Had so many problems

Aug 08, 2007

I had my surgery on May 9.  Everything seemed to go fine.  I stayed in the hospital for two days.  When we were driving away from the hospital I started getting really bad pain in my left shoulder.  I thought it was gas pain.  Over the next week it got so bad I had to go to the ER.  They just gave me more pain meds.  I was walking, drinking my water and eating the way I was suppose to.  By the second week I was having pain under my left rib and felt light I had a sack of fluid or something there and it was painful.  My hubby had to help me out of bed all the time.   I had been reporting all of this to my surgeons nurse.  So at the end of the second week on Friday I went for my scheduled appointment with my surgeon.  He wanted me to have a CT scan.  So he set it up at a hospital that was closer to me.  The next Tues. I went for the scan and that night my surgeon called and told me to come in on Friday because he wanted to do another CT but at his hospital.  Apparently he could not read the first CT scan to his satisfaction.  So I came in on that Friday and was admitted to the hospital and ended up staying there for 3 weeks.  Yes, I said 3 weeks.  It was horrible.  I had a leak in the top of my pouch.  This caused me to get an infection, by the way, I told the nurse I had been running a fever but she never told my surgeon that.  Anyway, I ended up with a sack of fluid under my rib and the lower loob of my left lung colapsed.  So they put in 3 drains and a chest tube.  I could not take and food or liquid by mouth for 2 weeks as they were waiting for the stomach to heal.  While all this was going on I was getting pretty weak.  The fed me through an I.V.  By the third week they had me drink blue dye to see if my stomach healed.  If my pee turned green and there was no blue dye in the drains that would mean it healed up and I could start eating liquids again.  Starting all over.  At the end of the third week they let me go home.  I was getting very depressed and they thought I would recover better at home.  I did.  My saving grace was having my sister stay with me in the hospital all of the second week I was there.  That was the best.  So I ended up being out of work for 3 months!  I'm feeling better now.  This is my first week back at work.  I have lost 40 pounds since surgery and 65 total.  I had to lose weight before they would do the surgery.  Most of my close do not fit me and I had to go and buy a few things to get me by for work.  I have about 30 pounds to lose until I'm at goal.  I may have lost more because I have not weighed since last Friday.

2 Day's to go

May 07, 2007

Well this is my last day at work before surgery!  I'm so excited.  I had my physical and all my labs done on Friday and all of that went well.  So now I just have to show up on Wedsneday to have my Surgery.  It will be at 12:30 in the afternoon.  Did I say I was excited. I packed my bag already for the hospital and went grocery shopping for my broth and jello and popsicles etc. etc.
I'm praying that all goes well even though I'm not afraid anymore.  I'm so excited for my health and energy to come back.  I tell ya just losing 26 pounds has helped alot with my energy.  My knees don't hurt anymore either.  I'm almost there.

To excited!!

May 02, 2007

I'm so excited about my upcoming surgery.  Only 7 more days.  I can't believe I finally did it.  I lost those stupid pounds that have been holding me back all of this time.
The girls at work do not support my desicion to have surgery.  The do not think that I'm heavy enough.  Of course they don't live in my body or have my co-morbitities.  I should say of of the girls is happy for me but the others that I eat lunch with won't even speak of it.  It would be so nice if I could show my excitment.  A couple of the girls I work with are very childish and make fun of people.  I think I am not one of their favorite people but I guess I've gotten to the age that I don't really care.  You know when you are in High School something like this would really bother you but it dosen't now.  Anyway... so so so so so so excited.  I have spent the better part of a year being scared and now I just can't wait.  I went and bought new slippers and I thought about a new night gown but I may just wear the hospital one and use a second for a robe.  I saw someone posted that and I thought that was a good idea.  I want my slippers though.  So this is my little list.
tooth brush
tooth paste
comfy clothing to go home in
my wonderful down pillow
my book?  may be to drugged up to read. 
I think that's it!  I also bought a a beach bag to bring my stuff in instead of a suit case.
It is hard waiting for the day to come.  Monday will be my last day for work.  I'm going to try to come back in 3 weeks but we will see how I feel.  Some people don't feel good at all and some great so I'm playing that one by ear.
Better get back to work....

I have a date!

Apr 30, 2007

May 9, 2007!  I'm very exicted.  In my last post I was so down because I had to loose the rest of my weight and I was so struggling with it.  I was advised to try a liquid diet and it worked!  Right now I'm doing 2 protein shakes a day and a weight watchers meal for dinner.  That is helping so much.  I have to be careful not to gain any weight back because they will weigh me again on Friday at my pre-op and if I have gained they will cancel my surgery.  They are very anal about the weight issue.  They will even weigh me the day of surgery and If I've gained they will cancel. 
So I'm so excited right now.  I'm not down anymore and life is good.

