feel terrible. I wish I could get over this already. I have lost my energy too. There is so much I want and need to do yet just cant seem to get it down. So if anyone has any suggestions please help! I am trying to stay positive and just not think about the way I feel, really don't want to get in a funk.

I still have not weighed myself, but I have noticed my clothes are no longer snug which is such a great feeling. I get excited when people notice. I hope by this summer I will be feeling a little more comfortable in a bathing suit and to have the energy back to keep up with my kids.

I hope everyone else is doing great, cant wait to hear from all of you!!
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Its been awhile

Feb 13, 2010

Well I have not been on in awhile, I went to Florida to see my mom. Some may say that it was too soon after surgery, but I didn't think so! I feel wonderful! The only thing I wish I could have changed was the weather, it was cold for Florida, but much better then being stuck at home in the snow storm.

So far food has been good. I try something new everyday and I have yet to get sick or have anything stuck. I hope it doesn't happen, but yet every time I eat I think this might be that time. I figure if I stick to what my doctor says I will be fine.

Well I hope to write more, but I am sleepy so off to bed. Hope everyone had a Happy Valentine's Day!!
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Upload

Feb 05, 2010

I uploaded some before pics which are actually post-op, but only by a little less than 2 weeks. I also uploaded another youtube blog which I think may still be processing, but here is the URL

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJzQQuHMOm8


Hope you get the chance to check it out and if you have a youtube account please subscribe if you are interested. Thanks everyone for the support!!
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First post-op appointment

Feb 04, 2010

Had my first post-op appointment with Dr. Peters. It went very well. He said I looked great and was very proud of me, so that made me feel good. I lost the weight I gained from the hospital plus some. When I returned home from the hospital I weighted 286 and I am down to 259. I feel lighter already. I get to start eating food, real food. I will be trying an egg first and let me tell you an egg never sounded so good. The staples were a breeze getting removed. I was so nervous about the tube because the drains hurt so much coming out, well they were not the same. The tube coming out I felt nothing so I was worried for no reason. I really feel so good that I could run a marathon. I know in a couple weeks I may slide into a funk, but I hope if I keep busy and not focus on it that I will not become depressed. I figure if I am outside or doing something with my kids it wont give me time to slide myself into any funk. My surgeon said that in all his years of surgery not many people smile at his after 2 days post-op (which I did), most people usually hate him for about 4 days lol. I really feel great and back to normal almost. I hope I remain feeling this good!!
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1 week since surgery

Feb 01, 2010

I haven't really had time to get on, but I finally found some time (kids are napping ) I have been feeling much better since surgery. The drain tube and staples kind of slow me down so I cannot wait to have them removed on Thursday!! Since my last blog was short I thought I give some more details on this one.

Last Monday I arrived at the hospital at 6:30, went to admissions and got all settled in. My 7am I was on my way into pre-op. I don't think I was ever stuck so many times in my life with needles. I had 2 IV's and an artery blood pressure thing (not sure of the name). I could not wait to be put out cause that was on the painful side. By 8:30am I was being rolled into the OR and that's all I remember. When I finally woke up and realized what was around me I saw my DH and I was so happy to see his face. It was about 2:30pm, I think I smiled and went back to sleep. I woke up again that afternoon to my kids, but I went right back out. I slept basically for 2 days. Most of it was a blur. My husband had off for my surgery and decided to take an extra day off because he was so worried, although I don't think he realized it was normal. I don't really remember talking or seeing too many people, the drugs really kept me out of it. Walking was not too bad. Once I got up and went it seemed to be much easier. I was not released from the hospital until Friday due to a mess up with dietary moving me from clear liquids to all liquids. Even though I slept most of the time I was still up every 2 hours, the hospital bed just about killed my back. I feel so much better now I even did some touch up painting in my hallway and living room.

My insomnia seems to have disappeared. Every night around 9 I am ready for bed and awake before my kids in the morning. I am still walking up every 2 hours, basically to adjust myself in bed, have a sip of water, and walk around the house quick. As far as meds I am taking reglan every 8 hours, protonix once daily, lovenox shot once daily, and roxicet as needed. I take my multi in the morning and calcium which I need to post a note because I remember my multi, but I seem to be forgetting the much needed calcium.

I have not weighed myself because I think if I see its not coming off fast enough  will be discouraged instead of surprised. I actually can't wait to be weighted on Thursday. I pretty much sip, sip, sip all day long. I usually have a protein shake for breakfast the rest of the day varies. I eat at 8, 10, 12, 2, 6, and 8. I am sticking to the schedule the hospital had me on. Now I am working on other things such as taking better care of not just myself, but my surrounding. I cannot wait to get my body back to normal I have so many things I want to do. This was my first step to change my life for the better, no more procrastinating and bad planning, I will finish all my goals. I do need to make another youtube video and as soon as I can find my coat which has my camera in it I will. I am 24 years old and I have been walking around in a 54 year old body, life is too short and now I think I can finally really live so when I am 54 I will be feeling like 24.

This has been the greatest thing (besides my husband and kids) that I have ever done for myself. Thank you to Dr. Peters and his staff. Thanks to my husband and kids for being one of my biggest reasons for having surgery. A big thanks to Laura, I don't know what I would do without a friend/sister like you (she is my biggest supporter and also was kind enough to take care of my kids and house while I was in the hospital) All also a thanks to to all of you at OH, if it wasn't for your support and guidance, I may have not had the surgery. I am not the best at showing my appreciation sometimes, but I hope everyone knows how much they mean to me and if there is anything I could do for anyone please let me know!!
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01/25/2010
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Nov 23, 2009
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