Feelin' Down

Apr 23, 2007

I'm feelin' pretty down today.  I have about 5 pounds to lose before I get my surgery scheduled.  Good ol' Kaiser.  I'm having the worst time losing this weight.  It seems like I'm up and down.  I'm on the waiting list right now but if I don't get this weight off in the next week and 1/2 maybe two they will take me off the waiting list until I lose the 5 whole pounds.  I'm so bummed out.  I do not know what to do besides try to starve myself.  To top if off, today during lunch (I eat everyday with the same ladies) one of them tell's me that she does not think that I need to have the surgery.  She says that I don't look heavy enough.  Okay, I weigh 242 but apparently I don't look like I weight that much.  She thinks because I have overly large breasts that If I get a reduction it will help me work on the rest of me.  I know that it's my decision but it is so hard to hear this kind of stuff.  Then the other girls started talking about the stuff they saw on TLC regarding WLS and how the patient had problems after and blah, blah, blah.  It just made me feel bad.  Let me tell you that the one that said she didn't think I should have the surgery does not have a weight problem.  She can eat anything she wants and not gain.  Two of the other ladies are slender and one is a normal weight   The one with the normal weight  lost 60 pounds on her own and is more sypathetic or more understanding of what an obese person feels like.  She's been there.  I guess I just needed to vent a little bit.  I almost just want to give up.  I'm thinking of trying a liquid diet just to see if I can get these last few pounds off. I'm very frustrated and I feel like quiting.  It sounds so good to just give up and try the breast reduction.  Anyway.... this is me today.  Need some good advise on getting this weight off and encouragement.

Hi All

Mar 28, 2007

Well, I called Kaiser yesterday 2/27 and told them I was ready for surgery.  I have all my test done now and all the requirements.  I have 5 pounds still to lose.  They said to call to schedule when you were 5 pounds away.  I'm wondering how long it will take them to call me back.  I don't even know when we are suppose to have our pre-surgery lab work or whatever its called.  I'm so hoping that my surgery will be done in May.  That way I may be able to enjoy the summer.

I've really been stuggling trying to lose my weight.  It is such a battle everyday.  I'm hungry right now and know I can't eat until I get home for dinner.  I'm so glad there are no vending machines close by and I'm smart enough not to keep food in my desk. :)  Good for me.  I have committed myself to losing the rest of this weight so I will be on target when I start all the pre-op stuff and hopefully will get below before surgery.  I am going to be a lite weight.  I guess the weight won't come off as fast.  We will see.  My goal is 150 after surgery.  The lowest is 140.  Other wise my bones start to stick out and my face looks drawn.


Not Losin'

Mar 19, 2007

I tell ya!  I have 8 pounds to lose and and last month 2/7/07 I had 10 pounds to lose.  I just have to get serious.  I am so close and then I get so discouraged because I don't lose the weight.  It's my fault I have no one to blame.  I know that I am the only one that can lose this weight.  Sometimes I wonder if it's because somewhere in me I'm so scared to go through with the surgery that I drag my feet and get into things that I should not be eating. Ugh!!!!
So this week I am comitting myself to writing down all that eat including the carb cout.  I think I will log onto fitday and set up an account.
I have to have a chest xray still and I'm waiting for the paper work for that.  So whoever reads this knows that I will be tracking my food and carb count.
Hope all is well with everyone.

Doin' good

Feb 07, 2007

Feburary 7
've been doing good on my diet.  I've started using the akins shake for a meal replacement in the morning and really just uping my protein and cutting the carbs way back.  My pants are feeling looser and that is a nice feeling.
I need to find a hobby.  I work 4 10's so that gives me a 3 day weekend but after I do all my chores, cleaning, shopping etc.... I find that I don't have anything to do.  I used to sew, garden, croche,(sp) counted cross stitch.  The only thing that sounds interesting is gardening but the beast lives in the back yard and loves to dig. (I really do love her...Maya)  I call her the beast because she is big and has lots of energy.  Hubby needs to finish her run so when we are not home she can stay there and be with us when we are home.  Less destuction that way.  She is only two.  Any way.... I'm trying to think of something that can take up some of my time that I will enjoy.  Especially after surgery.  That way I'll be less apt to be thinking of eating.  I do suffer from head hunger as I know most of us do.
I wish so much that Kaiser would just schedule my surgery.  I'm so tired of stuggling with my weight.  10% of your weight is a lot to lose.  I want the surgery because I have failed and gained so much weight from my diet failures and then they make us struggle some more just to prove ourselves.  I'm just really getting tired of it.  Then when I do get this last 10 pounds off maybe less now they will schedule the surgery 3 months out and If gain any of the weight back they will cancel the surgery.   Worry  worry worry.  I just want it done.
Big pout!
I can do this... I can do this.... I just have to remind myself. :)

Good Day

Feb 01, 2007


Well today I had my last appointment before surgery.  It was with the phsych.  It was sort of neat to talk to her.  She was very nice and thinks that I'm ready for my surgery.  Oh yeah - don't forget the now 12 pounds I have to lose.  I gained over Christmas and I'm really struggling to get it off.  She sugested that I start using a protein meal replacement so that is what i'm going to do.  I've learned so much on OH and I'm so glad my friend told me about it.  My phsych. (sp) said it was so great that I participate in OH.  So it must have a good reputation. Go OH!
I feel so motivated not to get this moving. :O)

Welcome to my Journey

Dec 05, 2006

Today I attended my second Christmas party.  I am trying to be so careful not to overdue.  I usually don't have any dessert but today I tried baclava (sp) and it was so so good!  I'm still hoping for a weight loss this week.  Oh and then on Thurs. it's our administrative luncheon!  I love to go to these but boy is it hard to try to be good.  I know for sure I'll enjoy a nice glass of wine.  I think that will be two points.  Today is just dragging by at work.  I'm so tired right now I could lay down and go to sleep.  I had to cook last night for the potluck we had today.  It's been a busy day until now.  I read something really neat on the message board today.  A girl named Pamela posted it.  It talked about our memorial board and what everyone on the memorial board died from and hardly any of them died from having the surgergy but from being so obese or car accidents or whatever else.  It really made me feel better.  I have been so afraid that I would be one of the ones to die.  My BMI is not as bad as those mentioned on the memorial board.  That was very nice of Pamela and I know it had to have been a lot of work.  I know that I need to have the surgery but I just want to go into it with a positive attidude that I will be okay and will come through the surgery fine.  Sometimes I wonder if a 49 (next month) year old woman needs to have the surgery but then I decide that I have another 30 yrs. hopefully and it will be quality and not suffering from obesity and all the medical problems that I have right now and I know they will get worse with age.
I'm almost done with my Christmas shopping.  I'm so happy about that.  I love to get up in the morning and drink my coffee and look at the Christmas tree all lite up.  It's so pretty.  Our old cat just loves to lay under the tree.  He is funny.

Well, I'm so happy to say that I have finally started to lose the weight that I need to lose before having the surgery.  I'm down 14 pounds and have 12 more to go.  Over half way there!! Yipeeee....  I read a post this morning that was nice to see.  A lady named Karen had her surgery and is doing great! 2 weeks out and no problems.  I need to really pay attention to the ones that don't have the problems so I will stop worrying.  Just losing the little bit that I have makes me feel so much better.  I have to be positive and know that everything will work out. 
I had tons of Christmas shopping to do this weekend.  I have my family over every Christmas Eve for dinner and we open our presents then.  It is lots of fun.  My four grand daughters make is so much fun to watch.  They get so excited.  Christa my oldest daughter came over last night with the kids and Cassidy begged me to let her open a gift.  She is so funny.  I told her no, she had to wait.  So much fun.  We are going to have prim rib, red potatoes, green beans and salad for dinner.  We have that every year.  Don't know when I'm going to get scheduled for surgery so I don't know what I'll be eating next year.  It will be good anyway.  I'm so excited to finally lose ALL of my weight.  It will be so nice to feel good again and not have to take all of my meds.  Will be taking all of my vitimans though.  I'm already taking all of those. Well, I might have to up my calcium and will have to add iron.  I'm dreading that one as it makes me so constipated but I guess my body will get used to it.  Plus I'm a good eater.  I'm not to much into junk but I do have a thing for chips. Bad, bad Debbie. :) I can deal without them though.  I've been doing it for some time now trying to lose this 14 pounds that I got off of me.
So yes, not so wishy washy right now. Feeling more possitive.  I know it will be worth it.  Everyone says they would do it again so I'm going with that.  I need to spend some time in prayer over this to so I can know it's okay with God.  He has always taken good care of me and I know he will continue to do so.  He is so merciful.


I'm still so wishy washy about having this surgery done.  I just don't want to be one of the one's that have the problems.  I keep saying that I know.
I got my house decorated for Christmas and it looks so pretty.  We just finished putting in hard wood floors in the living room and dinning room and what a wonderful improvement.  It has been a lot of good exercise for me.  I really don't like to have a routine of exercising and I know that will be a problem after the surgery.  I will just have to make myself do it.  Lot's of people say they feel so much better when they keep that routine.
I'm doing pretty good staying on Weight Watchers.  It seems like it is the easiest diet for me.  It becomes habit.  I suppose after sugery the eating change will become habit also.  I know protien first.  I'm just so afraid that everything will make me throw up.  I hate to throw up.  When I pregnant with my girls that's all I did was throw up.  I was so sick.  I just know if I can go through that again.  I think I need to think more positive about everything.  My friends that have had the surgery all did great.  One still has a problem eating meats.  She say's one day she can eat them and the next she can't.
She said it is so worth having the surgery.  She feels wonderful.  She has almost lost 100 pounds now.  I have another friend that had the surgery about 9 weeks ago and she can eat anything.  She never had one problem at all.  I want that for me!
I have my blog going in the wrong direction.  I'm going to have to ask someone how to fix that. :) Just in case someone is reading this, have a great day!


I've been reading the message board a lot and it seems like everyone gets so sick after sugery.  Throwing up and lot's of pain and horrible gas.  It makes me so nervous when I read about that stuff.  I know everyone say's they would do it again but it scares me.  I really want to lose this weight and get healthy again but I keep thinking that maybe weight watchers would be the better way.  I have failed at weight lose so many times and that is why I want the sugery but then I get scared.  I'm so afraid that I will be one of the one's that die's or just is plain sick.  I know 4 people personally that have had the sugery and they have all done great.  One of them had no problems what so ever.  She came back to work 2 weeks after surgery.  I read about a man today that is in horrible pain after 3 weeks.  Scary.....  Anyway,  I'm still planning to go for it and pray that it all works out for me.  I've lost 5 more pounds so I have 3 to go before I have my last phych. eval. then 10 more before they will schedule the surgery so I still have time to think about it all.  One day I'm so excited and then I read a blog or message that makes me wonder if I should do it. :)  I guess everyone goes through that.  My family is very supportive about the surgery so that is good.  I will need their support for sure.


My profile has been made very pretty by Holygrl.  I just love it!
I'm still working on losing my weight so I can have my surgery.  I'm going to Weight Watchers now as that seems like it works best for me.  Slowly but it works.  I have 18 pounds to lose and then they will schedule my surgery.  I'm still nervous about it.  Everyone has such different reactions to the surgery.  I'm hoping I will be one of the one's that have no problems.  I'm excited but I'm afraid at the same time.  I know everyone has been there.  I spent a lot of time reading the message boards and get lot's of good recipes and learn so so much from what everyone else is going through.  I love this site.


I have been reading this web site since I decided to begin my journey and I really love it.  I'm still a little nervous about the surgery because I read about so many things that can go wrong and how everyone is different and reacts differently.  A little bit afraid I guess.  I have learned a lot in the classes that I've had to take but still scared. :)  I have to lose 9 more pounds and then I have to have another phych. evaluation.  Seems Kaiser likes you to take 2 of everything.  Nothing like using up the sick leave! :)  Then 10 more before they will schedule the surgery.  I really haven't had the problems that a lot of people have had getting insurence to approve so I won't crybaby about having to do all of the classes.  They won't hurt for sure.
My biggest big deal is losing the required weight.
8:55 pm.  I have been working to upload a picture for the last 3 hours and finally got it.  It will take me weeks at this point to try and make my profile look pretty.


On this day I went to see my PCP about having RNY weight loss surgery.  He agreed I should have the surgery.  I have high blood pressure, acid reflux, pre-diabetic, sleep apnea, knee pain, feet pain etc. etc.  I have Kaiser so I have had to attend a lot of classes and have some medical tests done before they would agree to let me have the surgery. 
Shorty after seeing my PCP I was enrolled in "Weight Management Overview"

5/2/06 "Mindful Eating"
5/9/06 "Mindful Eating"
5/23/06 "Mindful Eating"
5/30/06 "Mindful Eating"

6/14/06 Gastric Bypass Overview
6/26/06 Psych. Evaluation
06/30/06 Kaiser approved me for the Gastric Bypass Program.
Yep... Had to have all of the classes before I even knew if they would approve me or not.

8/19/06 Had my gastric bypass overview class with the surgeon and a large group of other hopeful's.

9/8/06 Meet with my surgeon Dr. Dennen.  I really liked him.  He was very nice, is very knowledgeable and informative.  This is when I was suppose to start loosing my 10%.  I have lost 7 pounds and have 19 to go.  Since the date is now 11/12/06 you can see that I have had a very slow start.

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